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Sunday Gratitude – 2.VIII.2026

Boy, has it been busy the last couple of weeks! More appointments than I could shake a stick at, and a couple of weekend events as well. I’m very grateful that things pretty much went off without a hitch, and appointments were met, things a t home have been pretty quiet, and events were enjoyable.

One of the events that I went to last Sunday was German Fest in Milwaukee. I had toyed with the idea of biking the 16 or so miles up to church, and then continuing on the eight from church to the fest, but I’m happy that I didn’t do that. Instead, I put my bike in the car and drove up to church, changed quickly afterwards in the bathroom, then biked the 8 up to German Fest. I had never biked along the Lakefront Path before, and it was really beautiful, albeit busy with people, making it impossible to go very fast. For me, one of the draws is that I get to see people I know, and so that was really fun. (I just wish my German dress still fit me.)
I biked the 8 miles back to the car, and at the end I was tired, and I was grateful I didn’t have 16 more to go, but I didn’t feel terrible either. Last year, I parked in a place where it was a four mile ride from my car to the fest, and on the way back, I felt like I was dying. However, I probably hadn’t even been on a bike in at least 2-3 years before then. And now, well, between the Thursday afternoon before German Fest and the following Friday afternoon, I biked over fifty miles, and it was challenging, but fun. 🙂 I’m grateful for the opportunity to be working on my health.
Silly thing, but my older son was looking for 32 gigabyte SD cards for something. I figured that that was easy enough; as long as I can remember, those things aren’t wildly expensive. Imagine my shock when I walked into Best Buy to get one, and they all seemed to be over $45. Insane. I told him to hold off on buying one, and though I often have miscellaneous extra memory cards and such around, there was nothing that would help him in this instance. Mind you, though, that I haven’t purchased any of these in at least 3 years. The next day, he and his sister went to the gym, and I decided to check out WalMart. Wouldn’t you know, but the price was almost as bad. However, there were two associates who came up right by me, one of them holding a plastic case. Wouldn’t you know, but there were two 32GB SD cards in it. They seemed to be confused about where they wanted to put the item, as it had originally come from the outdoor section, as these two were marketed for trail cams. Nobody is looking for SD cards in the outdoor section! I’m sure this is why this was marked down to $8.50. I proceeded to ask if I could buy it, and they were happy to oblige me, as that also meant that they didn’t have to find a place to put them in the case. I am very grateful I didn’t have to shell out three times as much for the same item.
After German Fest, I went over to my church’s church picnic. That was fun, too. The location is great, and it’s nice to hang out with good people. Summer days are beautiful like that.
Speaking of summer days, we finally got some rain. I don’t think it rained at all in July until the 27th and it was kind of sad seeing everybody’s lawns turning brown. I had mowed right around the last week of June, and I had meant to a couple of weeks after that, and I actually started to, but after about 10 minutes of mowing, I twisted my ankle and it hurt too much to keep going. By the next day already, I didn’t know if it was safe to mow, but it was interesting to see how those strips that I did mow turned very, very brown, and I’m grateful I didn’t cut the whole lawn and have it looking like that.
On the weather front, we had strong storms that came through on the 27th. Friends of mine in Milwaukee had power knocked out, but here, thankfully, we kept power, there was no hail, etc. Unfortunately, this was not the case in all of Wisconsin, and the town of Menasha, in particular, got hit badly. My kids and I signed up for an event months ago that takes place in this area; once I heard that there was a tornado, I checked back to see if the event had been cancelled. It didn’t seem to be, so we drove up to the area and just happened to end up on the street here that this man is driving on in the first 3 minutes of the video here.
How did I end up in Menasha? Well, our first destination was in a small town called Combined Locks. The driving on the interstate had been miserable due to rain, and at a certain point, I couldn’t take it any more, and looked for the first exit off, knowing I could come up the western side of Lake Winnebago to get to where I wanted to go. It just happens that Menasha is pretty much on the western side of the tip of Lake Winnebago, so by getting off the interstate, it pretty much meant going through Menasha. It was weird, too, because at first, I just noticed that there were a lot of tree branches and stuff on the sides of the road, and it kind of dawned on me that that must have been a result of the storm. I did not know that within about 15 minutes, we’d be driving through a disaster zone like this. The crazy thing is, though, that once I got through Menasha, my destination was about six miles down the road, and over there, things looked completely normal. For as bad as the tornado was though, it’s amazing that not a single person was killed – certainly something to be grateful for.
The event that the little kids and I went to was a bike ride/music festival called “Bike to the Beat“. The event took place on Saturday, but the four of us made a little mini-vacation out of it, and it was an awful lot of fun. The drive up was absolutely horrendous, lasting 4 hours when 2.5 is more normal. It rained the whole time and there were accidents and road construction in the Milwaukee area. I was so incredibly grateful both to get off the interstate and to actually arrive at the hotel.

BIke to the Beat was amazing, even apart from a couple of wrinkles in the day, and I am grateful that there were no mechanical issues with the bikes, we had all the tools, I didn’t forget any pedals or anything, etc. More than that though, the kids enjoyed the hotel a lot and we took a little detour through Manitowoc on the way back, and it was really a good trip. I’m the type of person who is always trying to anticipate what might go wrong in order to avoid any pitfalls, and when things go off with no major issues, I am grateful.
I’m grateful, too, that after far too long, I got to video chat with a dear friend. I’m grateful, too that through everything, the friendship holds.
Wow, it’s been a full couple of weeks! Thank you all for your patience with me! I am certainly grateful for all of you!

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At the Touchstone Magazine 2023 conference, part 2 – day 3

Friday was the third day of the Touchstone Magazine annual conference, and another short day, as things were scheduled for the morning only. The highlight, of course, was Rod Dreher’s talk, which was the entire reason why I had decided to attend the conference at all.
The night before, after the official events of the conference was over, there was an informal reception at the hotel across the street. Many of the conference attendees were staying there as well, so it was a lot of fun to kick back and talk to people who were there. The speakers at the conference came as well, and it gave people an opportunity to meet the speakers and chat with them. I was really privileged to have gotten a chance to meet and chat with Rod Dreher. I will say, I was very impressed, and he was very nice and seemed absolutely genuine. He actually recognized me from all the commenting I do on his blog, which… wow. The conversations really did feel like chatting with an old friend.
I ended up getting home well after midnight; it didn’t take quite the hour and a half I had estimated, but driving back in the rain wasn’t fun at all. Once home, I had a very strong sense that I needed to get everything together that night for the morning, so I did, even though this is not generally how I operate. I was really afraid that I was sleep through my alarm, so even though I use my phone to wake me up probably at least 80% of the time, here I was double-checking that I had set the alarm correctly.
God does seem to have a sense of humor with these things. I was starting to get minimally conscious, when, at 5:50am, the power in the house went out. No, this would not affect my phone, but I have my computer plugged into a universal power source in my bedroom. As soon as the power went out, that thing started blaring out “BEEEP! BEEEEEP!” (It also wasn’t the only thing in the house beeping because of the power outage.) Yes, I was awake, and yes, I could still easily get dressed and out the door without power because I had gotten everything ready the night before.

Once again, I got to Trinity International University early and I took the opportunity to go through more of the books that Eighth Day Books had there. (I also managed to notice that the ceiling above some of the books was dripping. Luckily the books that got wet only had drops of water on the covers that could be wiped off; an hour later, there would have been a good bit of book carnage.)
In any case, I got myself a seat on the center aisle near the front, and tried not to take up too much space with my purse, laptop bag, books, umbrella, conference notebook, etc. *L*
Rod’s speech was called “Total Freedom, Total Servility: Digital Culture’s Transformation of Authority”. The following are notes I took from the talk:
There was a large backdrop behind the speakers; Touchstone has used these images for a long, long time. One of the photos featured is of a European city with what looks to be a castle-ish university on the left side. I had actually been wondering where the picture was from all of the day before, and I was glad that Rod identified it as the University of Edinburgh, in Edinburgh, Scotland. The reason he brought it up though tied in nicely with the speech; that the university has gone completely woke, citing from a Sebastian Milbank piece from the day before.
The struggles for culture matter.

He went on to talk a bit about having broken his laptop screen the night before flying to the US, and how easy it was, being a MacBook, to go to the Apple Store in New Orleans, get it replaced, and have the data restored with very little issue.
From here, he launched to how there are absolutely advantages to the Internet revolution; in his own life, he hasn’t been tethered to an office since 2011 and he’s able to work from practically anywhere in the world with an internet connection, but that there’s a lot that we have to really be wary of in this new era. “The Machine” is happy to create for us a bespoke experience in any number of ways, but at the same time, all that information that is being gathered is being used to compile data on us, to know where we go, who we meet with, what we might be thinking. From that, it’s not hard to start working on a “social credit system”, complete with electronic monitoring of people, even in the West. At this point, there’s still political will to hold it back, but that is eroding.
He switched tack a bit and started talking about societal trends such that herald a collapse in society, the collapse of authority, lawlessness, the way institutions have lost the confidence of people. While much of this is common sense – people really shouldn’t put their trust in things that obviously don’t deserve it, the results of that are kind of scary as well.
He made the point about religious man vs psychological man, that “religious man” seeks the Truth, but “psychological man” seeks well-being.
Coming back to the technology a bit, the 1984 model isn’t what we’ve found ourselves in, but rather Brave New World, where there’s a kind of “therapeutic totalitarianism”; life can become easier, but it’s at the price of one’s soul.
There was one line that really reminded me of Jonathan Pageau, and that was “You are what you pay attention to,” but then he tied that back to smartphones, and boy, is that an issue these days! The smartphones are incredible tools, but they demand from us our attention like nothing else. In some sense, they are the first “natural technology”, and they really make the idea of humans merging with “the machine” more and more of a reality, as the line between real and virtual gets harder to discern, and this is becoming the new framework in which we live.
At the same time that this technology – not just the smartphones, but other things – make life more “frictionless”, it’s important that we stop and understand what the cost of a “frictionless” society is. As Christians, it’s not like we’re not going to not use the technology, ever. For many of us, that’s not even possible. However, for example, if all our books are digital, how easy it is to erase or alter books with unpopular ideas without having to rip pages from the book on your bookshelf. Cashless society? There are records of every transaction that you make. Smart home? The power goes out and there’s no way to use the heat or locks until things come back online.
Things get even more insidious, though, when one thinks of the potential of practicing medicine by AI (this is your predicted life expectancy; we will do nothing beyond this point) where the authority over life and death is handed to a machine.
Again, this isn’t to say that the technology itself is evil, but when more and more authority is handed off to a force we don’t understand, it opens up ways for bad spirits. He pointed out that there are people in the highest levels of this technological revolution who absolutely see the technology, and particularly AI, as a way of “creating God”.
He spoke a little of Diana Pasulka, who has done a lot of research into “ufology”. She’s written two books on the phenomenon, American Cosmic and Encounters: Explorations with Extraterrestrial and Other Non-Human Intelligence (which comes out in November), and from what Rod says here, it seems like there is a strong tie-in between “UFOs”, “non-human intelligent beings”, technology, and probably demons. I don’t remember if it was in the speech or on his substack that he said that when he read Fr. Seraphim Rose’s book Orthodoxy and the Religion of the Future, when Fr. Seraphim wrote that UFOs would have something to do with the heretical religion of the future, he didn’t think that much of it, but having now read some of Pasulka’s work, he’s convinced there’s something to it.
Rod gets a lot of “harassment” about being a “doom and gloom” writer. I don’t necessarily find that, but he’s pointing out things that are uncomfortable that people should pay attention to. He does this not to give people reason to despair, but that by writing about these things, people have a method of seeing what is happening and resisting when possible. He ended the speech by talking about how we must choose the strong path, choose the cross, that by overcoming the “evil” of suffering, we’re in a place to be free.
(Complete video of Rod’s speech; forward to about 14:50 for Rod alone: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iqH0pfh5iDE)

I’d say that was about it for Saturday, but I there was a panel discussion that followed. Of all the presentations, the panels were, by far, the weakest part. Ken Myers of Mars Hill Audio (and formerly of NPR) did the moderation, and it was terrible. For the first panel discussion (Friday), I literally closed my eyes and listened whilst half-asleep, and I don’t think I missed anything. Myers tended to start rambling on about something, and then switch over to a question that took a long time to formulate. Furthermore, his questions were oddly specific enough that there was usually only one person on the “panel” who could answer each one, and sometimes he let panelists sit there for ages saying nothing because none of the questions were directed to them. The Saturday panel was somewhat better than the first panel, mainly because Adam Macleod and Rod Dreher were part of it. Poor Brad Littlejohn sat there for ages and ages with nothing to say. I know it’s hard to come up with questions “on the fly”, so to speak, but rather than ask Rod something specifically about the UFOs, using points where there were similar themes between the speakers probably would have been a good starting place – I believe both MacLeod and Dreher talked about how language gets “shifted” under totalitarianism, comparing and contrasting their experiences with it probably would have been more engaging to watch than the questions that did get asked. The speakers I saw were fairly light on the “What’s a Christian to do in these times?” and hearing different opinions could have also been a starting point for a panel.
I wasn’t sure how I was going to structure my posts about the conference; at this point, I think I’m going to do one more post to talk about my general impressions of attending the event. I really had a good time, and I want to stress that most of all. If you have missed the first part of me writing about the Touchstone conference, part 1 can be found here: https://breathofhallelujah.com/2023/10/17/at-the-touchstone-magazine-2023-conference-part-1-day-2/

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Saturday on Substack – 14.X.2023 – the Tuesday edition

Last week just wouldn’t give me a break – seriously, I’ve got four kids not feeling well today and it seems easier than the craziness of last week. However, there were some really good things about it too! In any case, my weekly post can be found here: https://breathofhallelujah.substack.com/p/saturday-on-substack-14×2023

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Sunday Gratitude – 15.X.2023

This past week was a week of extremes; extreme stress and trepidation on one hand, followed by something very uplifting and fun at the end. I know I still need to finish Saturday’s post, but I’m posting here now because I need a lot more time to finish the “Saturday on Substack” post. (Yes, it has been started.)

I am grateful, incredibly grateful, that the thing which was causing me all sorts of stress went off without any great problems. I don’t know that anyone there present wasn’t filled with a good deal of sadness, but at least there’s the structure for stability being laid for the next couple of years, at least. Also, there’s light at the end of the tunnel as far as when the legal proceedings are over, and as much as that also evokes a lot of sadness, the state of limbo in which things have been hanging for the last year and a half is also untenable, and ending that is a needed relief. I am grateful to the friends who watched my toddler daughter during this, and who then refused to take any money on the basis of “returning kindnesses”, even though I know they could have used it.
I am grateful for all the beauty around right now. The trees haven’t lost many leaves yet, but are in about the first 1/2 of the fall changes, which is probably my favorite part of it. These things serve as a constant reminder that when things just seem down or out of control that it is important to look up.
I am grateful that I got to attend the Touchstone Magazine conference this year. I’d never been to one before, and, truthfully, as there was a not-great history with a couple of people who are “high up” with the organization. I’m glad I went, though; not only did I meet a lot of people I know, many whom I hadn’t seen in a decade, I got to meet people from the US and Canada who are serious in their faith and interested in being light at a time when it often feels like the darkness is inevitable. Oh, yes, and there were speakers who gave presentations as well! *L*
I also am grateful for the opportunity to have gotten to meet and chat with Rod Dreher, besides hear his presentation. Truthfully, it’s a little weird to be recognized with the line “…and I comment on your blog”, but after that, it was like chatting with an old friend. I have friends who have had major issues with the way the Kenosha public schools have gone woke after Covid, they put up a good fight, but now have pulled their kids out of that system. One of the books that I think has really resonated with the mom during this has been Dreher’s Live Not By Lies, and Rod graciously signed a copy for me for them. Being as I had to drive through Kenosha on my way back, I called to see if I could just drop off the book on my way, and since they were home, it worked out, and we had a nice chat over Coke Zeros, and I’m thankful for that as well. I’m also grateful that I got to go at all and that there wasn’t an issue with childcare or the like.
I’m grateful to have made it to church today, I’m grateful that there wasn’t any dust-up because of the kids, and I’m grateful for the fellowship and friendship there.
Oh, boy, it’s past time some kids were in bed. I’ll leave you with this.
Thank you so much for reading!

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Wordless Wednesday #47 – October Sky








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Sunday Gratitude – 8.X.2023

This past week had so many things scheduled, it wasn’t even funny. I am grateful that I seem to have gotten through it without mucking too much up.
I am grateful that we had some more good weather, and the kids got to spend some extra time out enjoying it.
I am humbled and full of gratitude that the priest I have been going to for Confession is a good man and has been praying for all of us.
I am grateful that I got to spend time with friends this week. I am thankful that I got to sleep nearly 11 hours at a stretch.

I bought myself a bluetooth mp3 player, and I’m hoping to be able to use it to save and store good podcasts as well as some music. I received it today, and it’s a neat little gadget.
I am thankful to see a little bit of progress on the house. I’m thankful to be finding things that have been lost for awhile.
I am thankful to have something to look forward to at the end of the week, as there are things coming before then which won’t be pleasant.
I’m thankful for all of you, and to everyone who is praying for us. I wouldn’t know how to keep going without that.

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Saturday on Substack 7.X.2023

There’s one more thing I have to get done… no, actually, two… tomorrow, or today, or whenever it is… In the meantime, click on over to Substack, as it’s Saturday. Please join me there!
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As the places of memory come tumbling down…

This was in 2016, a year I seem to barely remember
This was the end to the W. W. Holes Residence Hall on the campus of St. Cloud State university. I never lived there, but as I watched the building fall, I remember the friends up on the top floor, room #909, or the LAN gaming parties that took place on the 7th floor. What was that game again? Halflife?
I worked for Residential Life for two years, both as a “representative” and a member of the summer conference crew. I manned the front desk and I cleaned windows (and desks and floors) in just about every room in that entire building.
I can still tell you that Holes Hall was basically the twin of nearby Stearns Hall, the main difference being that the room numbers wended their way on the floors in opposite directions. At nine floors, both were tall buildings for the area, but Sherburne Hall, at 13 floors, was the tallest building in St. Cloud and in Stearns County. As I was giving tours, I used to laugh about that fact, having grown up in Chicago.
I never wanted to live in Holes Hall. Even then, in the waning days of the 90s, the rooms were small for college students’ taste. The building itself was a plain rectangle, built in the days of the space race where US college campuses seemed to want to prove we could build buildings just as ugly as their Soviet counterparts. The rooms in Holes and Stearns Halls were even more unimaginative; a door opened into the middle of one end of the room, and a built in wardrobe flanked either side of the door. A single, perfectly centered window was situated in the middle of the other end, two mirror-image desks completing the total oppressive symmetry of the small space. During the summers, single beds would fill a large portion of the wall space between the wardrobes and the desks, during the school year, beds were lifted and lofted in all sorts of ways – often over the desks and across the entire width of the room – to make these dorm rooms feel a little bit more comfortable.
To attract students to Holes Hall, two of the floors there – the 7th and 8th, I believe – were “honors” floors, for students in the honors program. Even as a “cheerleader” for living on campus, I felt like it was a little bit of a gimmick to do this, that it was a way to entice good students into quite mediocre living quarters, but it seemed to work.
I haven’t spent much time in St. Cloud since graduating. I know things change. My favorite building on campus, Colbert South, was demolished within a year or two of my graduation. It was a random house that occupied a space on the northeast corner of campus, pretty much ignored by all. However, that was different, as it was a random old house that just happened to be on campus – seeing Holes Hall’s end, even with it being seven years ago, is something else. There was nothing special about the building architecturally, and the city “skyline” may have been improved in taking it down. In my mind, though, it simply belongs to campus, and seeing it come down into a heap of rubble definitely conjures sadness, remembering how much time I spent there both for work and for fun.

Hanging out on the 7th floor of W.W. Holes Hall, September 1999

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Wordless Wednesday #46 – Random Germantown





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Lilla Rose October 2023 Update

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Seriously, how is it October already? Mind you, I don’t mind the cooler weather, but in just a couple of months, 2023 will be a year in the history books. I sat down to write a check the other day, and in the year field, the first year that popped into my head was 2014. I knew it was wrong, but it was still kind of astounding how we’re nine years past that.
In any case, there is some nice stuff being featured this month, and without further ado, let’s get into some of that:
First off, the “Mane Event”

I love the owl, and it’s only available as part of this set.
There are a couple of beautiful new releases

Also, looking through everything on the website, I noticed that there’s a flower “do-it-yourself” flexi and some other things that I hadn’t noticed before that aren’t on the graphic above.
This month’s special is a free tube of hair mascara with purchases of $50 or more. The hair mascara is fun stuff. There a a number of colors primarily intended to cover roots, but my kids like the colorful stuff for goofing off in the summer.

I saw this last night, and I think this is great –

In addition to the regular and XL sport flexi, there’s a XS version that is coming out on October 12. I really like the two sizes already available, so I will probably get a small version as well.
One more thing… If you like a little surprise in your life, this offer may be for you!

Take care! 🙂
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