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  • Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    To those celebrating today – Christ is Risen! – Happy Easter!

    And then there are the “weird” ones here who are still waiting another week, among which I count myself. There have been a lot of services already – yesterday, I think I was in church for nearly four hours. I’ve really struggled this Lent; from the beginning, I felt less ready for it than most years and this year… wow. For the greater part of Lent, I believed that the Orthodox were also going to be celebrating Pascha today, and it was only looking at the calendar more carefully a couple of weeks ago when I realized that no, there’s a one-week difference. I don’t know. I wasn’t expecting to spend so much time in church this weekend, but I was at vigil last night, and I certainly had the feeling of moving from the darkness into the light, and by the time the service was over, there was an air of hopefulness and joy there. For that I am grateful. (My brain did fight against this on the way home, though. *sigh*)

    I am grateful for the more spring-like weather, and the opportunity to be outside. I’m also grateful for my neighbor who invites me to come walking with her.

    I am grateful for friends who take the time to talk even in the rain.

    I am grateful for making it home in a storm the other day; I wasn’t expecting it, then all of a sudden, I was driving down this country highway with lightning flashes all around. I don’t think that they were very close, as there was only a tiny bit of thunder, but what a show! The next day, driving down those same roads, I could actually see how high the water is, and I’m grateful that there were no issues with low-lying stretches of road or the bridges.

    Mourning dove in wreath
    Time to take the Christmas wreath down!

    I am thankful to have had a little bit of time to be outside with my kids, and I’m thankful that they have places around that they can enjoy riding their bikes through, and that they’ve been fine with this “exploring”.

    I am thankful for the joy of singing.

    I am thankful for the things that are showing signs of life (and even blooming) even after a very cold winter and long periods of neglect.

    I am grateful for the opportunity to have been in contact with a number of people on this day, in the joy of Easter.

    I am grateful for yet another sign that I’m not alone through the hard stuff.

    Thank you so much for being here! Christ is Risen!

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    I really hate it when it seems like I blink and yet another week has passed. Somehow so much of this time ends up feeling like a blur, and it seems like all that is left is a growing list of things that should have been done long ago, but haven’t been done yet.

    In the meantime, though, I’ve been trying not to lose a sense of gratitude, and to also try to make the most of the days at hand. We’ve had a couple of days that have hit 70F, which has been amazing, and especially as the days are getting longer, it would be terrible if we didn’t do something to take advantage of the warmer weather. My younger son had a day off of school a couple of weeks back, and the two of us went out on our bikes and rode ten miles together, and it was amazing. He also started taking pictures with my camera that afternoon, so I’ll be sharing a few of those in this post.

    Broken pier Wind Point Lake Michigan

    A couple of weeks after the real birthday, my youngest, in kindergarten, had her first real birthday party. It was a bowling alley affair, and, per the terms of the contract, was less than two hours long, but for a group of 5 and 6 year olds, it was fine. I was completely stressed out over this for at least a week for a number of reasons, but it turned out really, really good. Even the weather held out, kind of… It started raining about the time that the party started, and it was still raining as people left. Had we started a couple of hours later, everybody would have been going home in sleet, because we had a blizzard come through the next day. The kids were thrilled to get the day off of school, and despite the crazy wind, we never lost power. The next day, our dear neighbor made a path for our car using a snowblower.

    I’m grateful that even though I managed to break a spoke on the one bike (a different one than before), this happened in a place where I could ride to a place where I could leave the bike for a couple of days, and which was very close to the bike shop. On the night that this happened, I was also able to get a ride back home with one of the ladies from church. I’d never talked to her before, and she’s incredibly sweet, and lives just a couple of streets over from where I live.

    I’m grateful for the amazing time I had at St. Haralambos in Niles a couple of weeks back. Not only were some very dear “real life” friends there, I finally got to meet Fr. Andrew Damick in person. We have been online acquaintances (friends) for over 20 years, and it seemed like high time to meet him in person. He actually recognized me by sight as well, which is crazy because it’s been a looong time since I posted any photos of myself that he might come across. 🙂 That was a lot of fun, though.

    Breezy days and kites!

    I am grateful, as well, for the opportunity to visit an old friend and just enjoy sitting on the front step, having a conversation in the sunshine.

    In many ways, I feel pulled very, very, very thin. There have been a lot of good things, to be sure, but there have been a number of very, very frustrating things as well. I don’t know; at this point, I’m not sure that I’ll ever have things “figured out”, but there’s a path to go forward on, and that’s the way through this all. Forgive me again for the blog silence – I truly am grateful for you.


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  • Sunday Gratitude – 4.VIII.2024

    Sunday Gratitude – 4.VIII.2024

    It’s kind of been a weird week; I felt awful on Wednesday with soreness and sinus issues, and while I am doing much better, there’s still traces of the sinus issues lingering.

    I am grateful that in the last couple of weeks, I have gotten to see or talk to a bunch of people who are “near” me. My introvert side is still kind of weirded out about that, but it’s not a bad thing.

    I’m grateful that even with the high humidity, the temperatures haven’t been horrible, and so the air conditioning can more or less keep up with it.

    I am grateful to be reminded of nice things; I found a box of manuka honey soap at Marshall’s when I was shopping with my cousin, and the scent is heavenly. The box of eight bars was $10; on Amazon something very similar seems to start at $36. Manuka honey always reminds me of New Zealand, so very far away… (I could have sworn I had a Wordless Wednesday post on New Zealand, but I can’t find anything.)

    AI prompt: Manuka honey soap

    I am grateful for middle daughter’s striving to help. She’s offered to make me tea a number of times this week and there are times when she’s actually been generally helpful with stuff.

    I’m grateful I made it to church with the three youngest today. They were very, very tired, but we made it.

    I’m thankful that the replacement for a recalled item finally showed up.

    I’m thankful that middle daughter got to visit one of her favorite pets this week. The poor girl loves the animals but can’t take too much at a time because of allergies.

    I was thankful for the loosening up of the schedule for the summer, but I think I will be thankful again when there’s more structure.

    I am grateful for you who read and interact. I never forget that.


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  • Orthodox Help – Help the Kulp Family Purchase a Coffee Trailer

    Orthodox Help – Help the Kulp Family Purchase a Coffee Trailer

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  • NPC World

    NPC World

    For those of you not familiar with the term “NPC”, it comes from video gaming, and stands for “non-playable character”. In a game like the Legend of Zelda (or any of the games in the series), as a player, you play as Link and control his actions. As he explores the world, he comes into contact with lots of other characters, but the player has no control over them. Most serve some sort of purpose to further the gameplay – and so are not hostile to the character you play (well, there’s Magda) – but sometimes are hilariously limited in their actions, blithely continuing on with their tasks even when being attacked or when monsters appear or an emergency occurs. This makes sense from a programming perspective, because the majority have one purpose for being in the game, but this inability to “think” enough to react to situations is quite funny.

    Over the last couple of years, the term “NPC” has been bandied about, usually in reference to unthinking people, the kind who can be “programmed”, so to speak, to parrot whatever the opinion of the day is, in order to make it seem like there’s large consensus on an issue. “NPC” not only insinuates that these people have been programmed, but that discussion of a topic is futile since they have no individuality or thinking capacity.

    As with almost all humor these days, the NPC meme is offensive to some. It’s funny to me having played a good number of video games and having come to the age where one understands that there is no changing most people’s minds through having a logical argument. We filter “facts” through our beliefs, and changing belief is a much more fundamental thing, but I digress…

    If you will recall, I mentioned that NPCs are usually programmed to further the character being played along his journey – although programmed to be unthinking, they do perform a task of some sort. It’s on this point that I’ve been pondering the last few days; that we all have to be extraordinarily careful not to treat the people who play minor roles in our lives as NPCs.

    One of the most famous NPCs in gaming. Once his “task” of giving Link the sword is completed, he conveniently magically disappears, never to be seen again.

    I remember many years ago, perhaps in 2000, when I was working retail. I was travelling on Thanksgiving, and I and a couple of family members went through the McDonalds’ drive through for a quick breakfast on a trip to visit other family. Mind you, most of these fast-food places close by noon, but I remember telling the girl at the window something like, “Thank you very much. I appreciate it.” One of the family members travelling with me looked at me like I had just sprouted an alien antenna from my head and asked me why I had done that. I responded, “Well, it’s Thanksgiving for them too.” I tell you, I don’t think this family member had ever considered that before; in her head, the people working at McDonalds on Thanksgiving were NPCs who were there to serve people travelling on Thanksgiving.

    Unfortunately, it seems like there’s more and more of that. When we interact with other people, it’s in a way that is oblivious to anything besides how they are useful to our journey. I even have seen this in regard to clergy; that a priest, for example, is there for church services, to baptize, marry, and bury, period. The idea that one’s relationship goes beyond the “business” services here is foreign to many. He’s become an NPC.

    This sort of meshes in with the idea that humans are less individuals with souls and more cogs in a great machine, to be used and replaced as needed. Furthermore, I would argue, the idea of DEI brings this to a new level with the idea that excellence (or even competency) is beside the point and in most cases, any one person is enough like another person, and the machine is so big, that one NPC can be replaced for another without doing more than negligible damage to the whole. It’s dehumanizing.

    Recently, it’s just seemed ever more important to take the effort not to treat people like they are NPCs. I’m not saying that one has to learn the life story of the person taking your picture at the DMV. What I am saying, though, is that there are ways to work on staying human with people… Things like making eye contact, being polite (saying “hello”, “please”, and “thank you”), being patient, if you notice something good, give a compliment, if you notice something weird, expressing that to someone near you, listening in general, etc. For me, I’m an introvert, and it’s hard, but, for instance, there’s a gas station near my house and we often stop by for sodas (especially in the summer, with their $1 deal). I don’t know the people well, but I love going there and seeing a “friend”, and I also know I’m one of their favorite customers as well. I don’t know them outside of the store there, but they certainly are individual people to me (whom I enjoy seeing), rather than “the help” who can never check out my items quickly enough.

    I don’t know; it just seems like this has been put on my heart as of late, and it seems important, even if it’s not exactly easy to explain it. I just know I don’t want to live in a place where we’ve ceased to be human with each other, in other words, an NPC world.


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  • Sunday Gratitude – 28.VII.2024

    Sunday Gratitude – 28.VII.2024

    This was a busy weekend, and while I am grateful for the chance to have seen people and “gotten out” a bit, I am grateful for some quiet time coming back home as well.

    On this day of the birthday of a friend who has known me for decades, I am incredibly grateful for those friendships. There was a period of my life where I was moving around quite a bit, and it’s kind of incredible that there are people who have stuck with me for such a long time and over great distances.

    St. Nikola Chapel, Caledonia, WI
    St. Nikola Chapel

    I was talking to a friend earlier in the week, and she could tell that I was getting frustrated and overwhelmed with all the stuff here that is still in the “projects waiting to be done” category. She suggested, as much as possible, taking a little step back and working on gratitude that this was the set of issues going on, rather than, say, issues of mere survival. Something inside me still doesn’t like hearing that sort of “correction”, but she said so with love, and as a way to pull back for a bit more “big picture” perspective. Sometimes we all need that, even when it isn’t comfortable.

    I am thankful that I got to spend time with a relative and that she seemed to have been cheered by the visit. The day gave me a few things to consider, and those things keep floating around my head.

    I am thankful for this life.

    Dear reader, I am grateful for you.


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  • Two months of walking

    Two months of walking

    I have been walking two miles pretty much every day, six days a week since the end of May. I usually go in the morning, though not nearly as early as I did when I was walking a few years ago. The biggest difference is that there are definitely more people out later than at 5am. It’s been kind of nice just to chat with neighbors and such.

    In any case, I haven’t been using a scale. I’m too embarrassed. I don’t want to know right now. However, I have noticed that a lot of my clothes are fitting differently (and usually better). I’m noticing more strength when I walk, and the shooting plantar fasciitis heel pain has been greatly reduced. However, I am still dealing with my feet hurting, especially in the morning, but it’s a different type of pain. (I have had issues with foot pain on and off since I was six. I inherited oddly-shaped feet.)

    The last time I consistently walked, I did so for about six months and I ended up losing something like 20 pounds. I really liked doing that as well, but I was also waking up at 4:30am to make that happen. Coming into the school year again, I’m probably going to be getting into a situation where if I want to walk in the mornings, it will probably mean waking up that early again, and I’m just not sure if I can do that – but we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it, I suppose.

    As I was thinking over these things, Patrice over at Rural Revolution posted this – Slow Progress is Still Progress – and it’s something that I’m trying to keep in mind so as not to get too discouraged.

    I do want to take a moment to thank the person – whomever it may be for the surprise gift of the book “The Stripping of the Altars – Traditional Religion in England 1400-1580” by Eamon Duffy. Boy, picking up the package out of the mailbox, I kid you not, but I asked myself if it might be a brick in there! *L*

    It’s all one foot in front of the other, isn’t it?


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  • Help Rebuild St. Theodosius Cathedral

    Help Rebuild St. Theodosius Cathedral

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 21.VII.2024

    Sunday Gratitude – 21.VII.2024

    Last week kind of flew by in the blink of an eye, and yet at the same time, I’ve been exhausted.

    I am grateful that the presentation on the 12th went off without too much difficulty. It’s interesting, because there were a whole lot of “small” bumps in the road, from the weekend I’d planned to put the bulk of the thing together getting eaten up by shopping for a washing machine, to the computer screen getting broken, to certain programs not working completely correctly, it all kind of came together, even though by the end of it, I was beyond tired and had been tempted to just quit in frustration. Even though I consider St. Alexander’s life to be the one topic I’m probably close to “expert” on, I certainly got a deeper perspective on a number of things pertaining to his life. As “pointless” as that may seem to most of the world, I’m thankful for it. Wouldn’t you know, though, that as I was pulling out an extension cord “just in case”, a second one was tangled with it, and I was too frustrated with everything that I just threw both in my bag… Wouldn’t you know, I was in a large room with only two outlets and so I needed both of those to power the equipment!

    I am grateful that I was able to get the one exterior window sill repaired for a reasonable price, and I wasn’t forced to get a whole new window there. The guys who came were really nice – they were speaking Russian to each other, and at the end, I said a few words in Russian to the one, and he started chattering away to me in Russian. I don’t know all that he was saying to me, I’d catch some of it and then miss things, but it’s fine. The window had been something that had been hanging over my head for a long, long time, so I’m just thankful it’s done.

    I am grateful that President Trump survived the assassination attempt. I don’t use this blog for political blogging – I’m terrible at it because I can’t be right at the keyboard with a hot take on everything – but the whole thing seems to underscore how there are so many metaphysical aspects involved. Sure, on the surface, one can chalk it up to a crazy person with a rifle and crazy good luck, but I don’t think I buy that.

    I am thankful that the RNC went off well and there weren’t any riots anywhere around here. What happened in Kenosha in 2020 was scary enough.

    I am thankful that we’ve been having pretty decent weather. I’m grateful to have had a really beautiful excursion with my three youngest – and quite by accident!

    And, as always, I am thankful for you.


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  • Orthodox Help – Donations for the Leahu Family

    Orthodox Help – Donations for the Leahu Family

    (Reblog from Orthodoxhelp.wordpress.com)


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  • The Lessons I Never Wanted to Learn

    The Lessons I Never Wanted to Learn

    My laptop has a screen again! I am very happy about this, although I can’t say that learning how to connect the laptop to my monitor hasn’t been advantageous. I think I spent $30 ($15 for the item, $15 for shipping to buy a non-operable laptop exactly off of mine from ebay. I spent something like $6 for a precision screwdriver set (because I can’t find the one I had) and spent probably an hour on YouTube watching videos (like this one) on how to replace a screen in a computer like mine. (I bought a couple more things, but ended up not needing them, and they will be returned.)

    broken laptop screen

    In any case, although I do like having a techie geek-girl streak, I had no desire to be working on my laptop like this. I would have much preferred not to have had to put the time and energy into seeing if I could have somebody fix it, then come to the conclusion that it was a much better deal to do it myself ($36 vs $200), then have to find the pieces, order them, research how to do it, and now take the original screen for electronics processing and the extra things to be returned. I would have much preferred that it had never gotten broken in the first place.

    However, reality dictates that we work with what is and not with how we would have liked things to be. I ended up working around the broken screen in preparing my presentation, I learned a little bit about the monitor I have and its features, even though it’s over ten years old, and I learned that I can do a little bit with laptop repair. It’s not nothing; these things will go into the bag of skills I’ve accumulated over the years, and many of those turn out to be useful more than once.

    It’s just that there’s part of me that would rather not have learned them, and a part of me that’s even a little resentful that I had to. The last couple years have been fantastically difficult, and there’s always been a choice there – lay down and die or take this and try to learn something from it. I’m still here, so you know what the choice has been, but I can’t say that I’ve necessarily been happy with the process of learning and growth that were part and parcel of continuing to try to put one foot in front of the other. On the other hand, I suppose there’s a kind of prayer that comes out of trusting in God to teach us those lessons I never wanted to learn.


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  • A quick update

    A quick update

    Forgive me for the blog silence. One of my big “projects” was due this past Friday, and over the past month or so, there have just been so many things that have gone somewhat sideways that focusing on the project was hard. I had planned to use the weekend two weekends ago to finish up the bulk of what needed to be done, but I ended up running around with stuff pertaining to finding a replacement for the washing machine that died. As such, I ended up putting in a good 10+ hours on the project between Thursday and Friday to have it done by Friday evening, and by that time, I was running on two and a half hours of sleep and having forgotten to eat since the early morning.

    I don’t know if I mentioned what the project was over here, but it was a presentation done for a local church on St. Alexander (Schmorell) of Munich, specifically on spiritual growth as reflected in his letters. There was a lot of reading and translating that went on even before the main narrative was put together, and I wanted to have a decent amount of visuals, so there was that to construct as well. Things worked out okay – in one sense, I was glad the group was small enough that there was a quasi-discussion going on, and in the heat, I was glad to be able to sit and talk. I have no idea as far as filming, but if any of you are interested, the YouTube link is here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j-ICBCfff90.

    After I was finished with that, I was just exhausted and needed Saturday to relax because on Sunday, after church, I needed to go back to cleaning in high gear in the house because there were people coming bright and early on Monday morning to repair an exterior windowsill which had deteriorated so badly, I was afraid that with another winter, the windows it held in might fall out. The guys did a fantastic job and saved me a ton of money from the people who insisted that everything in the window opening would have to be replaced. Today I went shopping, but I still feel very, very tired.

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