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Sunday Gratitude – 18.X.2026

Hi everyone! Glad to be back here. I’m still struggling with a lot, and there’s a lot that’s really overwhelming. However, I’m going to give it a shot as far as gratitude here.
Most importantly, probably, is that my son had a surgery on his ear a couple of weeks back, and everything went really, really well. Yes, he had the same surgery back in February on the other ear, and it went really well, but there’s still a good bit of nervousness attached to all these things.

Secondly, I recently took part in the Serbian Orthodox Choral Association’s annual choir festival. Because it was only a week after the surgery, I wasn’t going to go, but then there were people who had signed up who either couldn’t go or couldn’t sing, and I was asked if there might be some way that I could go. I managed to get things arranged, and I went. It was an amazing trip, and I hope to write about it separately. Most of us who went ended up driving, including the people I rode with, but everything went off without a hitch, there were no accidents or incidents with the driving, and the event was a lot of fun. I am very grateful for that, and for getting to see the city and experience the city a little.
If any of you are interested, our choir’s performance can be found here (our group starts at 45:15):
The weather has gotten cooler, and I’m grateful for that (St. Louis at over 90F was quite a shock to the system). This just seems to be one of those patches that is especially rough, so I’d appreciate your prayers for me and my kids.

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Living in Wonder – Book Impressions

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Maybe the third time is the charm with this post, as I’ve started twice over the last couple of months, but never managed to get more than a couple of paragraphs into a review before getting pulled away by one thing or another. (Maybe, just maybe, my motivation for finishing it now is that there’s a different project in desperate need for attention, and I’m having a hard time working on it. No, never, right? *L*)
Honestly, this is a book that is really hard for me to review for a number of reasons. First off, I’ve been a subscriber to Rod Dreher’s Substack for nearly two years now (and please use my referral link if you’d like to as well), and in the space of that time, his readers really got to get an inside look at this book being created, from concept, to difficulties with it, to even voting on a cover design. Secondly, I’ve now met Rod on two occasions, which probably doesn’t make me an unbiased reviewer. Third, there’s a particular aspect of it that hardly feels like something different, probably in large part due to the fact that Rod and I are not just converts to Orthodox Christianity, but people who have now been in the Orthodox Church for a long time; me, 22 years, and he, 18, I think. In the book, he’s not pushing that everyone be an Orthodox Christian, but a there’s a lot that he brings up that draws on Orthodox Christian practice. For someone like me, it’s just become a way of life, right down to the philosophy that as much as there is to this world that is seen, there’s more that is unseen, and most of it is probably beyond what our minds can understand “logically”.

Not quite a relaxing beach, but hey, this is Wisconsin! *L* So let me back up here a bit. There a couple of major themes to “Living in Wonder” – in interviews, Rod has stated that he hates the word “enchantment” to describe what he’s trying to get at (10 minute mark), because people associate it with being shallow, like pixie dust in a Disney movie or something. However, “enchantment” does happen to be the opposite of “disenchantment”, which, he argues, is the way that we in the West have learned to see the world, more or less severing the connection between substance and spirit. It turns out, though that people aren’t designed to live like that, and as a result, lots of people are seeking something else, and finding it, and whether that “enchantment” is striving for God, or allowing one’s self to become enchanted by darker forces – this is really the question of our time.
The book goes into a lot of stories; stories of people who have found themselves in the presence of miracles, and those who have had experiences with what were probably demons. In a lot of cases, we’ll probably never know for sure. However, whereas the Christianity of my childhood would be highly dismissive of a lot of claims on both sides (weeping icons? Impossible!) there’s so much evidence that these “unexplainable” phenomena exist that it’s folly to pretend that they don’t. Furthermore, there are plenty of people who have no qualms about seeking out darker spirits, one ought to be aware of how that can affect a person.
A fair amount of the book does make that connection from the anecdotal to actual studies and research and the like, which ended up getting into modern issues such as dark enchantment through technology, and the ways people today – from kids to very, very powerful adults – are influenced by this.
The book continues on to talk about ways Christians can “re-enchant” their lives, and this is the part, in particular, where Rod draws on his experience of life as an Orthodox Christian for inspiration to do so. Some of it is as “simple” as really being mindful of what our attention is being drawn to – things of God or something lower. Some of it is allowing ourselves to be changed and molded by God and understand that there are some that do this so well that they do “miraculous” things on a regular basis. Near the end of the book, he talks about three men who he regards as “Prophets of the Real” insofar as they are talking to large numbers of people both in person and by means of the internet on different aspects of Christian “re-enchantment”. I’m not sure that I’d pick the same people, but it’s his book, not mine, and he makes the case there. 😉
I liked the book quite a bit, but it was kind of weird to be reading it for the first time, and feel like I’d read it before. No, I hadn’t been anywhere close there, but with being a daily reader of his, there were a lot of things that had been brought up by him that made it very familiar. I enjoy reading Rod a lot in large part because he is a writer whose faith influences his writing quite a bit, but doesn’t do it in a way where one feels like they’re being hit over the head with moralizing or a conversion effort or something. His thesis that “enchantment” is one of the up-and-coming issues of the day certainly is strong, and this book makes a very interesting and readable case for that.
For those of you who want to get a taste of the book, chapter one can be found here: https://www.book2look.com/book/9780310369134 .
I got my signed copy through Eighth Day Books in Wichita – it looks like they still have signed book plates to offer those who order through them still available here: https://www.eighthdaybooks.com/product/165310/Living-in-Wonder-Finding-Mystery-and-Meaning-in-a-Secular-World–With-bookplate-signed-by-Rod-Dreher-while-supplies-last (not an affiliate link)
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Lilla Rose Update – March 2025

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I’m a bit earlier this month than last, but I was so late last month that I think I ended up with some of March’s new stuff in the mix. However, we’ll work with what we have here. 🙂
The “Mane Event” flexi this month is called “Lilian“. Very much themed to Mardi Gras, but it’s a classic design that isn’t specific to the holiday either.
The obligatory “new releases” 🙂
And a retail promotion that works well with St. Patrick’s Day of a free acrylic U-pin, you pick the shade of green.
It looks like Lilla Rose is going to start doing some Friday offers or promotions or something, and I’ll let you all know when I know. I know these posts aren’t everyone’s cup of tea, but I hope you’ll not mind them too much.
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Orthodox Help – In Search of a Kidney Donor

Besides two birthdays, this week has had a couple of hard deadlines for stuff. I managed to hit the one for today, and I need to get the other done this weekend, so forgive me again for light posting.
I do want to share this with all of you – the priest at Holy Myrrhbearers Orthodox Church in Bonners Ferry, Idaho has put out an appeal looking for a kidney donor for someone there. I know a little bit more about the situation that what is posted here, but I don’t want to say a whole lot because of people’s privacy and all. However, I do feel it’s an important message to share, not only because the person needs prayer, but because if there would be somebody to volunteer, the message needs to get to them in the first place.


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Saturday on Substack – 22.II.2025
This Substack post contains reference to the Beatles, the Lennon Sisters, the Rutles, Oasis, and Yoko Ono. Just to give you fair warning!

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Is the Age of the Snowflake Over? (Caleb Hammer)

I’ve been hearing things over the last couple of months that Gen Z – born after the Millennials, so born between 1997 and 2012, roughly – are much more “conservative” than Millennials. Despite having two children that fall into the tail end of this demographic, I don’t see enough people of these ages to really feel I have any great insight into it. However, I did hear a lot of chatter about the way Gen Z voted in the 2024 Presidential election (such as here: https://www.usatoday.com/story/opinion/columnist/2024/11/07/trump-win-men-gen-z-voted/76095027007/), chatter about Gen Z being more traditional, and about Gen Z even returning to church. This phenomenon, though, seems to be heavily male, and as this generation starts settling down in earnest, I suppose we’ll see how people end up.
One thing that just strikes me as interesting, though, and maybe a bit of the Zeitgeist, is the Caleb Hammer show. The episodes are on Youtube, and Mr. Hammer, himself just celebrated his 30th birthday, talks to people who are in debt to try to make some sense of their finances and set down a path for the guest to follow to try to make it out of debt. Dave Ramsey he is not. Instead of the unflappable, “grandfatherly” persona Ramsey has built, Hammer is not only excitable and often yells at his guests, he heaps insults at them and is often crass and vulgar. The episode that “dropped” on Valentine’s Day, for example (very, very not safe for work – do not play around children):
(For an episode that is much easier on the ears as far as crudeness and profanity, this one might be a better choice: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sGBs6WShjds . On the other hand, in this episode, the guest isn’t constantly arguing with Caleb to justify why he is in such financial straits. )
The thing is, the majority of Hammer’s guests are young, and regardless of whether they make a good income or not, they spend well past their means. In the comments of the videos, there are jokes about filling out the “bingo cards” because regardless of how unique the cases are that Hammer’s people try to find him, there are things that person after person do. Most of these people have purchased a car in the last couple of years, most at terrible interest rates. (A good number had a car before that they weren’t maintaining, and decided it was better to get a new car than to do repairs on the old one.) Most of these people have spending problems with a “I like it, I’m going to buy it” attitude. Most eat out an awful lot, including coffee on the go and/or drinks and snacks at gas stations. Most run multiple credit cards, and consider making the minimum payments as “paying off” the credit cards. There are a lot who take out payday loans. Student loans are also a big thing, and it’s crazy how many of these people were hanging their hopes on student loan forgiveness by the US government.
Then there’s Caleb himself, a young, kind of nerdy-looking guy who sits down with the guests to go through their debts and income and all. Yes, it’s part schtick, but Caleb goes nuts on many of the guests, many times screaming and berating the people sitting across from him. The thing is – most of these people seem to kind of need it. It’s like most of these people have never considered that not paying one’s debts is not a small character flaw; that this is something that will drag down their lives – and the lives of their children – for years and years to come if they don’t take care of it. He’s not nice to people about this at all.
And this is what has me wondering. His channel has been growing a lot, and while surely he gets some interest from the very clickbait thumbnails, crazy thumbnails aren’t enough to explain having over 1.8 million subscribers. He’s joked about it being a little like Jerry Springer, and with the situations and the yelling there, sure, there’s a bit of similarity, but I think there’s something else going on here that is deeper.
Hammer himself doesn’t really talk about his politics, but he definitely gives the impression of someone who is not “woke” at all; someone who is interested in facts, and who not only believes that facts don’t care about a person’s feelings, he’s going to be blunt in calling people into account for some very bad decisions. He’s not going to be convinced by excuses, and he’s not going to try to soften his approach to make people feel good; if anything, he’s more likely to double down.
The thing is, I think to a large number of Americans, especially those who are young, have been coddled to the point where hearing somebody speak the truth and do so boldly and unabashedly is a breath of fresh air. There are a lot of people in the comments who have stories of paying off debt the right way by emulating a lot of the steps that Caleb endorses. There are also a lot of people who have little stories of being tempted to, for example, stop for snacks in the middle of the day and say that imagining Caleb having a heart attack over it helps keep them from spending the extra money.
In some sense, too, the show is quite aspirational. He actually has a fairly wide range of incomes there – I’ve seen a range of ~$20,000 to ~$150,000 yearly for a single person – and in most cases, there is some sort of path forward without bankruptcy if the person is willing to absolutely buckle down and work on paying off the debt. However, the goal isn’t just getting these people to a point of breaking even, but to get them to start thinking about the next steps; having enough in an emergency fund for an actual emergency, starting to invest, etc., so that life does get to a point where it is more financially comfortable and one legitimately has more options in the future. This isn’t something that is strictly limited by income itself; it’s the sinking further and further into debt that limits a person’s opportunity more than anything. He’s certainly had people who were making good money on there be in worse shape than someone making a third of that because so many people who make more then spend more, getting themselves into more of a financial mess than someone who didn’t have an opportunity to get into as much debt.
It really is kind of the anti-snowflake show. People come on there, fully aware of how the show works, and I have to wonder if they do it because at some level, they know they need the truth to go forward, no matter how hard that truth may be. There are a few guests who are sympathetic from the very first minute, and with most, as they seem to begin to catch on to things, become so over the course of the hour or so, but every once in awhile, there’s someone who is so hard-headed, deceitful, or childish that the person watching is kind of rooting against him or her. That Caleb Hammer is the guy who is going to tell these people they can’t go off and travel or otherwise squander money while in debt to people who have never heard this before is compelling to watch, even without the theatrical elements that Hammer adds.
I’ve just been binge-watching these for a couple of weeks, and while I can’t whole-heartedly endorse them because of the language and adult humor, it hit me how much this seems to be a show that has caught the Zeitgeist in a big way; learning from the excesses of fantasy-land to face a truth that may be hard to face, but in the end has the possibility of setting one free.

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Lilla Rose Update – February 2025

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Yes, it is late in the month, but maybe my strategy is like Mark Belling on WISN radio, who would give the hourly keyword to the radio contests with less than half an hour to go – in some cases – and would still manage to get contest winners! *L* I do miss him on the radio.
February’s “Mane Event” flexi is “Elizabeth“

February’s new releases:
My favorite is the one with the green – it’s called “Reagan“.
This month’s retail promotion is a free surprise hair stick with orders of $50 or more.
A lot of the new and featured stuff tends to run a little more expensive. With the flexis, in particular, you can sort from lowest priced to highest. Here you’ll see a bunch of things that have been on the website longer, including perennial favorites, and even without being on clearance, they’re starting at $11. Some of my favorites in this range are Steampunk and Freestyle, but my favorite of all time is Montana – seen in the featured photo of my hair on the post – which starts at $12.
I did miss posting the Valentine’s Day sale; most of the time, even as an affiliate, it’s not like we have a long heads-up on promotions, so as I am going to be working on getting back to being more consistent on the blog, hopefully I won’t be missing more of these things, because they do end up being really good deals.
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Sunday Gratitude – 16.II.2025

It’s another one of those weeks that just flew by. We had a good bit of snow on Wednesday, and even though it didn’t start coming down until late morning, it probably snowed a good 15 hours, and by the time it was all over, there were five inches of incredibly light, fluffy snow on the ground. On Thursday, I set my alarm very early to go out and shovel; thankfully, the snow was light because I got up much later than I had wanted to, but I still was able to shovel out what I needed to of the driveway before the first school taxi round had to take place. I am thankful that the roads were decently clear and that there were no issues with driving.

I can’t take photos whilst driving, so AI it is! I am thankful to have been able to catch up by phone with an old friend.
I’m still working on the sofa project, and I’m incredibly frustrated by children who seem determined to reverse progress that I make, but at the same time, I am incredibly grateful for those kids and having them in my life. The time just goes by so quickly. I’m thankful that whatever “bug” that is going around here hasn’t been too bad; it’s just led to lots of stuffiness and discomfort while sleeping. I could resent the very sleepy whining from my youngest of “Mommy, I want you here by me,” to help the little girl sleep, but it really won’t be that much longer before that sort of thing will be over and just having mom nearby isn’t a “cure” anymore, and so I’m trying to appreciate it as much as I can.
I am thankful for the email of a friend, even though it was also tough, and brought up a lot of emotion.
I am grateful for the kindness of a fairly new friend here, and a lunch date that lasted two and a half hours as we just discussed kids and life and God and everything in between. 🙂 Maybe someday we’ll get to do that more regularly, but right now we’re in the thick of it with kids and all.
Thank you all for reading and for your prayers!

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Grinding away (Dragon Warrior and Galations 6:9)

When I was a kid, my cousins from Tennessee came to visit once, and my older cousin brought the NES game “Dragon Warrior” with her. I hadn’t had any experience with RPG games, either electronic or not (Advanced Dungeons and Dragons for Intellivision was kind of a joke, though it was fun to play) so this was really a departure to what I was used to. I fell in love with the game so much that I asked for my own copy for my birthday, and despite it costing $49.99 – in 1991 – I actually got it.
If my parents were worried that I wouldn’t play it enough to justify the cost, they needn’t have worried. I played that game for hours and hours and hours. I had the map from Nintendo Power and pored over it until I had it memorized. (I had “laminated” it in packing tape to keep it from tearing apart!)
One of the things that a person can’t get around in the game play for this game is that there is a lot of “grinding” required to gain experience, skill, and to earn money. The following is a video of somebody just starting out who is running across the screen in the hope of coming across monsters to do battle with in order to level up:
There are different types of monsters in different areas of the map, and, depending on one’s level and what one needed (gold or experience points), one would learn the places on the map that made this grinding somewhat efficient – if you need 7700 gold for an item, hanging out with enemies who give 1-2 gold a kill is going to make it take forever. At some point, the map is hardly necessary, for as large as the world is, I had covered every spot on the map (as well as every dungeon, cave, and town) multiple times in order to build my skills enough to save the princess and kill the dragonlord.
The funny thing is, even on speedrun.org, the fastest anyone has ever finished the game is 5 hours, 15 minutes, and 7 seconds. There is just no way around wandering around a lot to get better facing the smaller adversaries in order to eventually beat the greatest enemy.

I don’t know; since about October, I’ve kind of felt a little bit of a melancholy about me; it has just seemed like this is one of those seasons where one is slogging along, hoping not to get too weighed down by everything. Galatians 6:9 sits as an admonishment to me with its imperative, “And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.” (ESV)
Somehow, though, my brain has made the connection that even when things get quite frustrating and it seems like it’s the same old annoyances coming up over and over again, there is a point to it. First off, it’s important to keep going and keep fighting the “daily” battles – on one hand, it may be wearing us down, but on the other, our response to adversity is being honed. Secondly, if we can have that patience to slay all the “little” monsters, the reward for that is only attained by not giving up. Yes, it’s going to feel like the daily grind often, and during some seasons, it will seem like all we’re doing is constantly battling everything. Even in Dragon Warrior, which I found to be a very fun game, the bulk of the game was running around trying to build up the right skills to be able to finish the quests and puzzles in order to come to the end of the game triumphant.


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Sunday Gratitude – 2.II.2025

The week just flew by. Today is the first day where the day felt like it was long, and I think some of that was because we didn’t go to church today and we had a chance just to relax at home. As much as I do feel somewhat guilty about not going to church, even though I still have a bad cough and one of my kids woke me up at 6:45am complaining he didn’t feel good, I’m thankful for the quiet day.
I received a package this week of sweet treats from the St. John Monastery Bakery, a gift from someone whom I haven’t seen for years, simply as a token of kindness. Oh, my goodness, is it good! It may be mean, but I’m not sharing it with the kids, but I don’t think biscotti (and the best biscotti I’ve ever had) is necessarily a kid thing.
I am grateful that one of the big stressors that hung over my head in January is done, and from here on out, we’ll take it one day at a time. I’m going to have to be much more careful about some things in the future, but part of me was expecting a disaster, and I’m grateful that didn’t happen.

I am grateful for people’s patience with me.
As much as being followed around and being talked to constantly gets annoying, I am grateful for the moments with my kids, especially when I get to see the best things.
I am grateful for all of you who read, subscribe, & comment!

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Sunday Gratitude – 26.I.2025

I certainly haven’t been praying here as much as I should have, but it looks like there might finally be a good outcome in the “Save James” case: https://globaloccurrences.substack.com/p/trump-will-save-my-son . (I’ve written about Jeff Younger here as well.) I haven’t heard anything besides what Younger has posted, but it makes me cautiously optimistic, and if it’s true, it’s a huge thing to be grateful for.
As for things a little closer to home, it’s been a fairly quiet week. The kids had Monday off and then both schools called off for bitterly cold weather, so it ended up being a very short school week. To that end, I’m grateful that it meant that I didn’t have to be driving them around on those days.
I’m grateful to be able to be working on another section of the project which is “the house”. It’s a tough slog that seems never-ending, but in getting the first big “shift” done, it’s made three kids extremely happy and relaxed the overall vibe quite a bit. I’m grateful for every time my 4-year-old comes over to me after she’s cooked me (play) food on the kitchen set that’s now accessible to her.
I’m grateful that we’re getting through the winter without any major things – no major sicknesses or disasters or anything. Every once in awhile, I catch myself maybe being a bit too aggressive on the driving, and I am thankful that it’s all turned out okay. I’m also thankful for the reminder to try to stay off auto-pilot when I’m driving.
I am thankful that I found where the really bad smell in the front hallway was coming from. I will spare you the gory details, but I didn’t see something at the bottom of a box of groceries I brought in, and it was making half the downstairs smell bad. Part of me just thought it could have been really strong stale shoe smell or something, but it wasn’t. I found what it actually was, and not only could it have been much, much worse, I found it on the day the trash goes out, before the truck had made it to our house, so I didn’t even have to worry about the potential of it being something that might attract a hungry animal by leaving it outside.

I am also grateful for this place here, though I’m sure it looks much different now. I am thankful for every day of this life, no matter how hard some of them are, and how much I can squander the time.
I am grateful for all of you who read, subscribe, & comment!

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