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  • Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    To those celebrating today – Christ is Risen! – Happy Easter!

    And then there are the “weird” ones here who are still waiting another week, among which I count myself. There have been a lot of services already – yesterday, I think I was in church for nearly four hours. I’ve really struggled this Lent; from the beginning, I felt less ready for it than most years and this year… wow. For the greater part of Lent, I believed that the Orthodox were also going to be celebrating Pascha today, and it was only looking at the calendar more carefully a couple of weeks ago when I realized that no, there’s a one-week difference. I don’t know. I wasn’t expecting to spend so much time in church this weekend, but I was at vigil last night, and I certainly had the feeling of moving from the darkness into the light, and by the time the service was over, there was an air of hopefulness and joy there. For that I am grateful. (My brain did fight against this on the way home, though. *sigh*)

    I am grateful for the more spring-like weather, and the opportunity to be outside. I’m also grateful for my neighbor who invites me to come walking with her.

    I am grateful for friends who take the time to talk even in the rain.

    I am grateful for making it home in a storm the other day; I wasn’t expecting it, then all of a sudden, I was driving down this country highway with lightning flashes all around. I don’t think that they were very close, as there was only a tiny bit of thunder, but what a show! The next day, driving down those same roads, I could actually see how high the water is, and I’m grateful that there were no issues with low-lying stretches of road or the bridges.

    Mourning dove in wreath
    Time to take the Christmas wreath down!

    I am thankful to have had a little bit of time to be outside with my kids, and I’m thankful that they have places around that they can enjoy riding their bikes through, and that they’ve been fine with this “exploring”.

    I am thankful for the joy of singing.

    I am thankful for the things that are showing signs of life (and even blooming) even after a very cold winter and long periods of neglect.

    I am grateful for the opportunity to have been in contact with a number of people on this day, in the joy of Easter.

    I am grateful for yet another sign that I’m not alone through the hard stuff.

    Thank you so much for being here! Christ is Risen!

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    I really hate it when it seems like I blink and yet another week has passed. Somehow so much of this time ends up feeling like a blur, and it seems like all that is left is a growing list of things that should have been done long ago, but haven’t been done yet.

    In the meantime, though, I’ve been trying not to lose a sense of gratitude, and to also try to make the most of the days at hand. We’ve had a couple of days that have hit 70F, which has been amazing, and especially as the days are getting longer, it would be terrible if we didn’t do something to take advantage of the warmer weather. My younger son had a day off of school a couple of weeks back, and the two of us went out on our bikes and rode ten miles together, and it was amazing. He also started taking pictures with my camera that afternoon, so I’ll be sharing a few of those in this post.

    Broken pier Wind Point Lake Michigan

    A couple of weeks after the real birthday, my youngest, in kindergarten, had her first real birthday party. It was a bowling alley affair, and, per the terms of the contract, was less than two hours long, but for a group of 5 and 6 year olds, it was fine. I was completely stressed out over this for at least a week for a number of reasons, but it turned out really, really good. Even the weather held out, kind of… It started raining about the time that the party started, and it was still raining as people left. Had we started a couple of hours later, everybody would have been going home in sleet, because we had a blizzard come through the next day. The kids were thrilled to get the day off of school, and despite the crazy wind, we never lost power. The next day, our dear neighbor made a path for our car using a snowblower.

    I’m grateful that even though I managed to break a spoke on the one bike (a different one than before), this happened in a place where I could ride to a place where I could leave the bike for a couple of days, and which was very close to the bike shop. On the night that this happened, I was also able to get a ride back home with one of the ladies from church. I’d never talked to her before, and she’s incredibly sweet, and lives just a couple of streets over from where I live.

    I’m grateful for the amazing time I had at St. Haralambos in Niles a couple of weeks back. Not only were some very dear “real life” friends there, I finally got to meet Fr. Andrew Damick in person. We have been online acquaintances (friends) for over 20 years, and it seemed like high time to meet him in person. He actually recognized me by sight as well, which is crazy because it’s been a looong time since I posted any photos of myself that he might come across. 🙂 That was a lot of fun, though.

    Breezy days and kites!

    I am grateful, as well, for the opportunity to visit an old friend and just enjoy sitting on the front step, having a conversation in the sunshine.

    In many ways, I feel pulled very, very, very thin. There have been a lot of good things, to be sure, but there have been a number of very, very frustrating things as well. I don’t know; at this point, I’m not sure that I’ll ever have things “figured out”, but there’s a path to go forward on, and that’s the way through this all. Forgive me again for the blog silence – I truly am grateful for you.


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  • Wordle #456

    Wordle #456
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    Line 1: “Baste” it is again today, and “S” and “T” are present, just in the wrong places.

    Line 2: Moving “S” and “T” together to the beginning of the word worked! However, “sting” did not.

    Line 3: “Stick”? Yes! I love getting these in 3 or less (though there’s a lot more luck involved, I’d guess).

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  • Orenburg impressions, 15 years later

    Orenburg impressions, 15 years later

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    Igor Khramov (Игор Храмов, Chramow – German spelling) organized a trip to Orenburg, Russia in 2007 to commemorate what would have been Alexander Schmorell’s 90th birthday. It was a pretty select group of people who came, the group was under 20 people, but among the attendees were people like the well-known German actor Alexander Held (who played Robert Mohr in Sophie Scholl: The Final Days and Walter Hewel in Downfall), the writer and journalist Ulrich Chaussy, Alexander Schmorell’s friend Nikolai Hamazaspian, and Metropolitan (then Archbishop) +Mark of the Russian Orthodox Church Outside of Russia (ROCOR).

    The trip happened because of a book, namely his second book about Alexander Schmorell (Alexander Schmorell – Gestapo-Verhörprotokolle – Februar-März 1943 – RGWA I36IK-I-8808). The first was really a biography, the second a bilingual (German/Russian) edition of all the files the Gestapo collected on Alexander in his interviews and such. The book shows that it was published in 2005, but I don’t think it was actually available until 2006. By this time, I was no longer living in Germany, and while the book would have been somewhat difficult to obtain there, getting it in the US was much, much harder. I contacted people at the MiR-Verein in Munich, and they passed my information to Igor himself, and in the ensuing exchanges of email, we figured out how I could get the book and how he could get paid for it, but he also asked me if I would be interested in going to Russia for Alexander Schmorell’s birthday. I replied that I was.

    Several weeks passed, and I received the book on 13 July 2006 – the anniversary of St. Alexander’s execution. Take from that what you will. In any case, I didn’t hear back from Igor or his people in Orenburg for a long time, so long that for a bit there, I figured I probably wouldn’t hear back from them.

    However, as the date got closer, I heard from them again, and we worked on paperwork to get my visa to enter Russia. The visa lasted for a month, and so before going to Orenburg, I spent a few days in Moscow. As much as I have been a Russia “geek”, it’s still the one and only time I’ve been there.

    The difference between Moscow and Orenburg is like night and day. Moscow is humongous, and built on a scale unlike anything else I’ve experienced; it’s as if the whole point of the city is to make a person feel tiny.

    Orenburg, on the other hand, had around 600,000 people when I went there, and when I told a Russian professor I knew that I was hoping to go to Orenburg, he kind of chuckled, and said that it’s like a Russian saying that they want to visit America to see Billings, Montana. Not that there’s anything wrong with Billings, Montana, but it’s certainly not at the top of most foreigners’ “top ten places to go in the US”.

    I’ve written before on my old website about the substance of the trip there. I do hope to get that reposted, but at the moment, I don’t have the time to set up a website again. For now, though, I wanted to share some of the more amorphous impressions of the place and the trip.

    The first thing is that I have never, ever been in a place that felt so “middle of nowhere” than when travelling around outside of Orenburg. I have even lived in sparsely populated places in the US, but this is a whole different level of lonesomeness. At least when one travels across someplace like Montana, even if one doesn’t see people, there’s plenty of evidence of them, such as roads and houses. Here, the signs are much, much fewer.

    Outside Orenburg Russia 2007
    Lake outside of Orenburg Russia 2007

    Having spent a good deal of time in Europe, I’m not surprised or shocked by old things, but there was a different sort of feel to it here. Certainly, there are some very old things that are left, but there almost was a feel as if stepping back to the 1940s or early 1950s in some sense.

    tempo coffee Orenburg
    An older building in decent shape – I love that the the coffee shop there “In Tempo” touts itself as being for punctual people!
    Municipal building in Orenburg Russia, 2007
    A municipal building with a courtyard in front.
    Orenburg history Museum
    History museum

    I should mention here that we watched a video about the famous Orenburg shawls and how they are made here. There was also the opportunity to buy one, and already the next day I was kicking myself (metaphorically) that I didn’t do that. The documentary we watched was French, and possibly done by the channel Arte. One of the things that the video really drove home was how remote Orenburg is and how incredibly harsh and long the winters are – the shawls take a lot of effort to create, but when one who isn’t in town might be stuck at home for weeks at a time, it seems like a decent way to do something productive with that time. This is a video I found on YouTube, if anyone is interested. The crazy thing about these is that they are full-sized and incredibly warm. At the same time, they are incredibly delicate, and, if done right, can be pulled through a ring that one wears on one’s finger (hence the name “wedding band shawl”)

    Some pre-revolutionary houses

    Orenburg 2007 houses
    Oh, the history and weather these houses have seen!

    View from my hotel room:

    Orenburg 2007 hotel view
    Church of St. John the Apostle on the far left.

    Then there was the ultra-modern:

    Orenburg theater
    Theater

    In Russia, there is no mistaking an Orthodox Church for anything else. They certainly have their own distinct architecture to begin with, but when you add shining onion domes on each one, they are instantly recognizable. (One thing that I noticed here and in Moscow is that even if a church was only beginning restoration, the onion domes were often already fixed up so that from a distance one couldn’t tell how badly in disrepair it was.) This here is a Lutheran church – Orenburg once had a sizeable German population, but they were dispersed and the churches were closed down. The building looks very German, but especially by Russian standards, does not look like a church.

    Lutheran Church Orenburg
    Lutheran Church in Orenburg

    In between, there’s an awful lot of the awful Soviet-style block concrete, and I didn’t even bother photographing it because it is so awful and ugly and it’s everywhere in the former USSR. It’s not even that much different than some of the stuff in Germany, but it probably was of lower quality to begin with, and isn’t taken care of the way that Germans do, so it just looks ugly and sad.

    flags in Orenburg
    Flags everywhere – what do they think this is, the US?

    There were also a lot of statues

    Orenburg - Pushkin
    Pushkin
    Tchakov - Orenburg
    Valery Chkalov, test pilot

    The statue of Valery Chkalov is huge, and dominates the plaza on the European side of the bridge across the Ural river into Asia. One might wonder why someone who never lived in the city would have such a huge statue, but Orenburg was actually renamed for Chkalov for a short time (1938-1957).

    in Asia - Orenburg 2007
    Looking at the Chkalov statue from the Asian side of the Ural River in Orenburg – there’s so much space here that there’s actually a lift that can bring people across.
    Asia post - Orenburg 2007
    Going into Asia
    Europe post - Orenburg 2007
    Europe post – notice the Orenburg coat of arms atop both posts
    Lenin - Orenburg 2007
    Lenin was still hanging out. I wouldn’t be surprised if, instead of being toppled, he’s been sold to a US college campus! (I kid, I kid!)

    I got more pictures of statues, but I’m not entirely sure of who they all are. I think there was a statue of Yuri Gagarin somewhere – as he lived in the city for awhile during the time he was learning to fly – but all I see here is a plaque commemorating a street named in his honor.

    Gagarin plaque - Orenburg 2007

    One of the very interesting aspects was the influence having Archbishop +Mark there had on the itinerary. He was one of the people whose schedules varied some from the rest of the group, but because he was there, there was a particular awareness of the role that Orthodoxy played in the actions of Alexander Schmorell. It was known at this point that he would be glorified as a saint, but exactly when was unknown at this point, I believe.

    Archbishop Mark Orenburg 2007
    Archbishop +Mark meeting Alexander Held on the steps of the State Institute of Management – Orenburg.
    management institute - Orenburg 2007
    State Institute of Management – Orenburg. Don’t look too closely at the concrete that the sign helps hide!
    St. Nicholas Cathedral Orenburg 2007
    The Sunday crowd – St. Nicholas Cathedral

    This took place mere months after the reunification of the Moscow Patriarchate and ROCOR, so having Archbishop +Mark here was a pretty big deal, and something that many people would have thought impossible had this even been a year earlier. Notice there is someone with a professional video camera up front.

    Inside St. Nicholas Cathedral Orenburg 2007
    Archbishop +Mark presiding

    I believe the following was taken at the State Institute of Management. The Weisse Rose Stiftung has “travelling” exhibitions, and most of the things here were their standard boards, with Russian translation, but being that this was Orenburg, there was some special, unique things here as well. Unfortunately, this shot is somewhat blurry, but Igor Khramov’s two books are part of the display here, as are some photographs, and I believe that at least one of them is Erich Schmorell. (I know that Igor arranged for Alexander’s sister Natalia to come to Orenburg at least once, so it stands to figure that Erich probably also came, as I believe Igor worked more closely with Erich than Natalia.)

    White Rose Orenburg 2007
    August Schmorell - Orenburg 2007
    A panel made for the Orenburg audience that isn’t a part of the normal display. It deals with Karl August Schmorell, who left Germany as a young man to find his fortune in Russia. I believe the lower panel shows where his shop was, though it (as well as the home Alexander lived in as a baby) are all gone.

    Then again, Alexander Schmorell isn’t the only person from Orenburg to have been glorified as a saint. St. Makary (Kvitkin) was as well.

    St. Makary Kvitkin Orenburg

    This trip was incredibly well planned and incredibly special in a lot of ways. It was amazing to be with a group of people who all respected the memory of Alexander Schmorell so much as to make this trip. There were a couple of us from the US, most from Germany, but there was one gentleman who had flown from South Africa to be a part of this. Fantastic people, and the opportunity to get to meet Nikolai Hamazaspian was something that I will treasure forever.

    I took the train back to Moscow – 26 hours! I had half a day or so in Moscow before flying back to Germany, and what should happen but that a number of the people from the trip were taking that same flight. If I remember correctly, we landed in Munich somewhere between 10pm and midnight. It was amazing that a couple of the men really went out of their way to make sure my ride showed up so that I wouldn’t be stranded at the airport for the night.

    Orenburg train 2007
    Back in Moscow, the last reminder of the Orenburg adventure.
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  • Wordle #455

    Wordle #455

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    Line 1: “Baste” it is again today, and I’ve got “T” and “E” correct right off the bat.

    Line 2: There are a lot of words that end in “TE”

    Line 3: No “O”, so a “U”, and now we have “UTE”

    Line 4: How about “chute”? Yay!

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  • Wordle #454

    Wordle #454
    Wordle #454 game board

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    Line 1: “Baste” it is again today, and I got the “A” correct, and an “E” that’s not in the right place.

    Line 2: Changing the “E” to the beginning; still in the wrong place, but I lucked out with the “R”.

    Line 3: Yeah, it’s really easy to want to put the “E” at the end of a word.

    Line 4: Now fixing the “E” mistake, we have a word with “ARE” in the middle. “Pared” as a guess did quite well…

    Line 5: …except the word wasn’t “pared”, but “parer”!

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  • Wordle #453

    Wordle #453
    Wordle #453 game board

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    Wordle explanations are posted a day late to ensure that no one accidentally sees the solution before playing.

    Line 1: “B” and “T”, but “B” doesn’t start the word, and there’s no “E” to have words ending in “BE”, and no “A” for words that start “AB”. Very, very peculiar…

    Line 2: Never had a “doubt”, to be sure!

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  • Commemorating St. Alexander of Munich’s 105th birthday

    Commemorating St. Alexander of Munich’s 105th birthday

    I had originally planned to make a short video and do a big post of pictures from the trip I made to Russia in 2007 in honor of what would have been Alexander Schmorell’s 90th birthday, but I ended up talking a whole lot longer than I expected, so enjoy the video and I will post pictures later. 🙂

    The book I mentioned but blanked on the name is Die Weisse Rose: Von der Front in den Widerstand by Detlef Bald.

    Get the audio podcast here: https://anchor.fm/breathofhallelujah/episodes/Commorating-105-years-since-St–Alexander-Schmorell-of-Munich-was-born-e1nusnl

  • Today’s cultural moment — bluebird of bitterness

    Today’s cultural moment — bluebird of bitterness

    In honor of the birthday of Dmitri Dmitriyevich Shostakovich (1906-1975), here is the Andante from his Piano Concerto No. 2, composed in 1957.

    Today’s cultural moment — bluebird of bitterness
  • Wordle #452

    Wordle #452
    Wordle #452 game board

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    Wordle explanations are posted a day late to ensure that no one accidentally sees the solution before playing.

    Line 1: Still hanging on to using “baste”. “E” correct; “T” in the wrong place. The letters are so common, it’s not a lot to go on.

    Line 2: Again, it’s hard when there are only common letters to go on…

    Line 3: That fish again!

    Line 4: This puzzle is seeming strangely familiar. Would they actually reuse a word? Would they reuse a word that was extremely recent? Actually, no.

    Line 5: “Thyme!” My goodness, if I had only picked “thyme” first, like I did when the answer was theme!

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  • Wordle #451

    Wordle #451
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    What happened to Wordle #450? I forgot. By the evening, I actually thought I had done it, but I didn’t check back. However, when I sat down to do the post, I noticed that there wasn’t an image file, which was weird. I got to wondering if I actually had done it, and when I finished this one, I saw my streak had been knocked back down to 1! :,( Oh well. Not the end of the world.

    Line 1: Seriously, sometimes I think it’s easier to have no letters than only one very common letter in the wrong place.

    Line 2: Added the “H” here, but both letters are in the wrong position.

    Line 3: In order to move the “H” over, I pair it with “P”. Now the “A” is in the right place, but the neither the “P” nor the “H” are.

    Line 4: This drove me nuts. I was still pretty convinced the “P” and the “H” went together, but to try to figure out a word starting with “A” that has “PH” together… it took awhile. I was glad to get it finally, though!

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  • Video post: 20 Years as an Orthodox Christian

    Video post: 20 Years as an Orthodox Christian

    I was baptized 20 years ago today into the Orthodox Church. Here I’m just talking a little bit about that:

    P.S. I have two pairs of glasses, and I can’t find either pair at the moment! Eep! If you’d like, check this out as an audio podcast instead!