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  • Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    To those celebrating today – Christ is Risen! – Happy Easter!

    And then there are the “weird” ones here who are still waiting another week, among which I count myself. There have been a lot of services already – yesterday, I think I was in church for nearly four hours. I’ve really struggled this Lent; from the beginning, I felt less ready for it than most years and this year… wow. For the greater part of Lent, I believed that the Orthodox were also going to be celebrating Pascha today, and it was only looking at the calendar more carefully a couple of weeks ago when I realized that no, there’s a one-week difference. I don’t know. I wasn’t expecting to spend so much time in church this weekend, but I was at vigil last night, and I certainly had the feeling of moving from the darkness into the light, and by the time the service was over, there was an air of hopefulness and joy there. For that I am grateful. (My brain did fight against this on the way home, though. *sigh*)

    I am grateful for the more spring-like weather, and the opportunity to be outside. I’m also grateful for my neighbor who invites me to come walking with her.

    I am grateful for friends who take the time to talk even in the rain.

    I am grateful for making it home in a storm the other day; I wasn’t expecting it, then all of a sudden, I was driving down this country highway with lightning flashes all around. I don’t think that they were very close, as there was only a tiny bit of thunder, but what a show! The next day, driving down those same roads, I could actually see how high the water is, and I’m grateful that there were no issues with low-lying stretches of road or the bridges.

    Mourning dove in wreath
    Time to take the Christmas wreath down!

    I am thankful to have had a little bit of time to be outside with my kids, and I’m thankful that they have places around that they can enjoy riding their bikes through, and that they’ve been fine with this “exploring”.

    I am thankful for the joy of singing.

    I am thankful for the things that are showing signs of life (and even blooming) even after a very cold winter and long periods of neglect.

    I am grateful for the opportunity to have been in contact with a number of people on this day, in the joy of Easter.

    I am grateful for yet another sign that I’m not alone through the hard stuff.

    Thank you so much for being here! Christ is Risen!

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    I really hate it when it seems like I blink and yet another week has passed. Somehow so much of this time ends up feeling like a blur, and it seems like all that is left is a growing list of things that should have been done long ago, but haven’t been done yet.

    In the meantime, though, I’ve been trying not to lose a sense of gratitude, and to also try to make the most of the days at hand. We’ve had a couple of days that have hit 70F, which has been amazing, and especially as the days are getting longer, it would be terrible if we didn’t do something to take advantage of the warmer weather. My younger son had a day off of school a couple of weeks back, and the two of us went out on our bikes and rode ten miles together, and it was amazing. He also started taking pictures with my camera that afternoon, so I’ll be sharing a few of those in this post.

    Broken pier Wind Point Lake Michigan

    A couple of weeks after the real birthday, my youngest, in kindergarten, had her first real birthday party. It was a bowling alley affair, and, per the terms of the contract, was less than two hours long, but for a group of 5 and 6 year olds, it was fine. I was completely stressed out over this for at least a week for a number of reasons, but it turned out really, really good. Even the weather held out, kind of… It started raining about the time that the party started, and it was still raining as people left. Had we started a couple of hours later, everybody would have been going home in sleet, because we had a blizzard come through the next day. The kids were thrilled to get the day off of school, and despite the crazy wind, we never lost power. The next day, our dear neighbor made a path for our car using a snowblower.

    I’m grateful that even though I managed to break a spoke on the one bike (a different one than before), this happened in a place where I could ride to a place where I could leave the bike for a couple of days, and which was very close to the bike shop. On the night that this happened, I was also able to get a ride back home with one of the ladies from church. I’d never talked to her before, and she’s incredibly sweet, and lives just a couple of streets over from where I live.

    I’m grateful for the amazing time I had at St. Haralambos in Niles a couple of weeks back. Not only were some very dear “real life” friends there, I finally got to meet Fr. Andrew Damick in person. We have been online acquaintances (friends) for over 20 years, and it seemed like high time to meet him in person. He actually recognized me by sight as well, which is crazy because it’s been a looong time since I posted any photos of myself that he might come across. 🙂 That was a lot of fun, though.

    Breezy days and kites!

    I am grateful, as well, for the opportunity to visit an old friend and just enjoy sitting on the front step, having a conversation in the sunshine.

    In many ways, I feel pulled very, very, very thin. There have been a lot of good things, to be sure, but there have been a number of very, very frustrating things as well. I don’t know; at this point, I’m not sure that I’ll ever have things “figured out”, but there’s a path to go forward on, and that’s the way through this all. Forgive me again for the blog silence – I truly am grateful for you.


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  • Possibly the stupidest (and most dangerous) “Orthodox Christian” website out there.

    Possibly the stupidest (and most dangerous) “Orthodox Christian” website out there.

    I’m a bit of a techie, and AI interests me, but I think it’s something that people believe has been developed much further than it actually has. The jury is still out, as far as I understand it, on whether AI creates anything new, but rather just takes bits and pieces that it’s gobbled up and reworks them into something else. Granted, when one looks at disciplines such as music – and in particular pop music – one notices that there’s a lot of that going on with humans as well. Nevertheless, by adding all the bits and pieces that get put into the stew and mixing them around, genius comes up with something new – a truly original work. As much as AI is all the rage right now, I don’t think it really creates anything – all AI does is compute what might be a wanted result.

    Hilary White, a Catholic iconographer, talks about AI in relation to art, and especially liturgical art, in her Substack blog, which can be found here: https://hilarywhite.substack.com/. One of her recent posts on the issue deals with how AI “confuses” Jesus with the actor Robert Powell, and that a lot of AI art of Jesus is based on images of Robert Powell. (Powell played Jesus in the 1970s film “Jesus of Nazareth”) That post can be found here: https://hilarywhite.substack.com/p/ai-images-whatever-it-is-its-not. It’s a good primer on the limitations of AI in art, and please consider that art is supposed to be one of the areas that AI is particularly good at, considering that there’s a lot of subjectivity to the discipline.

    Now, if AI can’t manage to get art right, including making sure that humans have five fingers on each hand, who in their right mind thought that it was a good idea to build an AI service for learning about the Orthodox Christian faith? Well, I don’t know either, because even on the website, though it claims to be created by “Orthodox seminary graduates, clergy, and faithful”, there is no further information given. Asking the chatbot is useless as well, as is asking which bishop blessed the project.

    The site of this chatbot is here: https://orthodoxtom.zapier.app/ai. I asked it a simple question, just asking how many men named Symeon are mentioned in the Bible. I believe the answer is six, but this is the answer that I got:

    (Sorry, I can’t figure out how to crop the image in WordPress.)

    Never mind that I’ve never heard Simon Peter or the other Simon ever being called “Symeon” and the bot missed Symeon, patriarch of the tribes of Israel. All one would need here is a book – widely available – of a who’s who of the Bible to answer this.

    I then asked about Symeon of the tribes of Israel, and I think I forgot to screenshot the text, but the chatbot basically responded that, yes, Symeon of the tribes of Israel did exist too, though the tribe became less powerful and important as time went on.

    Now the thing about these chatbots is that they are supposed to learn from the conversation, and use this “learning” to be able to help the person asking the questions. After admitting that Symeon in the Old Testament does exist, I asked about Symeon again, and now, the chatbot only can find two – AND STILL NOT SYMEON OF THE TRIBES OF ISRAEL! How stupid is that?

    I asked this bot what Jonah’s greatest fault was, and this was the answer:

    First of all, the bot criticizes me for looking for someone’s greatest fault, and then rehashes the points of God loving us even when we are disobedient, and that we don’t need to be perfect people. It’s all couched in very “Orthodox sounding” language. The obvious answer, though, is that Jonah felt nothing for the humanity of the souls in Ninevah, to the point where he was angry that they had been saved. This is the thread that binds both parts of the book of Jonah together.

    I had a good fight with the bot over the story of the mother of the seven sons mentioned in 2 Maccabees, and then again discussed in 4 Maccabees (which is a canonical book in the Georgian Orthodox Church). By tradition, her name is Solomonia or Salome (depending on translation, I guess) and the OCA has a nice page about her here: https://dce.oca.org/assets/templates/bulletin.cfm?mode=html&id=255. So when I asked the chatbot about Salome’s death, it literally says that Salome’s death is recounted in Matthew – which it is not. (Mind you, I was using one of my favorite “stump the priest” questions on the bot.)

    Umm… as far as I know, no one named Salome dies in the Gospel of Matthew.

    I can’t even begin to tell you how wrong this chatbot is on a factual level, and that alone is enough that no one should use it. More than that, though, the Orthodox Church is not a church where AI is our god. We believe in a God who wants to be in relationship with each of us, and part of that is building the relationships with one another. AI is absolutely dehumanizing. Yes, we in the Orthodox Church say “ask your priest” or “ask a priest” a lot. Even if the priest is wrong, there still is relationship there. There’s a person to have a real conversation with, not a black box making up answers from who knows where.

    There’s a great essay by Nathaniel Marshall talking about AI, apprenticeship, slavery, and Disney’s Fantasia over here: https://thebluescholar.substack.com/p/the-sorcerers-slave. One of the points that he makes that I had never thought about is the idea that even as an apprentice – that is, someone who aspires to someday become a “master” – it is imperative that we actually learn to do the work attached to whatever it is we are learning. In this sense, it was probably less of a sin for Mickey to try to enchant and train the broom, but more so that he wanted to be the magician without actually going through the training for it. AI seems like it is a technology which tries to make that much easier for people to do, and it’s not good for them. If someone wants to learn more about the Church and Christianity, let him or her read and think and ask questions of someone who might know more. Asking a chatbot is ridiculous. Furthermore, I have never heard of anything like a priest being so busy he has to turn all his questions over to a chatbot to take care of. Again, ridiculous!

    I believe, too, that there’s a spiritual aspect here as well with AI, something akin to Ouija boards and the like. I’m not saying that AI is possessed, but if someone is looking for bad spirits, this sort of nonsense is a good place to get people who are vulnerable. It’s not like Ouija boards are packaged with small demons in them, but to people who use them to call upon crazy things, the chance that something crazy will respond is so much greater.

    This was a funny request I put in to the “Orthodox Research Assistant” that actually was reasonably good: 🙂

    Sorry for the light posting; it’s been a crazy week again. Hopefully, I can get posts up tomorrow and then next week will be more “normal”.


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  • Lilla Rose Back to School Sale

    Lilla Rose Back to School Sale

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    Forgive me again for the light posting – things have been pretty hectic here, but I’m hoping the worst of the craziness is over now for awhile. I missed this in my email a couple of days ago, hence why the sale has already started, but it’s a good one, and something I’d like to share with you!

    Lilla Rose’s Back to School sale includes 25% off across the board, a number of items that are 50% off, special items for $4 or $5 with a purchase of $40 or more, $3 shipping on all orders as well as the normal free purse-size essential with a purchase of $50 or more running through August!

    With it being summer, I’m really appreciating the flexi-sports! With the smaller ones, I can put my hair in a ponytail as soon as it’s been washed and I don’t have to worry about the mess of it in the ponytail holder. Not only that, but I got to go swimming in a pool with my “little 3” (getting bigger every day!) and I pinned my hair up with a sport extra and it was fantastic. My hair was up and ot of the way, and I didn’t have to pull and break hair to get the ponytail holder out again. I’m not qualified to comment on how they hold up if one is “really” swimming, but this was amazing in its own little way.

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  • Wordless Wednesday #43 – Monomakhos

    Wordless Wednesday #43 – Monomakhos

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 20.VIII.2023

    Sunday Gratitude – 20.VIII.2023

    I’m thankful that the air condition is working to the extent that it is. The stagnant, extremely humid air gets harder to handle as I get older.

    I’m grateful for good things to listen to, good things to read, and people that I can discuss things with, even when most of this interaction is online.

    I’m grateful to be mom to my kids, even when they drive me to the absolute end of my patience.

    I’m very tired right now, and very stressed. I’m frustrated with the kids and I have things that just feel like they are hanging over my head. I’m hoping that getting through this week gets me to the “other side” of some of this because it’s not a healthy place to be, mentally or physically.

    I’m grateful that a couple things that got lost recently got found, including both foot rollers.

    I bought myself some bone-conduction bluetooth headphones; they feel a little strange, especially after using them for a couple hours straight, but they’re pretty amazing, and it might be a good solution to being able to listen to things at the same time as being attentive to what the kids are doing.

    I’m thankful for all of you. Thank you for all your support.


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  • Saturday on Substack – 19.VIII.2023

    Saturday on Substack – 19.VIII.2023

    My Saturday posts to Substack are a little taste of what’s been “crossing my desk”, so to speak over tha last week. Please take a look! https://open.substack.com/pub/breathofhallelujah/p/saturday-on-substack-19viii2023?utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web


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  • People like me, people like you

    People like me, people like you

    Last week, Rod Dreher posted about the Oliver Anthony Music song “Rich Men North of Richmond” which is going viral. Unfortunately, it’s behind a paywall, but the first time he mentioned it was here: https://roddreher.substack.com/p/immoderate-greatness .

    As much as I have been enjoying Dreher’s writing, when someone tells me that I need to listen or see something “going viral”, my first instinct is to make sure that I don’t watch or listen to it. I’ve always had a stubborn streak like that. I shared one of the other Oliver Anthony songs on my Substack post last week, and I figured that it would be at least a couple of months before I’d revisit the music, because I’ve got other things that I need to be doing.

    Even yesterday, if you’d told me that I’d be spending a huge chunk of today listening to “Rich Men North of Richmond”, I wouldn’t have believed you, but life is funny. Yesterday, as I was trying to catch up on others’ posts (which I failed at), I saw a post from Not the Bee about the song, which can be found here: https://notthebee.com/article/check-out-this-outstanding-compilation-of-people-reacting-to-rich-men-north-of-richmond-/https://notthebee.com/article/check-out-this-outstanding-compilation-of-people-reacting-to-rich-men-north-of-richmond-/. Included is a video, which I’ll embed below, of clips of people’s reaction videos to the song:

    I’ve been surprisingly impressed with many people’s “reaction videos” on YouTube, so I clicked on the video, and for the first time, I heard the song “Rich Men North of Richmond”. If you haven’t heard it, you should. If you like it, buy it off of iTunes or Amazon.

    Wow. Now I have a little bit of a free-spirit, flower-child side to me, and I have been known to embrace protest songs, especially of the 60s. However, I have noticed a definite lack of songs dealing with issues of today. This isn’t anything new, it’s as though most of us in the West have lost our ability to sing after the 1970s. I was impressed by Danser Encore as a “protest song” in 2020. I *think* the group could have been arrested here, what with being maskless and in close proximity to each other. The gist is basically “We just want to dance again” and original French is here:

    (If you search my Gab account, you’d be able to find an English translation I wrote.)

    The Oliver Anthony Music song “Rich Men North of Richmond” is political, but it isn’t partisan, similarly to “Danser Encore”. Also like “Danser Encore”, it discusses the power wielded down from on high by elites which is used in the name of the people, but makes lives worse. “Rich Men North of Richmond” brings up issues of the “rest of us”, those who work for a living, those who feel we have no voice in what gets decided in Washington (or in Madison or Springfield or any number of places). There is anguish, but I don’t think it’s from a man who has given up, it’s from a man who is standing up and articulating a problem. He may be poor, he may be playing his guitar in his backyard, but he’s no dummy.

    This sort of thing resonates. There are a ton of “reaction videos” already and it is stunning to see how many people, hearing this for the first time, are visibly moved, sometimes to tears. What is astounding is that it certainly doesn’t seem to be a song that doesn’t appeal to people based on racial lines, but rather something that has wide appeal to working people – the people who are struggling to make a living and make a life in this world. Furthermore, Anthony explicitly mentions how today’s society is pushing men over the edge, into despair, into suicide.

    I’m going to share some of the videos I watched today, and I’ll try to say a line or two about what I think was the best point some of these people made. I think the song resonates with a lot of YouTubers because although I think it’s fair to say that most of them enjoy the craft, it’s a side hustle that requires a lot of work, and there’s not a huge chance that YouTube is going to ever make them enough money to live on – yet they continue on with it.

    I think this may be one of the best “all around” reaction videos to the song. The man is a vocal coach, and likely has had a more “comfortable” existence for more of his life, but he understands what the song is about at a very deep level:

    A therapist’s take – talking about issues that get raised, especially as the father of boys:

    Someone whose family has family who worked in the mines:

    By simply doing a Youtube search on the song for reaction videos, probably at least half that show up in the first few pages are from black people, and so far, I haven’t seen a single one where the person hated the song – quite the opposite, actually.

    A male/female reaction team:

    It’s not just men who feel it either:

    If I remember correctly, she talks about how she does Youtube because she loves it, but even with over 23,000 subscribers, she’s not making anything from the videos. She doesn’t mention it explicitly, but it made me think of so much work today boiling down to “gig economy” jobs, and the tradeoffs there.

    It is interesting to see how women understand it differently; this woman is deeply moved by it, but it’s much more to the point of how big business is against the little guy, rather than the whole system:

    This woman, in making the point about how the song is so much different from what gets played on the radio, insofar as it’s raw and not full of autotune, but makes the further point that even if it reached the top of the charts on Spotify or what have you, the radio probably still wouldn’t play it because it directly calls out the types of people who have the power to choose things like what makes it to the airwaves or what makes it past record executives.

    This is of a much more political bent, but the woman is almost in tears thinking about the the price of groceries and the world her small child (who can be heard in the background) is going to inherit:


    I’m sure I still missed some good ones that I watched today, but this is already a lot. There are a couple of things I’d like to add that I didn’t hear anybody bring up. First of all, the lyrics are smart. The “rich men” and “Richmond” play gets mirrored in the “miners/minors” lines. As anguished as a lot of the song is, there’s some wicked humor in it as well, not just with the miners/minors thing, but with the mental picture of a 5’3″, 300lb person with fudge shots, for instance. It’s so hilarious, though, that I think it kind of distracts from the next line leading into the plight of poor, working men.

    Musically, the chords are simple, and so is the song, but I don’t know that I’ve ever heard a song structured the way that this one is: it’s something like pre-chorus, chorus, verse 1, verse2, verse 3, pre-chorus, chorus, pre-chorus. I probably have that slightly wrong, but it’s definitely different. The other thing is that he’s playing a resonating guitar, which is similar to a dobro, and gives the song much more of a folk/Appalachian twang than most country music these days would have.

    In watching people reacting to the videos, the beginning of the song is bold, and it kind of takes the first-time listener aback a bit. Is this a song by some crazy dude ranting about the government from his doomsday bunker? He goes on, and people start grooving with him a little, and then when he gets to the verses, people’s eyes get wide and their mouths drop open with the line about the miners and the minors because it is so obviously a Jeffrey Epstein reference, but we all know that this sort of talk is “not allowed” on places like radio stations and the like. I did not see one person reacting object to the lines about the cheating of welfare, just a lot of head-nodding and mmhmm-ing because it’s less about the individual, and all about the widespread cheating and corruption in the system. Then the verse about the young men shows up, and with the men, especially, they choke up, because most of them have been through this or know people who are going through it. The lines remind me a lot of my cousin Isaiah, who killed himself a month ago. Men who have been made to feel expendable. Nobody’s talking about that in mainstream music. From that point on, though, the man is “one of us”, so when he reiterates what he sang in the beginning, instead of being caught off-guard, people are saying “Sing it brother!”

    It’s also weird that with all the videos I’ve watched, if the people have some idea where Richmond is, they usually can figure out that the “rich men” north of there are the Washington, D.C. elite. However, no one that I have seen has pointed out that Richmond was the Capitol of the Confederacy for the vast majority of its existence, and that it’s only about 100 miles or so from D.C. For that reason alone, Richmond “looms large” historically as a cultural marker of belonging to a different world than D.C. I don’t know if this was a consideration of writing this song, but it certainly came to mind as far as that divide goes, and how even in the days of the Civil War, Washington D.C. was a much richer city than Richmond was.


    Interesting, too, is that as much as this song is thick in the U.S. specific references, it’s resonating outside of the borders of the US as well:

    This is a video of a Canadian country music fan. Without going into the specific politics of it, he comments that the struggles are the same in Canada, though probably a good bit worse:


    British reaction, touching somewhat on the surveillance state. I thought he might mention 1984, but he didn’t get that far, but he did talk a lot about website cookies and the like.


    Another Brit, who chokes up talking about how he’s part of the generation who will never be able to own their own homes:


    These two are also in the UK, but probably of Indian heritage. They started the video expecting something much, much different, but ended up having a good conversation about the song nonetheless, even saying that they ought to have their parents have a listen and see how the parents reacted:


    Irish, mentioning how similarly this tracks with traditional Irish music and brings up connections to Sound of Freedom:


    This is a Belgian whose English is very, very good, but I could tell that he was struggling with some of the cultural references. Not only that, but he was live on Twitch as he was making this video, and someone in the chat kept trolling him, saying that he ought to “look more deeply” into the artist and the “politics” of the song, and chastising him for picking something so “right-wing”. The Belgian repeatedly tells him to cut it out, that he is just there to listen to the song, but the commenter persisted, to the point where people started wondering if the guy was just a troll. In trying to prove he wasn’t a troll, the commenter said that he was a journalist from Spain, to which the Belgian told him that he needed to shut up because he doesn’t live in the US and wouldn’t understand this stuff either. The irony lost on the Spaniard is, of course, that many of us have come to see journalists and internet trolls as nearly one in the same. (And in some cases, they are!)


    Argentina. I think they got the gist, but I think there’s a lot that they didn’t get on the first listen. (I mean, there is quite a bit I didn’t catch first listen, and trust me, it’s *much* harder understanding song lyrics in a different language!) There’s a statement in the description that mentions the “controversial lyrics”, but I don’t know that it isn’t something copied and pasted in an effort to not get cancelled themselves. Isn’t that amazing, though?


    Nigeria. This is actually the second reaction video the woman in black did on this song. You can tell that the two young women here are deeply moved, and what comes to mind for them is how corruption destroys a country for its people, especially the young, and an ocean away, it’s what they’re living through too.


    I’m going to leave you here with a couple of videos about the “phenomenon”.

    Glenn Beck, with the Mumford and Sons banjo player who got booted from the band, in large part due to not getting vaccinated for Covid.

    Timcast, with some insights into how the music industry today works, based on their own experience releasing a song several months ago.

    (Funny, too, that as I was watching videos to write this post, Ace of Spades wrote about the phenomenon of this song as well: Country Protest Song by Oliver Anthony Racks Up 19 Million YouTube Views in 9 Days.)

    I wish this artist all the best; I hope that even if he doesn’t end up doing music full-time, that he can earn enough through this to be able to pursue what he’d like in his life. I don’t know if the world has heard much music from the working man’s perspective since Jim Croce (who died in 1973), and that’s a sad thing. If anything, maybe this will inspire others to start doing that as well. In any case, prayers for this young man are certainly in order.


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  • Wordless Wednesday #42 – Krakow on Film

    Wordless Wednesday #42 – Krakow on Film





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  • Sunday Gratitude – 13.VIII.2023

    Sunday Gratitude – 13.VIII.2023

    I took an overnight trip to visit a cousin with the three “little” kids, and despite things not working out perfectly, it was a nice break and we had fun. I am very grateful for that, as well as the fact that we made it there and back without any issues.

    I’m grateful for the rain, and for the somewhat cooler weather, even if it is making me sneeze!

    I’m grateful for the friendly people working at the local gas station, who all recognize me these days.

    I’m grateful for every time my toddler starts singing “Happy Happy Happy” (I think it comes from this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=06Kg6XeMhQU). I’m thankful every time I see how my 9-year-old can still enjoy “little kid” things, especially with his sister, but how he’s also growing up.)

    I’m thankful for finding random cool stuff around, and that the kids found it cool too.

    I’m thankful that I have a cousin who doesn’t mind that I don’t usually call, that she understands that I’m juggling a lot of things and don’t often think to pick up the phone, but that I’m happy to hear from her when she does call.

    I’m thankful to have found a few lost things. (Now to continue on that trend!)

    I am grateful that church went reasonably well today.

    Life isn’t easy; without gratitude, it’s even a tougher ordeal.


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  • Saturday on Substack – 12.VIII.2013

    Saturday on Substack – 12.VIII.2013

    Once again, the odds and ends of the week over on Substack – please join me over there!

    https://breathofhallelujah.substack.com/p/saturday-on-substack-12viii2023


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  • Windswept House: Impressions

    Windswept House: Impressions

    A global elite who want to control world happenings on the macro and micro scale

    International political intrigue

    Papal resignation

    The dawning of an age of demons

    Largescale loss of faith

    Population control

    A Church riddled with bad actors, including the “lavender mafia”

    “Digitalization” of the human mind

    Trafficking in fetal tissue and parts, including for non-medical applications

    Satanic ritual

    “Traditionalists” vs the “reformers”

    The Secrets of Fatima

    From the wide array of current topics that Windswept House touches upon, it hardly seems possible that it was published in 1996. At that point, sure, people knew that there was trouble in the Roman Catholic Church with homosexual and pedophile priests, and though money was already being paid out to the victims, it wouldn’t be until 2002 or so that it would start to come out as to how wide or deep the problem actually had become. Yet here Malachi Martin writes a book which claims that not only is the problem incredibly widespread, but that the perpetrators are also connected with Satanic worship, but that they’ve organized themselves to destroy the Roman Catholic Church from within. Now, they don’t want to destroy the entire institution – the conspirators salivate over how much “power” the Pope has, and want to grab it for their own use – but they want to corrode the faith to the point where it ceases to be a power for good.

    I first heard of Malachi Martin from listening to Coast to Coast AM some evening, probably while cleaning. Normally, the Coast to Coast AM stuff would go in one ear and out the other; lots of very strange stuff, but some of it interesting. However, I was absolutely transfixed by Malachi Martin, and after finding out that he had written a couple of books, I was interested to actually read one of them. It’s just taken me awhile to actually do so, being as it’s been ten years or so since I first had that thought. On the other hand, for someone on a radio interview to be that impressive that I didn’t forget over a decade that I wanted to read one of his books – that’s impressive too!

    In any case, Windswept House starts off with a Satanic ritual which takes place in 1963 in South Carolina, and is “connected” through ritual to the Vatican. The story has a brief interlude to 1978, and from there, the story picks up in approximately 1994. Pope John Paul II is pope, though he’s never referred to as “Pope John Paul II”, but rather the “Slavic pope”, as this is a work of fiction, and there are a cadre of very powerful cardinals who are plotting against him as they see the Roman Catholic Church’s place in the world as a vehicle to foster globalism, and they have connections to people in very high positions of power in the secular world, not only in government, but non-governmental organizations (NGOs), and other associations as well.

    These conspirators do not believe in the absolute Truth of Jesus Christ, and many are Masons, though membership is forbidden in the Roman Catholic Church, many are Satanists, and many simply desire power. They despise the “traditionalists” who believe in God; they see them as obstacles to actually getting anything “useful” done. In the book, as much as the “Slavic Pope” is not overwhelmingly liked by the “traditionalists” for allowing a lot of bad behavior to continue, these “progressives” hate him because he does believe in God and seeks to do His will.

    Through a bit of happenstance, a young American priest, probably approaching 40, comes to the attention of the head conspirator, Cardinal Mastroianni. This priest’s name is Christian Gladstone. Mastroianni is fairly lukewarm about Gladstone and probably would not have given the man another thought except that he finds out that Gladstone is from a very rich and powerful family out of Galveston, Texas, and that his brother Paul is climbing the ladder into elite circles within international finance and such. Mastroianni sees this as an opportunity to covertly further his plans.

    What he doesn’t expect is that despite Fr. Christian’s background, he’s as “traditionalist” as they come. As Fr. Christian gets pulled further into the affairs of the Vatican through Mastroianni, he remains close with the small contingent of traditionalists within the Vatican, eventually becoming part of a small group whom the Slavic Pope trusts to discuss certain issues with. For all practical purposes, this is how Fr. Christian’s life as a Vatican “double agent” begins.

    The book is something like 630 pages long and incredibly dense. It covers approximately two years of time and introduces over 70 characters. It’s well written and very much a political thriller, but without some background with how things work in the Roman Catholic Church, I can see how it could get frustrating.

    Besides Martin’s background as a priest in the Vatican, the man has an incredible awareness of different places, both in Europe and the United States, and it’s amazing to see an Irishman understand distances and history of the United States as well as he does. That being said, he puts the Gladstone’s family in Galveston in the 1870s, where they build a mansion – the famous Windswept House – but he doesn’t mention how the house fared in the 1900 hurricane there, where pretty much the entire city was devastated. He goes into detail about the stained glass in the chapel the Gladstones have at the top of the building, but didn’t even mention that it must have been a miracle (or something) that the glass survived. It’s not a huge point, and I don’t know why it irked me as much as it did, but it’s kind of like saying that the house your main character lives in was built in 1868 in Chicago – never mind that most of the city burned down in 1871 and the buildings that survived are well documented. (Yes, I know that there was some part of the city that didn’t burn, but the idea still stands.)

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    In any case, for all the US places that get mentioned in Windswept House, Chicago is not mentioned once. That is because in the book, Chicago becomes “Centurycity”. Now, the Cardinal in Chicago is probably one of the worst offenders when it comes to trying to use the Church for his own machinations. In the book, the Cardinal of Centurycity is Cardinal Leonardine, but is usually just referred to as “the Cardinal of Centurycity”.

    Now, this is one of the areas in the book that really gets, shall we say, kind of weird when placed on top of my experience of living in Chicago during that time. Joseph Cardinal Bernardin was Chicago’s cardinal at this point in history. He was well loved by the media, and somewhere around 1994 or so, he was personally accused of having sexually abused a teenaged boy many years prior. Eventually, the man recanted, and in the next few months, Bernadin would be diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer, and I remember Bernardin making some comment about how the two of them were both living under the shadow of death. Bernardin was the first Roman Catholic figure that I had ever paid any attention to, and I was generally impressed by him. He died as I moved away from Chicago the first time, and seeing in a Time or a Newsweek that he had died made me sad and a little homesick.

    Bernardin had written a book about dying (The Gift of Peace: Personal Reflections) that he had just finished days before his own death, I borrowed it from the library in 2004 (military library inter-library loan, yay!) and I was so impressed that I once bought the book for friends of mine.

    Then, in 2006, I started working for a Catholic organization in Chicago. The office was small, and the people there were all faithful “traditional” Catholics. When I started speaking positively about Bernardin, I got weird looks and such, and then I heard from these people that in their opinion, Bernardin was a terrible cardinal, that he really couldn’t stand the “traditionalists” and put into place a lot of things that actually went against what the Roman Catholic Church teaches. It was certainly interesting to hear this. However, it got deeper than that, they brought up a couple of cases of Chicago priests who had ended up dead under unseemly circumstances, and seemed to think that Bernardin was somehow involved, not that he did anything himself per se, but that he was helping cover things up. It was working for this organization that I was first introduced to the idea that the man who had accused Bernardin all those years ago may have been pressured to recant and that Bernardin himself may not have actually died of pancreatic cancer. I just don’t know.

    Martin himself claimed that the book was “faction” – a real story that was fictionalized a little with changed names to serve the purpose of getting the story out. Cardinal Bernardin, for example, couldn’t complain of being characterized as such in the book without drawing attention to the fact that he was characterized as such in the book. However, he did receive criticism in the case of a Chicago murder that he “fictionalized” that if he did have information as to who was involved, he should have shared that with the Chicago police.

    It’s interesting, though – in one of the scenes of the book, one of Martin’s “good guys” yells at the Cardinal of Centurycity that the amount of time that he has to repent has grown short. Mind you, some of Cardinal Bernardin’s health problems had already been taking a toll – as much is mentioned in the book – but Bernardin himself died quite soon after the book came out. The second time Martin appeared with Art Bell on “Coast to Coast AM”, in part to promote Windswept House, Bell informs Martin of the passing of Bernardin. Martin does not say a word in disparagement of Bernardin but does throw in that he thinks Bernardin would have liked to have become pope.

    Sure, a lot of what Martin writes in the book could have been dismissed as conspiracy theory, and some reviewers even thought the book was anti-Catholic. However, reading the book nearly thirty years later, it’s a little chilling how right Martin was about a lot of things. Martin died in 1999, so he couldn’t have known about the abuse scandal in the Catholic Church would blow up in 2002. He couldn’t have known that, 25 years later, we’d all be walking around with portable computers in our pockets, but he was already calling out the “digitalization of the mind” that would make it harder for people to be able to perceive the mystical. He was talking about the internet becoming people’s go-to for instruction, organizations (the Church, in particular) being run by data and metrics, rather than reaching out to souls with the Truth. He even writes a couple of things about the grizzly business of abortion, fetal “specimens” and the like… I have no doubt that some people knew these things in the 1990s, but back then, one really had to have a lot more “deep” knowledge to know what was going on, and it is interesting how Martin seems to have that and link it to wider happenings, both seen and unseen. Some today might even say that the book is full of “Qanon” conspiracies, but as Martin died some 20 years prior, this is a ridiculous claim.

    However, I think that one of the things that shows that Martin did have foresight into what was coming was that one of the main plots of the book was the conspiracy to get the “Slavic Pope” to resign. At the time this was written, the thought of a papal resignation was fairly unthinkable. We see, too, that Pope John Paul II ended up remaining Pope until his death. However, Benedict XVI, another “traditionalist”, became Pope in 2005, and resigned eight years later. (Benedict is depicted in the book as Cardinal Reinvernunft – that is, Cardinal “Pure-reason”). There were certainly rumors back then about it not just being his age and health; that he felt like he had very little control over malevolent forces within the Vatican and resignation was the only choice he had not to be a part of it. This book would certainly support that view, and as there hadn’t been a papal resignation in more than 500 years, it was a shock to many.

    The other thing that is uncanny, and I say this not being Catholic, is reading the letters of Archbishop Carlo Maria Vigano, who is former Apostolic Nuncio to the United States and was also very much a Vatican “insider”. He’s become the voice of the “traditionalists” over the past couple of years, especially, and what he’s been speaking and writing about tracks a lot with what Fr. Malachi Martin writes here. (LifeSiteNews follows news involving Archbishop Vigano – their news archive of him can be found here: https://www.lifesitenews.com/tags/tag/archbishop-carlo-maria-vigano/)

    I enjoyed this book quite a bit; as much as there’s a lot of bad stuff going on, and as much as the end of the book is somewhat a cliffhanger, it’s also neat to have a book that features good clergy who come across as real people. The character of Fr Christian, for example, wouldn’t be written from a secular perspective, because he’s a man who grew up in the lap of luxury, whose education was excellent, and who decided in purity of heart, so to speak, to become a priest. In that role, he had to fight not to be corrupted or overly discouraged by evil and corruption around that. Moreover, he puts his considerable talent into fighting for the good rather than settling for a comfortable life. I appreciated the “wide context” of the book. I was shocked at how prescient the novel still is, and how it manages not to fall into defeatism. I liked how Martin does incorporate “things unseen” into the tapestry of the book; it’s a really rare quality, and speaks to the Christian mindset.

    Unfortunately, Windswept House is out of print. I borrowed a copy from the library, and later found it on archive.org, which can be accessed here: https://archive.org/details/MalachiMartinsWindsweptHouse


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