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  • Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    To those celebrating today – Christ is Risen! – Happy Easter!

    And then there are the “weird” ones here who are still waiting another week, among which I count myself. There have been a lot of services already – yesterday, I think I was in church for nearly four hours. I’ve really struggled this Lent; from the beginning, I felt less ready for it than most years and this year… wow. For the greater part of Lent, I believed that the Orthodox were also going to be celebrating Pascha today, and it was only looking at the calendar more carefully a couple of weeks ago when I realized that no, there’s a one-week difference. I don’t know. I wasn’t expecting to spend so much time in church this weekend, but I was at vigil last night, and I certainly had the feeling of moving from the darkness into the light, and by the time the service was over, there was an air of hopefulness and joy there. For that I am grateful. (My brain did fight against this on the way home, though. *sigh*)

    I am grateful for the more spring-like weather, and the opportunity to be outside. I’m also grateful for my neighbor who invites me to come walking with her.

    I am grateful for friends who take the time to talk even in the rain.

    I am grateful for making it home in a storm the other day; I wasn’t expecting it, then all of a sudden, I was driving down this country highway with lightning flashes all around. I don’t think that they were very close, as there was only a tiny bit of thunder, but what a show! The next day, driving down those same roads, I could actually see how high the water is, and I’m grateful that there were no issues with low-lying stretches of road or the bridges.

    Mourning dove in wreath
    Time to take the Christmas wreath down!

    I am thankful to have had a little bit of time to be outside with my kids, and I’m thankful that they have places around that they can enjoy riding their bikes through, and that they’ve been fine with this “exploring”.

    I am thankful for the joy of singing.

    I am thankful for the things that are showing signs of life (and even blooming) even after a very cold winter and long periods of neglect.

    I am grateful for the opportunity to have been in contact with a number of people on this day, in the joy of Easter.

    I am grateful for yet another sign that I’m not alone through the hard stuff.

    Thank you so much for being here! Christ is Risen!

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    I really hate it when it seems like I blink and yet another week has passed. Somehow so much of this time ends up feeling like a blur, and it seems like all that is left is a growing list of things that should have been done long ago, but haven’t been done yet.

    In the meantime, though, I’ve been trying not to lose a sense of gratitude, and to also try to make the most of the days at hand. We’ve had a couple of days that have hit 70F, which has been amazing, and especially as the days are getting longer, it would be terrible if we didn’t do something to take advantage of the warmer weather. My younger son had a day off of school a couple of weeks back, and the two of us went out on our bikes and rode ten miles together, and it was amazing. He also started taking pictures with my camera that afternoon, so I’ll be sharing a few of those in this post.

    Broken pier Wind Point Lake Michigan

    A couple of weeks after the real birthday, my youngest, in kindergarten, had her first real birthday party. It was a bowling alley affair, and, per the terms of the contract, was less than two hours long, but for a group of 5 and 6 year olds, it was fine. I was completely stressed out over this for at least a week for a number of reasons, but it turned out really, really good. Even the weather held out, kind of… It started raining about the time that the party started, and it was still raining as people left. Had we started a couple of hours later, everybody would have been going home in sleet, because we had a blizzard come through the next day. The kids were thrilled to get the day off of school, and despite the crazy wind, we never lost power. The next day, our dear neighbor made a path for our car using a snowblower.

    I’m grateful that even though I managed to break a spoke on the one bike (a different one than before), this happened in a place where I could ride to a place where I could leave the bike for a couple of days, and which was very close to the bike shop. On the night that this happened, I was also able to get a ride back home with one of the ladies from church. I’d never talked to her before, and she’s incredibly sweet, and lives just a couple of streets over from where I live.

    I’m grateful for the amazing time I had at St. Haralambos in Niles a couple of weeks back. Not only were some very dear “real life” friends there, I finally got to meet Fr. Andrew Damick in person. We have been online acquaintances (friends) for over 20 years, and it seemed like high time to meet him in person. He actually recognized me by sight as well, which is crazy because it’s been a looong time since I posted any photos of myself that he might come across. 🙂 That was a lot of fun, though.

    Breezy days and kites!

    I am grateful, as well, for the opportunity to visit an old friend and just enjoy sitting on the front step, having a conversation in the sunshine.

    In many ways, I feel pulled very, very, very thin. There have been a lot of good things, to be sure, but there have been a number of very, very frustrating things as well. I don’t know; at this point, I’m not sure that I’ll ever have things “figured out”, but there’s a path to go forward on, and that’s the way through this all. Forgive me again for the blog silence – I truly am grateful for you.


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  • Hearing things (in music, that is)

    Hearing things (in music, that is)

    This past weekend, I cranked up the CD player and listened to the album Who We Used to Be by James Blunt. It’s a good album, and I think one of the reasons I got it is that I caught him talking about it in an interview and he described it as being music for grown-ups. I certainly agree. So much popular music is geared toward young people, and people seem to stick with the music of their high school and young adult lives their entire lifetimes, but it’s a lot more fun to sing about falling in love as opposed to paying the bills and making sure to get to bed on time… Not that these are the topics that he sings about! Some of these are actually much darker! There’s one that is called “The Girl That Never Was” which deals with a couple mourning a miscarriage. Let me share that with you here:

    One of the things that struck me, though, is how familiar the tune sounds. There’s a little bit where he sings “just like we always saw” that I absolutely knew is in another song. After awhile, the words “when you’re down” came to mind, and after being tormented by this mystery for a couple of hours, I started searching the internet trying to find the other song.

    I couldn’t remember anything else about the other song except that little phrase, which was virtually useless, but I had a sense that the song came from the 70s, so I started searching for songs with that phrase from that time period. With a little bit of searching, the song “It’s a Heartache” by Bonnie Tyler came up in a page of search results, and immediately, I knew this was the song I was trying to remember.

    I’ve been running around like crazy recently, and haven’t had a lot of time to consider these two more deeply, but as I’ve gotten older, I seem to catch more and more of these little things, especially in music. Music isn’t the only place it happens, though –

    Our stories, our music… It’s not that they’re all necessarily rip-offs of each other, but our brains collect bits and pieces of things, mash them up, forget pieces, then glue them back together with some added bits, and they’re all “new”. It’s not necessarily a bad thing, because it’s these things that tell the heart of the most true stories, the things that frame our worldview, the things that keep us going when reason doesn’t seem to work anymore. As a 17-year-old, I didn’t necessarily hear these things unless they were blatant like “A Lover’s Concerto“. Now, I end up “hearing things” in music everywhere I go.


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  • Sunday Gratitude – 13.X.2024

    Sunday Gratitude – 13.X.2024

    Again, I ask for forgiveness as far as posting. I had the temerity to entertain the brief thought that things were calming down slightly after the school year started, and the very next day, there was another major upheaval, resulting in switching gears where one of the kids will now be homeschooled. I’m grateful that as bad as this situation could have been, there might be a lot of good that comes from it, and hopefully, the child staying home this year will learn and grow a lot from the extra attention.

    AI prompt – the Bible as a lamp

    I’m grateful to be finding kindred spirits in different places. It’s hard for me to be too social – part of me would definitely like to find a quiet hole someplace and read for the rest of my life – but I’ve really been struck by what happens when a person reaches out a little.

    Trinity University campus fountain

    I’m grateful to have been able to make it to the Touchstone Conference. Last year, I did a pretty in-depth review, but they also posted videos from the conference pretty quickly afterward. Although there was a link to a site where they said the presentations would be available online, at least for attendees, I’ve seen nothing posted as of yet. All in all, I think the quality of the presentations were better – they were more geared toward a conference audience as opposed to seeming like academic lectures – but a lot of the joy of the conference, for me, is to be around a group of Christians who consider the questions of what Christian life and Christian witness look like in these days. I’m definitely not someone who parties hard or anything, but I was part of a conversation that Thursday night that stretched until 1am on Friday morning. I got to spend time with old friends, met some new people, and even got to chat a little bit with Rod Dreher (not an affiliate link) and Vesper Stamper, both of whom were presenters.

    Dreher Stamper Touchstone
    Rod Dreher and Vesper Stamper as part of a panel discussion

    I’m grateful to have gotten the chance to visit an old friend, someone I hadn’t seen for many years. He is chronically ill, and so there’s gratitude here simply for the fact that I still have the ability to visit him. We’ve known each other since I was 13 (and he, 14), and despite some radically different paths in life, there’s a level of simply knowing him that doesn’t exist with most people I know.

    I’m grateful, that, with some help from God, I think, in order to hit some of the high notes without making a fool of myself, I made it through a Sunday Divine Liturgy as the entire choir – with a Serbian setting and the vast majority of the service being in Church Slavonic. Some of it was my own doing, but in the end, the range I sang was something like 2 1/2 octaves, and while I was still mostly singing soprano, I did jump into alto as necessary (for the Cherubic Hymn and the Hymn to the Theotokos) and once even to tenor. I got a little lost a couple of times, but it turned out much better than I probably could have even hoped for.

    I am grateful to have been able to sit and just *talk* with a priest, because I just need that sometimes. I’m grateful that it worked out that I didn’t have any kids with me, and although a lot of the talking was on the lighter side, so to speak, there was more to it than “fluff”.

    I am grateful for the beautiful weather; it’s been warm, but getting cooler at night, and I couldn’t ask for anything better.

    I’m grateful also that with all the driving, there haven’t been any major things. It’s really easy to start to be inattentive to the driving when one is doing so much of it, “autopilot” mode, so to speak, and I’m just thankful that the driving isn’t in extremely stressful situations.

    I know there’s a lot more I could list here, but I also need to work on some other things here, so please know that I certainly am grateful for all of you.


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  • Wordless Wednesday #70 – Scenes from a Day

    Wordless Wednesday #70 – Scenes from a Day
    sunrise road

    fog over field car mirror sunrise

    Life is Good password wifi


    blue sky sunshine field electricity

    playgroundbolt


    Green car wash

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 22.IX.2024 – Farewell to Summer

    Sunday Gratitude – 22.IX.2024 – Farewell to Summer

    The last week and a half has been quite warm with temperatures in the mid-80s. This is a bit warmer than my ideal, and between those temperatures and no rain for over two weeks, the incredible green of the grass around here gave way to yellow and brown. The trees, too, are starting to change color, still barely perceptible, but with each passing day appearing a larger hint of impending autumn. We got some rain this past Tuesday or Wednesday morning, but practically all of today has been wet, and the tumultuous winds outside give every indication that they are doing away with summer once and for all. I am thankful for the rain, and even the cooler temperatures; when I managed to make it outside to walk, I don’t like it when it’s already quite warm before 6am.

    I’m thankful that I’ve been able to get the kids where they’ve needed to go the last couple of weeks. I think there must be ways to streamline the process, but at the moment, I’m driving at least 3.5 hours a day. I’m thankful that even if I think it’s mind-numbingly mundane, I was able to avoid an accident and even when I’ve missed turns and such, these haven’t been huge mistakes.

    I’m grateful that I have friends to call and meet up with. I’m struggling with feeling stretched – part of me is more than content to hide behind the computer screen my whole life – but there’s something incredibly important about reaching out in a more human way.

    I’m grateful for a little quiet now, and I’m looking forward to a bit of a “mini-retreat”, for which I am grateful to have the opportunity to attend.

    I’m grateful to have been able to catch up on sleep a little – I’ve really noticed how much less I hurt when I have something approaching an adequate amount of sleep.

    Forgive me for the sparse posting; I still am grateful to you and your support.

    September leaves park path

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  • Wordless Wednesday #69 – Patriot Day

    Wordless Wednesday #69 – Patriot Day


    never forget plaque tree patriot day 9/11

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  • Wordless Wednesday #68 – Rocks

    Wordless Wednesday #68 – Rocks
    Split Rock Lighthouse, Minnesota

    Gene Roddenbury rock Vulcan Alberta Canada

    New Zealand river rocks

    Rock, mountains, street, Juarez Mexico

    Memorial Rocks Munich Germany Freiheit Scholl Probst graves

    Lviv Leopolis Lion

    Rocks stack Lake Michigan Carthage College Kenosha

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 1.IX.2024

    Sunday Gratitude – 1.IX.2024

    Yes, I know it’s Monday again, but it is a long weekend, so we’re kind of in that weird world where it isn’t Sunday, but it doesn’t necessarily feel like Monday either.

    I am grateful that the school stuff seems to be going okay so far. There was one small issue, but I think it’s resolved, and at the very least, the teacher knows what to keep an eye out for.

    I am grateful to be able to do things for other people – this may sound silly, but I’m trying very hard to make an effort to reach out and I think it’s generally a good thing. When my kids see it – well, at least the younger ones – I think that at some level they understand what’s happening, that running “church bread” over to a family when they’re feeling sick or what have you might be a little thing, but it’s a good thing.

    I’m grateful that we did something the kids thought was quite fun this weekend and that the weather was beautiful for it.

    I’m grateful that we have ways of keeping micro-preemies alive – if this seems like a totally random observation, this might explain (the people are friends of mine): https://www.mealtrain.com/trains/47dg66 . I am thankful that there are people who are keeping them all in prayer and who are pitching in to help.

    I’m thankful for the opportunity to get to know some of my internet friends better without the computers, and I’m excited for a plan a couple of us are working toward.

    AI Monarch butterfly on tall green plant

    Thank you all for reading – I appreciate you all very much!

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  • Wordless Wednesday #67 – Nintendo 2DS photography

    Wordless Wednesday #67 – Nintendo 2DS photography


    Roses 2DS


    rainbow without rain

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 25 August 2024

    Sunday Gratitude – 25 August 2024

    Well, three of the kids are back in school, and as much as it is hard to get back in gear, I’m also thankful for it because we need that structure to resume.

    I am grateful that there are people around who care for me, both near and far.

    I am grateful to get back in contact with people I haven’t been in contact for a good long while. They are the people who end up giving a person pieces of one’s self that have been lost along the way.

    I am thankful that there are people who enjoy chatting with me on the phone or over breakfast, just because.

    I’m grateful that the weather hasn’t been too crazy. Today was hot, and the next couple of days seem like they’ll be quite hot, but earlier this week, with the beginning of school, it really seemed like fall. In the meantime, the world is so incredibly green and colorful, it’s just amazing.

    I’m grateful that I was able to find a couple of things I had lost – and had remained lost for quite awhile. I’m still having trouble finding a couple of other things, but there are certain ways to work around this.

    I’ve felt myself kind of stalling out in the last few weeks; hopefully, I’ll be able to “restart” a little with the change in routine. I am very grateful for all of you who read, and who pray for me and others, and say hello now and again. 🙂


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  • Wordless Wednesday #66 – An Evening in Auckland

    Wordless Wednesday #66 – An Evening in Auckland
    Auckland harbor harbour quay

    Auckland New Zealand quay downtown

    Dilworth Building Auckland New Zealand

    Auckland New Zealand stone marker

    Auckland New Zealand emu statue
    Auckland New Zealand lighted building

    Auckland New Zealand Sky Tower

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