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  • Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    To those celebrating today – Christ is Risen! – Happy Easter!

    And then there are the “weird” ones here who are still waiting another week, among which I count myself. There have been a lot of services already – yesterday, I think I was in church for nearly four hours. I’ve really struggled this Lent; from the beginning, I felt less ready for it than most years and this year… wow. For the greater part of Lent, I believed that the Orthodox were also going to be celebrating Pascha today, and it was only looking at the calendar more carefully a couple of weeks ago when I realized that no, there’s a one-week difference. I don’t know. I wasn’t expecting to spend so much time in church this weekend, but I was at vigil last night, and I certainly had the feeling of moving from the darkness into the light, and by the time the service was over, there was an air of hopefulness and joy there. For that I am grateful. (My brain did fight against this on the way home, though. *sigh*)

    I am grateful for the more spring-like weather, and the opportunity to be outside. I’m also grateful for my neighbor who invites me to come walking with her.

    I am grateful for friends who take the time to talk even in the rain.

    I am grateful for making it home in a storm the other day; I wasn’t expecting it, then all of a sudden, I was driving down this country highway with lightning flashes all around. I don’t think that they were very close, as there was only a tiny bit of thunder, but what a show! The next day, driving down those same roads, I could actually see how high the water is, and I’m grateful that there were no issues with low-lying stretches of road or the bridges.

    Mourning dove in wreath
    Time to take the Christmas wreath down!

    I am thankful to have had a little bit of time to be outside with my kids, and I’m thankful that they have places around that they can enjoy riding their bikes through, and that they’ve been fine with this “exploring”.

    I am thankful for the joy of singing.

    I am thankful for the things that are showing signs of life (and even blooming) even after a very cold winter and long periods of neglect.

    I am grateful for the opportunity to have been in contact with a number of people on this day, in the joy of Easter.

    I am grateful for yet another sign that I’m not alone through the hard stuff.

    Thank you so much for being here! Christ is Risen!

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    I really hate it when it seems like I blink and yet another week has passed. Somehow so much of this time ends up feeling like a blur, and it seems like all that is left is a growing list of things that should have been done long ago, but haven’t been done yet.

    In the meantime, though, I’ve been trying not to lose a sense of gratitude, and to also try to make the most of the days at hand. We’ve had a couple of days that have hit 70F, which has been amazing, and especially as the days are getting longer, it would be terrible if we didn’t do something to take advantage of the warmer weather. My younger son had a day off of school a couple of weeks back, and the two of us went out on our bikes and rode ten miles together, and it was amazing. He also started taking pictures with my camera that afternoon, so I’ll be sharing a few of those in this post.

    Broken pier Wind Point Lake Michigan

    A couple of weeks after the real birthday, my youngest, in kindergarten, had her first real birthday party. It was a bowling alley affair, and, per the terms of the contract, was less than two hours long, but for a group of 5 and 6 year olds, it was fine. I was completely stressed out over this for at least a week for a number of reasons, but it turned out really, really good. Even the weather held out, kind of… It started raining about the time that the party started, and it was still raining as people left. Had we started a couple of hours later, everybody would have been going home in sleet, because we had a blizzard come through the next day. The kids were thrilled to get the day off of school, and despite the crazy wind, we never lost power. The next day, our dear neighbor made a path for our car using a snowblower.

    I’m grateful that even though I managed to break a spoke on the one bike (a different one than before), this happened in a place where I could ride to a place where I could leave the bike for a couple of days, and which was very close to the bike shop. On the night that this happened, I was also able to get a ride back home with one of the ladies from church. I’d never talked to her before, and she’s incredibly sweet, and lives just a couple of streets over from where I live.

    I’m grateful for the amazing time I had at St. Haralambos in Niles a couple of weeks back. Not only were some very dear “real life” friends there, I finally got to meet Fr. Andrew Damick in person. We have been online acquaintances (friends) for over 20 years, and it seemed like high time to meet him in person. He actually recognized me by sight as well, which is crazy because it’s been a looong time since I posted any photos of myself that he might come across. 🙂 That was a lot of fun, though.

    Breezy days and kites!

    I am grateful, as well, for the opportunity to visit an old friend and just enjoy sitting on the front step, having a conversation in the sunshine.

    In many ways, I feel pulled very, very, very thin. There have been a lot of good things, to be sure, but there have been a number of very, very frustrating things as well. I don’t know; at this point, I’m not sure that I’ll ever have things “figured out”, but there’s a path to go forward on, and that’s the way through this all. Forgive me again for the blog silence – I truly am grateful for you.


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  • Sunday Gratitude – 29.X.2023

    Sunday Gratitude – 29.X.2023

    The weather was beautiful this week, for the most part, though the chilling fingers of winter started grasping over the area yesterday or so. We went from having the windows wide open to having the heat on. I pulled the potted plants in, and I planned to bring a few to share at church today, but we didn’t make it, as neither I nor a couple of the kids felt great.

    My mind is incredibly scattered at the moment, and not in a good way. I’m hoping the routine of school tomorrow will help get me back on track. As it appears though, we may have one kid home sick. We’ll see.

    I am grateful that the weather was nice and that there was a chance to go out to the park on more than one occasion. I’m grateful that the one day there was a little girl there just a few months older than my youngest, and the two of them had a grand time going around with each other while the girl’s grandmother and I had a nice chat in the lovely, warm sun. I gave the girl’s grandmother my phone number on the chance that she’d like to get together again.

    I am grateful for the very sweet things my toddler does. How she’ll say “thank you” for little things she appreciates, or how she’ll exclaim “I love you mommy!” when something makes her really happy. It melts my heart! (And it breaks it knowing she’ll grow up out of this.)

    I’m grateful that the kids had a couple of “extra” days off of school where we could really take it easy.

    Quince

    I’m grateful I got to talk to a couple of my friends in Germany this past week.

    I’m thankful that we did make it out to a pumpkin patch, even if it is one of the little local ones. The little kids looked forward to that for a long time.

    I’m grateful that when I was shopping and I dropped my coupons ($15 worth, and the reason we went to that store on Friday) that I retraced my steps and found them easily.

    Quince harvest 2023. Unfortunately, all but one were already split open.

    I’m in a weird state of mind right now, and I think it’s a reaction to a number of things not going well over which I have little control except for my actions and reactions. I just have to keep reminding myself of that adage that when one is going through hell, the worst thing one can do is just stop and stay where one is.

    I am thankful for you.


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  • Saturday on Substack 28.X.2023

    Saturday on Substack 28.X.2023

    I totally forgot to post Saturday on Substack here last night! Here goes! https://breathofhallelujah.substack.com/p/saturday-on-substack-28×2023

    Even in the warm weather, the leaves begin to thin out


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  • Wordless Wednesday #48 – Houses Without Corners (Anton Kratochvil)

    Wordless Wednesday #48 – Houses Without Corners (Anton Kratochvil)






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  • Sunday Gratitude – 22.X.2023

    Sunday Gratitude – 22.X.2023

    My Sunday afternoon got hijacked by something unexpected – not necessarily a bad thing, but something unforeseen – and so sitting to write didn’t happen yesterday. Oh, I should never plan on writing after the kids are asleep – I usually nod off myself and that’s the end of the story! *L*

    I am grateful that the past week was an awful lot calmer. No kids’ activities to attend, no doctor’s appointments, no administrative or legal appointments. Despite all the greyness and rain, it was really good to be able to relax a little.

    I am grateful that even though kids weren’t feeling great at the beginning of the week, it seems like it’s a pretty minor bug and that it left pretty much as soon as it came (except for the youngest – but she got to stay home and rest!)

    I am grateful to have found my missing camera.

    I am grateful to have wonderful friends to connect with, both old and new. That community is so necessary in these days!

    I am grateful for all the beauty of fall. Despite all the grey and rain, it hasn’t been a hard rain, and so most of the leaves are still on the trees. When the sun comes out, the reds and yellows – and almost purple of some trees – is dazzling.

    I had to stop to get a picture of this tree!

    I am grateful that it’s finally feeling like a lot of the mind-numbingly slow and tedious work in the house is finally feeling like it’s bearing fruit.

    I am grateful for these days, as crazy as they may be, both in the small and large scope, because the days – and we walk so few, actually – are a gift from God.

    Thank you so much for reading!


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  • Saturday on Substack 21.X.2023

    Saturday on Substack 21.X.2023

    Yes! I actually posted one of these on a Saturday again! *L* All in all, it’s been a fairly calm week. For a little bit of the stuff I’ve been looking at, check out the post here: https://open.substack.com/pub/breathofhallelujah/p/saturday-on-substack-21×2023

    Yes, a picture from last year – it’s been raining like crazy these past couple of weeks!

    Now, if only I can remember to pick the quince tomorrow! (I keep forgetting.)


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  • At the Touchstone Magazine 2023 Conference, part 3 – final thoughts

    At the Touchstone Magazine 2023 Conference, part 3 – final thoughts

    All in all, I really enjoyed myself at this conference. It was amazing to be able to step away from the “real world” for a couple of days and meet with other people who absolutely take their Christian faith seriously. It was more than a little bit uplifting, and I don’t think that there are too many places where Catholics and Protestants and Orthodox do things together like this.

    In some sense, it was almost like there was the official conference, and there was the unofficial conference. The organizers did good to not overdo it on the number of presentations in a row, and to be liberal with the breaks, especially on Friday’s full day. The breaks allowed people to stretch their legs, check out Eighth Day Books’ books, and to meet and chat with people. On Friday, there were two breaks that were at least two hours; these went over meal times, but being as many people were staying at the La Quinta across the street, I’m sure there were a few who went back to rest in their rooms during those times as well.

    There were several people whom I knew who attended, and it was a little weird, because some of them were from completely different phases of my life. One was even from my church in Idaho! *L* It was nice, though. Once upon a time, I probably would have stuck to talking to them mostly, but I’ve outgrown that for the most part. I had a blast chatting with people – sometimes for 20 minutes or more – who were strangers just a few minutes before. It’s funny to hear myself say that the socializing was probably my favorite part of the whole thing. I think it was genius to rent the La Quinta meeting rooms for the after-conference reception. It not only was another chance for people to get to talk to each other, but it was the place where most people had the opportunity to talk with the speakers as well, if they wanted.

    Touchstone stage backdrop

    The speakers were good, though I think Adam Macleod and Rod Dreher were the best of the lot. My biggest issue with the speakers is a weird one to try to articulate – it’s obvious that the audience is a very intelligent and educated lot. I *enjoy* that it’s intellectual and stretches the mind. However, even for me, it seemed like many of the speakers went too far into citing sources or getting into the nitty-gritty of other people’s arguments to really appreciate the larger picture of what they were getting at. I don’t know if that comes from the fact that some of these people were college professors and seemed to almost go into lecture mode for their speeches, but I think this really narrows who would be interested in going in future years. This was driven home to me when I was chatting with a priest friend of mine and he asked if I was following the talks. I think I said something to the effect of, “for the most part, I think so”, but he said that he felt a good amount was going over his head. I’m sure he wasn’t completely lost, as he’s a really smart man, but if he felt so, and I felt so, I bet there were more than a few people who also felt the same way. I think Rod Dreher hit the balance better than others; he’s obviously an extremely smart guy, but he’s used to talking to non-academic groups without dumbing down the material. We desperately need people who don’t necessarily talk to each other most of the time to come together in the community of Christ, but one shouldn’t feel like one needs to have a degree in theology or ancient history to feel like part of this.

    To me, that the whole conference was in a chapel felt odd; I know many Christian groups have no qualms about using chapels and such for things that aren’t church services, but it’s been so long since I’ve been to an event in such a setting, I’d almost forgotten that it happens all the time.

    I absolutely loved that Eighth Day Books was on site. I went there once in 2005 or 2006, and it was an amazing experience. Unfortunately, heading out to Wichita, Kansas, just for a bookstore is not something that I can necessarily justify. However, their “small” selection was probably 1000 books, and a *lot* of stuff you’re not going to see at Barnes & Noble. (No slight against B&N – I used to work at a great location – but it’s not easy to curate a bookstore – or even sections – into what Eighth Day books has done.)

    In my last post, I already mentioned what my least-favorite thing about the program was, that being the panels. I don’t necessarily think that the panel thing is a bad idea, but there’s got to be somebody up there asking the questions who can make the questions more to the point and more equitable to all the people up there, otherwise there just is no point.

    Again, I don’t know if any of this was spoken about on Thursday night, but since the conference was about authority, I kept thinking about the Exodus series from Jordan Peterson, specifically talking about types of authority and from whence it came. Peterson and Pageau, in particular, talk about the structure of authority, and how, in the time of Moses, there’s already this structure being set up by God where He is the ultimate authority, then there’s Moses, as prophet, then Aaron as more of a political leader, etc. There was the one speech (Douglas Farrow) that touched on the different layers of law – Eternal law, natural law, God’s delivered law, civil law – but I guess I would have liked to have heard that be spelled out more clearly, insofar as authority is an inescapable component of order. The other thing I would have liked to have heard would have been something along the lines of linking authority and responsibility.

    The meals were good, and there were non-meat options for those of us not eating meat on Friday. There were a couple of donation pitches, which I understand, having been in fundraising, but the “for just $85 a month, you too can donate $1000 a year,” seemed a little odd. Yes, there are people who respond to that, but for most people, making it more incremental makes it less intimidating and less like they’re only interested in the big donations. You know, the “Donate $100 and get a t-shirt. Donate $250 to sponsor a seminarian at this conference.” That type of thing. When the only ask is really at the $1000 level, it makes me wonder if I’m at the right event; I’m certainly not in the class who can just write a check for $1000 because I want to sit at the VIP table in the mansion as opposed to the cafeteria.

    Let’s see… I’ve found out that both my spelling has suffered a lot since I took a lot of notes in college. There were words like “totalitarianism” that I have to hear in my head to spell, and I was going too fast for that to happen, and then there were words that I knew I spelled wrong that I just had to leave to keep going. Back in the day, that wasn’t nearly so much a problem.

    Yes, I went to the conference because of Rod Dreher, but it was a joy to actually meet and chat with him as well. I asked him to sign a copy of Live Not By Lies for friends of mine, and he was really gracious about doing that as well.

    There are plans to do another conference like this next year; I think there’s a lot to be gained in connecting with the wider Christian community, but I think there ought to be some effort made to make it a little bit more open to people who want to hear the ideas and think about them without getting lost in the academic details. This year, I was very hesitant about going, and waited at least a month after finding out about the conference before I started looking into buying tickets and making arrangements to go. I think, too, that each of us who were there really ought to be doubling down on building that Christian community of like mind in his or her own little corner of the world.

    This is the third part to my thoughts on the Touchstone Magazine 2023 conference; the first part can be found here: https://breathofhallelujah.com/2023/10/17/at-the-touchstone-magazine-2023-conference-part-1-day-2/ and part two can be found here: https://breathofhallelujah.com/2023/10/20/at-the-touchstone-magazine-2023-conference-part-2-day-3/


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  • At the Touchstone Magazine 2023 conference, part 2 – day 3

    At the Touchstone Magazine 2023 conference, part 2 – day 3

    Friday was the third day of the Touchstone Magazine annual conference, and another short day, as things were scheduled for the morning only. The highlight, of course, was Rod Dreher’s talk, which was the entire reason why I had decided to attend the conference at all.

    The night before, after the official events of the conference was over, there was an informal reception at the hotel across the street. Many of the conference attendees were staying there as well, so it was a lot of fun to kick back and talk to people who were there. The speakers at the conference came as well, and it gave people an opportunity to meet the speakers and chat with them. I was really privileged to have gotten a chance to meet and chat with Rod Dreher. I will say, I was very impressed, and he was very nice and seemed absolutely genuine. He actually recognized me from all the commenting I do on his blog, which… wow. The conversations really did feel like chatting with an old friend.

    I ended up getting home well after midnight; it didn’t take quite the hour and a half I had estimated, but driving back in the rain wasn’t fun at all. Once home, I had a very strong sense that I needed to get everything together that night for the morning, so I did, even though this is not generally how I operate. I was really afraid that I was sleep through my alarm, so even though I use my phone to wake me up probably at least 80% of the time, here I was double-checking that I had set the alarm correctly.

    God does seem to have a sense of humor with these things. I was starting to get minimally conscious, when, at 5:50am, the power in the house went out. No, this would not affect my phone, but I have my computer plugged into a universal power source in my bedroom. As soon as the power went out, that thing started blaring out “BEEEP! BEEEEEP!” (It also wasn’t the only thing in the house beeping because of the power outage.) Yes, I was awake, and yes, I could still easily get dressed and out the door without power because I had gotten everything ready the night before.

    Eighth Day Books popup

    Once again, I got to Trinity International University early and I took the opportunity to go through more of the books that Eighth Day Books had there. (I also managed to notice that the ceiling above some of the books was dripping. Luckily the books that got wet only had drops of water on the covers that could be wiped off; an hour later, there would have been a good bit of book carnage.)

    In any case, I got myself a seat on the center aisle near the front, and tried not to take up too much space with my purse, laptop bag, books, umbrella, conference notebook, etc. *L*

    Rod’s speech was called “Total Freedom, Total Servility: Digital Culture’s Transformation of Authority”. The following are notes I took from the talk:

    There was a large backdrop behind the speakers; Touchstone has used these images for a long, long time. One of the photos featured is of a European city with what looks to be a castle-ish university on the left side. I had actually been wondering where the picture was from all of the day before, and I was glad that Rod identified it as the University of Edinburgh, in Edinburgh, Scotland. The reason he brought it up though tied in nicely with the speech; that the university has gone completely woke, citing from a Sebastian Milbank piece from the day before.

    The struggles for culture matter.

    He went on to talk a bit about having broken his laptop screen the night before flying to the US, and how easy it was, being a MacBook, to go to the Apple Store in New Orleans, get it replaced, and have the data restored with very little issue.

    From here, he launched to how there are absolutely advantages to the Internet revolution; in his own life, he hasn’t been tethered to an office since 2011 and he’s able to work from practically anywhere in the world with an internet connection, but that there’s a lot that we have to really be wary of in this new era. “The Machine” is happy to create for us a bespoke experience in any number of ways, but at the same time, all that information that is being gathered is being used to compile data on us, to know where we go, who we meet with, what we might be thinking. From that, it’s not hard to start working on a “social credit system”, complete with electronic monitoring of people, even in the West. At this point, there’s still political will to hold it back, but that is eroding.

    He switched tack a bit and started talking about societal trends such that herald a collapse in society, the collapse of authority, lawlessness, the way institutions have lost the confidence of people. While much of this is common sense – people really shouldn’t put their trust in things that obviously don’t deserve it, the results of that are kind of scary as well.

    He made the point about religious man vs psychological man, that “religious man” seeks the Truth, but “psychological man” seeks well-being.

    Coming back to the technology a bit, the 1984 model isn’t what we’ve found ourselves in, but rather Brave New World, where there’s a kind of “therapeutic totalitarianism”; life can become easier, but it’s at the price of one’s soul.

    There was one line that really reminded me of Jonathan Pageau, and that was “You are what you pay attention to,” but then he tied that back to smartphones, and boy, is that an issue these days! The smartphones are incredible tools, but they demand from us our attention like nothing else. In some sense, they are the first “natural technology”, and they really make the idea of humans merging with “the machine” more and more of a reality, as the line between real and virtual gets harder to discern, and this is becoming the new framework in which we live.

    At the same time that this technology – not just the smartphones, but other things – make life more “frictionless”, it’s important that we stop and understand what the cost of a “frictionless” society is. As Christians, it’s not like we’re not going to not use the technology, ever. For many of us, that’s not even possible. However, for example, if all our books are digital, how easy it is to erase or alter books with unpopular ideas without having to rip pages from the book on your bookshelf. Cashless society? There are records of every transaction that you make. Smart home? The power goes out and there’s no way to use the heat or locks until things come back online.

    Things get even more insidious, though, when one thinks of the potential of practicing medicine by AI (this is your predicted life expectancy; we will do nothing beyond this point) where the authority over life and death is handed to a machine.

    Again, this isn’t to say that the technology itself is evil, but when more and more authority is handed off to a force we don’t understand, it opens up ways for bad spirits. He pointed out that there are people in the highest levels of this technological revolution who absolutely see the technology, and particularly AI, as a way of “creating God”.

    He spoke a little of Diana Pasulka, who has done a lot of research into “ufology”. She’s written two books on the phenomenon, American Cosmic and Encounters: Explorations with Extraterrestrial and Other Non-Human Intelligence (which comes out in November), and from what Rod says here, it seems like there is a strong tie-in between “UFOs”, “non-human intelligent beings”, technology, and probably demons. I don’t remember if it was in the speech or on his substack that he said that when he read Fr. Seraphim Rose’s book Orthodoxy and the Religion of the Future, when Fr. Seraphim wrote that UFOs would have something to do with the heretical religion of the future, he didn’t think that much of it, but having now read some of Pasulka’s work, he’s convinced there’s something to it.

    Rod gets a lot of “harassment” about being a “doom and gloom” writer. I don’t necessarily find that, but he’s pointing out things that are uncomfortable that people should pay attention to. He does this not to give people reason to despair, but that by writing about these things, people have a method of seeing what is happening and resisting when possible. He ended the speech by talking about how we must choose the strong path, choose the cross, that by overcoming the “evil” of suffering, we’re in a place to be free.

    (Complete video of Rod’s speech; forward to about 14:50 for Rod alone: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iqH0pfh5iDE)

    Touchstone stage backdrop

    I’d say that was about it for Saturday, but I there was a panel discussion that followed. Of all the presentations, the panels were, by far, the weakest part. Ken Myers of Mars Hill Audio (and formerly of NPR) did the moderation, and it was terrible. For the first panel discussion (Friday), I literally closed my eyes and listened whilst half-asleep, and I don’t think I missed anything. Myers tended to start rambling on about something, and then switch over to a question that took a long time to formulate. Furthermore, his questions were oddly specific enough that there was usually only one person on the “panel” who could answer each one, and sometimes he let panelists sit there for ages saying nothing because none of the questions were directed to them. The Saturday panel was somewhat better than the first panel, mainly because Adam Macleod and Rod Dreher were part of it. Poor Brad Littlejohn sat there for ages and ages with nothing to say. I know it’s hard to come up with questions “on the fly”, so to speak, but rather than ask Rod something specifically about the UFOs, using points where there were similar themes between the speakers probably would have been a good starting place – I believe both MacLeod and Dreher talked about how language gets “shifted” under totalitarianism, comparing and contrasting their experiences with it probably would have been more engaging to watch than the questions that did get asked. The speakers I saw were fairly light on the “What’s a Christian to do in these times?” and hearing different opinions could have also been a starting point for a panel.

    I wasn’t sure how I was going to structure my posts about the conference; at this point, I think I’m going to do one more post to talk about my general impressions of attending the event. I really had a good time, and I want to stress that most of all. If you have missed the first part of me writing about the Touchstone conference, part 1 can be found here: https://breathofhallelujah.com/2023/10/17/at-the-touchstone-magazine-2023-conference-part-1-day-2/


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  • At the Touchstone Magazine 2023 conference, part 1 – day 2

    At the Touchstone Magazine 2023 conference, part 1 – day 2

    I got up early Friday morning and drove down into the land of the lost (that is, Illinois), to Trinity International University, making sure to fill the gas tank up before crossing that border. Why? Touchstone Magazine’s 2023 conference. Apart from Fr. Patrick Reardon, I don’t know any of the speakers today, which is probably due in large part to the fact that I haven’t subscribed to Touchstone in more than a decade. Also, I missed everything on Thursday because of coordination of childcare and the like, not to mention that I already had to make one trip down almost to the Illinois border earlier in the day on Thursday for something totally unrelated, but which absolutely could not be combined with going to the conference.

    Trinity International University fountain

    The theme of the conference is “The Crisis in Authority”. It’s an interesting topic, though a lot of the talks have been centered around how science – or, shall we say, scientism – is being put front and center to take over more traditional belief systems including religious belief and the traditional Christianity of Western Europe.

    I wasn’t quite expecting that, though it’s an interesting topic. One of the speakers, Michael Hanby, posited that authority can neither be created or destroyed, but rather it just shifts, and that’s certainly a valid hypothesis. There’s been a lot of speaking about the fallibility of science as “authority”, but how it’s different than, say, a bad king, because moving authority to sciences such as artificial intelligence seems to be an effort to move authority past the realm of even the human. In that way, it reinforces the effort that the reigns of power would only be in the hands of an elect few, and implicitly, that decisions regarding life and death boil down to algorithms, statistics, and probability.

    It seems like a lot of this veneration of science of supreme came out of the Enlightenment in the West, in an effort to shake off mysticism and superstition, which did not exclude some Christian practices. However, as much as that might have been driven off (and to our detriment, in part), we’ve just built our own replacements here, calling that progress.

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    The view while I started this post on the TIU campus.

    The other theme is that when one removes the authority inherent in the Truth, the structure by which we discern what we perceive is destroyed, and everything incomprehensible. From the very beginning, a baby learns to take the sights and sounds and create patterns of comprehension in his brain. By attacking the concept of an objective Truth, taking a look at the world again is incredibly overwhelming. We see tables and chairs and doors and trees because we have learned that order; we don’t see them as random concepts of color.

    The speakers were quite good, though this is a very academic crowd. A number are professors, and are used to speaking to groups, but I also found a couple of the speakers in the morning somewhat difficult to remain focused on for their entire presentations. I take notes to help me with that. The crowd is really a tough one to speak to, in some sense, because I’d guess about a quarter were seminarians and probably a quarter were clergy, and at least half of the rest were senior citizens, both men and couples. Of course, I didn’t talk to everybody there, but I think I was 1 of about 2 women who were there without husbands between the ages of about 25 and 60. The woman whom I did meet in that category was… a former seminarian at Trinity International University who was in pastoral ministry of some sort in Iowa.

    It was an amazing day, and I’d like to write about the “other part” of the conference separately, but for anyone who is interested, the following are a few words about each speaker individually:

    Douglas Farrow was the first speaker, and, unfortunately, I didn’t write down the title of his speech. He spoke about living a Christian life under the authority of God’s law and man’s law, and how Christians need to follow God’s law first. He spoke a bit about how the churches failed to exercise their authority in modern days, especially during Covid. He mentioned the Maccabean martyrs, which made me happy, and of community and of certain legal battles currently or recently going on. Totalitarianism, in trying to be its own savior, ends up with a created madness for going against the natural order of creation.

    “Without apostasy in the Church, evil cannot stand”

    “Evil is parasitic on good”

    “Be ready to suffer for the good”

    “When liberty gives way to license, license devours liberty”

    “In order to live the quiet life, it is a necessity that one is willing to resist evil.”

    R.V. Young was the next, with his speech “The Rout of the Muses”

    Young started off by talking about the advent of art which is not art, transgressive art, which he illustrated with talking a little bit about Marcel Duchamp’s 1917 “art” piece, “Fountain“. From that place, he talked about how even “cultured” art reviewers hardly actually deal with real art – magazines, for example, having their critic review a coffee-table book of Paul McCartney book of snapshots from 1964, or discussing whether the Barbie movie is actually liberal or conservative. He spoke about how, when there are no standards for truth or beauty, “art” becomes merely a way to get across the political, and it’s only evaluated as to whether it is useful in the political game or not. This sort of attitude towards art results into a campaign of destruction against real art. Regardless of the sphere of art, real art does something to represent the experience of human nature, and has structure and form, otherwise it is, for example in the musical realm, just a bunch of noise. He talked a little bit about teaching Moby Dick in high school, and over the years, the story becoming more and more unintelligible because fewer and fewer of the kids had the knowledge of the Bible to understand it. Furthermore, many of them no longer had Bibles in their home to even try to fix that hole in their knowledge. He also touched on how things like “Music Appreciation” classes have been disappearing over the last 50 years, in large part for the push to greater “diversity”. He also made a plea that people really take responsibility for the things that they feed their brain in what they watch, read, listen to, etc.

    Michael Hanby was the next speaker, and again, it looks like I didn’t take down the name of his speech. I mentioned before that he said that authority can’t be created or destroyed, but without authority being put in its proper order, we end up in a situation like today where we seem to be “careening toward an autopilot totalitarianism”. He connected the idea of fatherlessness, and I think here it would have been good to connect authority to responsibility, to the tendency to push authority off to some other entity, to the point where if one can push it off to “science” or “technology”, we end up with so-called “authority” via machine. This structure is almost by definition totalitarian, because “science” and “technology” may not be questioned. From there, it’s much easier to disassociate authority from truth, which inevitably leads to dehumanization. However, reality is on our side, and our job is to do our best to remain there.

    Autumn rain

    Thomas S. Buchanan was the next speaker, and he came up to the podium to give his talk, “The Authority of Science” in full professor robes and cap. The point was to show how something like what one wears can give one the air of authority, but it was pointed out, too, that the professor robes were meant to echo the clerical robes because in the beginning the professors were also clergy. However, in the modern times, the scientists have kind of created their own new priesthood and religion in “scientism”. He talked a little about the old debate about religion vs science, but also how people’s trust in “science” has taken a huge hit recently. He talked about the “reproducibility crisis” in science, particularly in chemistry and biology, where “breakthroughs” in knowledge often can’t be reproduced even by the same scientists, and how, for example the 1949 Nobel Prize for medicine went to the doctor who had come up with lobotomies. He talked about “scientism” as its own type of religion, Fauci being an example of that (“I am science”). However, belief in this leads to “moral concentration camps” and “spiritual genocide”, whereas true science allows the questions to be asked and assumptions to be challenged. He ended with a list of things to do to fight against these things – Speak out. Don’t be bullied. Be brave. Do not be afraid. Pray. Know that Christ is always with us.

    Fr. Patrick Henry Reardon gave a short speech entitled “Constantine” in which he compared King Cyrus of the Old Testament as being the “Constantine” to the Israelites the way Constantine was to the Christians. Both were outsiders who were instrumental in the growth of these religions. He also did a lot of talking about Psalms 1 and 2. The thing that made the King Cyrus connection especially interesting to me is that in one of his videos (perhaps with Jonathan Pageau) Jordan Peterson marvels at the role of King Cyrus in the history of the Old Testament, seeing it as an example of Truth being recognized from someone not attached to the “in-group”, making the idea that there is an actual, objective Truth more plausible.

    The last speaker on Friday was Adam MacLeod, who had the crowd transfixed with the beginning of his speech, “Law’s Essence and the Authority of the Imago Dei”. You see, he started by quoting Genesis with God’s command to Adam and Eve to be fruitful and multiply, and he went into Adam and Eve’s postmodern word-salad responses to God, which were hilarious. The meat of his speech was more serious, though, talking about how law is essential to the functioning of society, and that this has been true since ancient times, how the rule of law has been lost in principle, and ways that he sees to get it back. It was fascinating, but also very, very dense as far as the ideas and presentation. In the old, Christian sense of law, law was independent of power, but when it is pulled from that foundation, people have gotten into the system who cannot conceive of law as anything but power, and that causes all sorts of problems.

    “Returning a mad man to his right mind reveals the image of God within him.”


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  • Saturday on Substack – 14.X.2023 – the Tuesday edition

    Saturday on Substack – 14.X.2023 – the Tuesday edition

    Last week just wouldn’t give me a break – seriously, I’ve got four kids not feeling well today and it seems easier than the craziness of last week. However, there were some really good things about it too! In any case, my weekly post can be found here: https://breathofhallelujah.substack.com/p/saturday-on-substack-14×2023


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  • Sunday Gratitude – 15.X.2023

    Sunday Gratitude – 15.X.2023

    This past week was a week of extremes; extreme stress and trepidation on one hand, followed by something very uplifting and fun at the end. I know I still need to finish Saturday’s post, but I’m posting here now because I need a lot more time to finish the “Saturday on Substack” post. (Yes, it has been started.)

    Fall 2022

    I am grateful, incredibly grateful, that the thing which was causing me all sorts of stress went off without any great problems. I don’t know that anyone there present wasn’t filled with a good deal of sadness, but at least there’s the structure for stability being laid for the next couple of years, at least. Also, there’s light at the end of the tunnel as far as when the legal proceedings are over, and as much as that also evokes a lot of sadness, the state of limbo in which things have been hanging for the last year and a half is also untenable, and ending that is a needed relief. I am grateful to the friends who watched my toddler daughter during this, and who then refused to take any money on the basis of “returning kindnesses”, even though I know they could have used it.

    I am grateful for all the beauty around right now. The trees haven’t lost many leaves yet, but are in about the first 1/2 of the fall changes, which is probably my favorite part of it. These things serve as a constant reminder that when things just seem down or out of control that it is important to look up.

    I am grateful that I got to attend the Touchstone Magazine conference this year. I’d never been to one before, and, truthfully, as there was a not-great history with a couple of people who are “high up” with the organization. I’m glad I went, though; not only did I meet a lot of people I know, many whom I hadn’t seen in a decade, I got to meet people from the US and Canada who are serious in their faith and interested in being light at a time when it often feels like the darkness is inevitable. Oh, yes, and there were speakers who gave presentations as well! *L*

    I also am grateful for the opportunity to have gotten to meet and chat with Rod Dreher, besides hear his presentation. Truthfully, it’s a little weird to be recognized with the line “…and I comment on your blog”, but after that, it was like chatting with an old friend. I have friends who have had major issues with the way the Kenosha public schools have gone woke after Covid, they put up a good fight, but now have pulled their kids out of that system. One of the books that I think has really resonated with the mom during this has been Dreher’s Live Not By Lies, and Rod graciously signed a copy for me for them. Being as I had to drive through Kenosha on my way back, I called to see if I could just drop off the book on my way, and since they were home, it worked out, and we had a nice chat over Coke Zeros, and I’m thankful for that as well. I’m also grateful that I got to go at all and that there wasn’t an issue with childcare or the like.

    I’m grateful to have made it to church today, I’m grateful that there wasn’t any dust-up because of the kids, and I’m grateful for the fellowship and friendship there.

    Oh, boy, it’s past time some kids were in bed. I’ll leave you with this.

    Thank you so much for reading!


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