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  • Sunday Gratitude – 2.VIII.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 2.VIII.2026

    Boy, has it been busy the last couple of weeks! More appointments than I could shake a stick at, and a couple of weekend events as well. I’m very grateful that things pretty much went off without a hitch, and appointments were met, things a t home have been pretty quiet, and events were enjoyable.

    One of the events that I went to last Sunday was German Fest in Milwaukee. I had toyed with the idea of biking the 16 or so miles up to church, and then continuing on the eight from church to the fest, but I’m happy that I didn’t do that. Instead, I put my bike in the car and drove up to church, changed quickly afterwards in the bathroom, then biked the 8 up to German Fest. I had never biked along the Lakefront Path before, and it was really beautiful, albeit busy with people, making it impossible to go very fast. For me, one of the draws is that I get to see people I know, and so that was really fun. (I just wish my German dress still fit me.)

    I biked the 8 miles back to the car, and at the end I was tired, and I was grateful I didn’t have 16 more to go, but I didn’t feel terrible either. Last year, I parked in a place where it was a four mile ride from my car to the fest, and on the way back, I felt like I was dying. However, I probably hadn’t even been on a bike in at least 2-3 years before then. And now, well, between the Thursday afternoon before German Fest and the following Friday afternoon, I biked over fifty miles, and it was challenging, but fun. 🙂 I’m grateful for the opportunity to be working on my health.

    Silly thing, but my older son was looking for 32 gigabyte SD cards for something. I figured that that was easy enough; as long as I can remember, those things aren’t wildly expensive. Imagine my shock when I walked into Best Buy to get one, and they all seemed to be over $45. Insane. I told him to hold off on buying one, and though I often have miscellaneous extra memory cards and such around, there was nothing that would help him in this instance. Mind you, though, that I haven’t purchased any of these in at least 3 years. The next day, he and his sister went to the gym, and I decided to check out WalMart. Wouldn’t you know, but the price was almost as bad. However, there were two associates who came up right by me, one of them holding a plastic case. Wouldn’t you know, but there were two 32GB SD cards in it. They seemed to be confused about where they wanted to put the item, as it had originally come from the outdoor section, as these two were marketed for trail cams. Nobody is looking for SD cards in the outdoor section! I’m sure this is why this was marked down to $8.50. I proceeded to ask if I could buy it, and they were happy to oblige me, as that also meant that they didn’t have to find a place to put them in the case. I am very grateful I didn’t have to shell out three times as much for the same item.

    After German Fest, I went over to my church’s church picnic. That was fun, too. The location is great, and it’s nice to hang out with good people. Summer days are beautiful like that.

    Speaking of summer days, we finally got some rain. I don’t think it rained at all in July until the 27th and it was kind of sad seeing everybody’s lawns turning brown. I had mowed right around the last week of June, and I had meant to a couple of weeks after that, and I actually started to, but after about 10 minutes of mowing, I twisted my ankle and it hurt too much to keep going. By the next day already, I didn’t know if it was safe to mow, but it was interesting to see how those strips that I did mow turned very, very brown, and I’m grateful I didn’t cut the whole lawn and have it looking like that.

    On the weather front, we had strong storms that came through on the 27th. Friends of mine in Milwaukee had power knocked out, but here, thankfully, we kept power, there was no hail, etc. Unfortunately, this was not the case in all of Wisconsin, and the town of Menasha, in particular, got hit badly. My kids and I signed up for an event months ago that takes place in this area; once I heard that there was a tornado, I checked back to see if the event had been cancelled. It didn’t seem to be, so we drove up to the area and just happened to end up on the street here that this man is driving on in the first 3 minutes of the video here.

    How did I end up in Menasha? Well, our first destination was in a small town called Combined Locks. The driving on the interstate had been miserable due to rain, and at a certain point, I couldn’t take it any more, and looked for the first exit off, knowing I could come up the western side of Lake Winnebago to get to where I wanted to go. It just happens that Menasha is pretty much on the western side of the tip of Lake Winnebago, so by getting off the interstate, it pretty much meant going through Menasha. It was weird, too, because at first, I just noticed that there were a lot of tree branches and stuff on the sides of the road, and it kind of dawned on me that that must have been a result of the storm. I did not know that within about 15 minutes, we’d be driving through a disaster zone like this. The crazy thing is, though, that once I got through Menasha, my destination was about six miles down the road, and over there, things looked completely normal. For as bad as the tornado was though, it’s amazing that not a single person was killed – certainly something to be grateful for.

    The event that the little kids and I went to was a bike ride/music festival called “Bike to the Beat“. The event took place on Saturday, but the four of us made a little mini-vacation out of it, and it was an awful lot of fun. The drive up was absolutely horrendous, lasting 4 hours when 2.5 is more normal. It rained the whole time and there were accidents and road construction in the Milwaukee area. I was so incredibly grateful both to get off the interstate and to actually arrive at the hotel.

    Manitowoc train tracks Lake Michigan

    BIke to the Beat was amazing, even apart from a couple of wrinkles in the day, and I am grateful that there were no mechanical issues with the bikes, we had all the tools, I didn’t forget any pedals or anything, etc. More than that though, the kids enjoyed the hotel a lot and we took a little detour through Manitowoc on the way back, and it was really a good trip. I’m the type of person who is always trying to anticipate what might go wrong in order to avoid any pitfalls, and when things go off with no major issues, I am grateful.

    I’m grateful, too, that after far too long, I got to video chat with a dear friend. I’m grateful, too that through everything, the friendship holds.

    Wow, it’s been a full couple of weeks! Thank you all for your patience with me! I am certainly grateful for all of you!


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  • Today’s cultural moment — bluebird of bitterness

    Today’s cultural moment — bluebird of bitterness

    In honor of the birthday of Dmitri Dmitriyevich Shostakovich (1906-1975), here is the Andante from his Piano Concerto No. 2, composed in 1957.

    Today’s cultural moment — bluebird of bitterness
  • Wordle #452

    Wordle #452
    Wordle #452 game board

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    Wordle explanations are posted a day late to ensure that no one accidentally sees the solution before playing.

    Line 1: Still hanging on to using “baste”. “E” correct; “T” in the wrong place. The letters are so common, it’s not a lot to go on.

    Line 2: Again, it’s hard when there are only common letters to go on…

    Line 3: That fish again!

    Line 4: This puzzle is seeming strangely familiar. Would they actually reuse a word? Would they reuse a word that was extremely recent? Actually, no.

    Line 5: “Thyme!” My goodness, if I had only picked “thyme” first, like I did when the answer was theme!

    Did you get this Wordle? Tell me about it in the comments!

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  • Wordle #451

    Wordle #451
    Wordle #451 game board

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    What happened to Wordle #450? I forgot. By the evening, I actually thought I had done it, but I didn’t check back. However, when I sat down to do the post, I noticed that there wasn’t an image file, which was weird. I got to wondering if I actually had done it, and when I finished this one, I saw my streak had been knocked back down to 1! :,( Oh well. Not the end of the world.

    Line 1: Seriously, sometimes I think it’s easier to have no letters than only one very common letter in the wrong place.

    Line 2: Added the “H” here, but both letters are in the wrong position.

    Line 3: In order to move the “H” over, I pair it with “P”. Now the “A” is in the right place, but the neither the “P” nor the “H” are.

    Line 4: This drove me nuts. I was still pretty convinced the “P” and the “H” went together, but to try to figure out a word starting with “A” that has “PH” together… it took awhile. I was glad to get it finally, though!

    Did you get this Wordle? Tell me about it in the comments!

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  • Video post: 20 Years as an Orthodox Christian

    Video post: 20 Years as an Orthodox Christian

    I was baptized 20 years ago today into the Orthodox Church. Here I’m just talking a little bit about that:

    P.S. I have two pairs of glasses, and I can’t find either pair at the moment! Eep! If you’d like, check this out as an audio podcast instead!

  • Happy Birthday Arvo Pärt!

    Happy Birthday Arvo Pärt!

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    Now, technically Pärt’s birthday was yesterday, but I suppose even if one is Estonian, as Arvo Pärt is, September 11 is a memorable day, if not in a good way. It’s not quite the Ides of March, but in recent history, I don’t know that another date is quite so notorious.

    On the other hand, Pärt turned 87 yesterday, and he had many, many birthdays before the events of 11 September 2001 made the date notorious.

    In any case, Arvo Pärt is a musical composer, and actually one of the most performed living composers out there right now. I may still never have heard of him except that he is also an Orthodox Christian, and just a couple of years before I became Orthodox, he released Kanon Pokajanen, which is a magnificent sacred work – and Orthodox. Therefore, it seems like when I was first becoming Orthodox, I heard about this all the time, and eventually, I purchased a copy.

    I like Pärt’s music because he’s managed to be modern and to have his own style without being ugly, vulgar, or just plain weird. Unfortunately, Pärt uses a lot of silence to accentuate the instrumentation, and it’s a very powerful tool, but it’s hard for me, at this point in my life, to be able to sit back in a dark room with headphones and just take it all in. I hope that in the future, I’ll have more time for more deep listening of music.

    However, as coincidence would have it, as I was looking through some of Part’s music yesterday, I found an arrangement of “Variations for the Healing of Arinuschka” by the incredibly talented musician Josh Turner (who usually plays pop) and I wanted to share it here:

    Mr. Pärt, happy birthday, and may God grant you many years!

  • Wordle #449

    Wordle #449
    Wordle #449 game board

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    Line 1: “Baste” did pretty well here, but nothing in the correct position.

    Line 2: Again, nothing in the correct spot, which is curious.

    Line 3: I was having trouble thinking of stuff, and while I shouldn’t have put the “A” in position #2 again, it did help nail down where the “T” and the “B” are.

    Line 4: It still took a few minutes to think of “tibia”. There aren’t very many words that start “TIB” and even when I figured that it had to be the way the word starts (having eliminated “E”, “O”, and “U” – and with “A” being incorrect there) it finally took me going through letter combinations and coming up with the second “I”, and then it was obvious! Phew!

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  • Wordle #448

    Wordle #448
    Wordle #448 game board

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    Wordle explanations are posted a day late to ensure that no one accidentally sees the solution before playing.

    Line 1: Still hanging on to using “baste”. “T” is good, all others are a no-go.

    Line 2: Sometimes it’s fun to see which foreign words get accepted. I managed to find “O”, but not in the right spot.

    Line 3: I like to work in “R” and “H” and even “L” fairly quickly, because they can be indicative of consonant blends. No “R” or “H” today, but I’ve knocked out a lot of words by eliminating them.

    Line 4: “Lofty” is the only thing that I can think of that doesn’t have the “F” to begin the word. (It’s pretty much a given that it can’t end the word with that “T” there, and using “O” as the vowel which couldn’t be in the 3rd spot…)

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  • 9-11-01 + 21

    9-11-01 + 21

    I was 22 when the terrorist attacks of 9/11/2001 took place. It’s hard to believe that soon, more of my life will have taken place after this date than before. Twenty-one also tends to be a “milestone” year; in the United States, it’s the age that a person is legally allowed to purchase and consume alcohol – unless you’re on a military base. It also means my first blog will soon be celebrating its 21st birthday – one of the first topics I remember reading about was people’s recollections about their experiences that day, because like few other things, there was a sense of shared experience.

    I remember where I was on 11 September 2001. I remember where I was on 11 September 2002. I remember where I was on 11 September 2007. However it happened to turn out, those first six anniversaries were all experienced abroad. The day certainly changed my life, not that I was lining up at the nearest recruiting station to join the military, but that I felt that I was being called to something, and as much as I liked my job and circle of friends and life was pretty stable, even just the week before, God had been laying the underpinnings to be able to hear that call and be able to go.

    I keep kind of dreading thinking about what I should write on the occasion of the anniversary of 9/11, because I really have nothing new, and it’s not like in the meantime we’ve achieved world peace or even become a more virtuous society. If anything, it seems just the opposite. On the other hand, to forget is terrible too, not only does it write off the lives lost that day, but all who suffered and died in its name in the ensuing years.

    It’s surprising how much emotion regarding that day is still buried in my heart. A couple of years ago, a young man who was a teenager at the time started talking to me about 9/11 as a “truther”. I started crying; he had been 2 at the time that it happened – he has no real memory of the event or the aftermath – but regardless of what you believe, the memories of people jumping out of the windows in the World Trade Center, or the ambulances lined up at the ground, then rendered forever inoperable by debris and ash can’t be un-remembered.

    I think the only 9/11 ceremony I ever attended was in 2007, in Moscow, of all places. It was at the Orthodox Church in America’s Representation Church of St. Catherine the Great Martyr. I happened to be in Moscow at the time, and it was recommended to me by my future husband that I contact the priest there, since the priest had been a friend of his family’s for many years. I did, and this priest told me that there would be this commemoration, and that I was welcome to come, so I did.

    St. Catherine OCA Representation Church 2007
    St. Catherine – OCA Representation Church in Moscow
    St. Catherine OCA Representation Church 2007
    Other side of St. Catherine

    The church itself is fairly small, and odd in the sense that the main entrances are from the sides. What I didn’t realize was that besides all the VIPs showing up for this event, including the US Ambassador to Russia, there was a bit of a media circus as multiple news organizations were there to cover this. The result made it feel much less like a memorial!

    media circus

    I’m not saying that anyone was blatantly disrespectful here, but between the VIPs and the guys who are moving around for the best camera angle and sound, the atmosphere was relatively circus-like.

    After the church service, everyone moved over to the courtyard, where there was a small program over by this memorial bell. And while it is nowhere on the scale of the Russian 9/11 memorial in New Jersey, it seemed to accentuate the fact that at that time, at least, the remembrance of 9/11 was happening at least as much in Moscow as it was in the US. (I was actually stunned to see how much there was!)

    9/11 memorial bell Moscow
    On the plaque: This Memorial Bell Tower was built in memory of the Innocent Victims of the terrorist attack on the United States of America on 9/11/01. May their memory be eternal!

    If anything, 9/11 drove home for me that I am an American. Sure, there’s the good, the bad, and the ugly, but one of the interesting things about travelling, studying, living, and working abroad is seeing what “American” means to others. I’m not a German who grew up in Germany because all my ancestors back a thousand years or more lived and died in the same place. Some people along the way picked up and said, “We are looking for opportunity and freedom,” and I am the heir to that. It makes being American different, and that, of course, draws the hatred of some. Regardless of America’s sins, each one of us either has to choose to be proud of the heritage and work to continue it, or be ashamed and work to tear it down. There’s a lot of tearing down going on at the moment, from the highest ranks, it seems, but I always hope to be one who lives to build up.

    P.S. There is ONE song that I feel does something to capture 9/11, and that is “There are no Words” by Kitty Donohoe. She has a version of this as well, but almost immediately, Noel Paul Stookey (of Peter, Paul, and Mary fame) did a cover which was phenomenal. I lost my copy of it, and searched for over a decade for it before finding it again. However, FINALLY, he’s got a live recording of it on YouTube, and I share that with you now:

  • Wordle #447

    Wordle #447
    Wordle #447 game board

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    Wordle explanations are posted a day late to ensure that no one accidentally sees the solution before playing.

    Line 1: Still hanging on to using “baste”. “E” correct; “T” in the wrong place. The letters are so common, it’s not a lot to go on.

    Line 2: I figured if “T” wasn’t in position #4, it was fairly likely to begin the word, and we see here that it does, and while more letters have been eliminated, there are still a lot of 5-letter words that begin with “T” and end with “E”.

    Line 3: So now we work on eliminating more letters as possibilities…

    Line 4: “Thyme” seems like it would be a great Wordle solution, so I’m a little surprised that the “Y” is incorrect…

    Line 5: Therefore, it’s “theme” – yay!

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  • I’m like a bird…

    I’m like a bird…

    …I keep flying into windows

    About a week ago, I was sitting in the living room of my house with Middle Daughter, and, all of a sudden, we heard a very distinctive “thunk”.

    We both knew what that meant – once again, some little bird had come crashing into our front windows.

    It doesn’t actually make any sense; the house I live in has a little bit of an overhang in the front; it kind of gives the illusion that the top floor is wider than ground level, but it also creates a little bit of a front “patio”. Many say that the birds mistake the reflections off windows for the real thing, but it hardly makes sense here; not only do the birds have to fly between the posts and under the overhang, it’s not like we have a big picture window – the window section itself is comprised of four vertical panel windows.

    Yet somehow, this set of four windows is a bit of a bird magnet. When we hear that thunk, we know that some other poor bird has headed straight into them. They always seem to be these little brown birds, and a couple of them have actually died on impact.

    In any case, on this day, we went over to the window to look out, and there was the little bird, lying on its side, the wing under it looking as if it were not quite in the right place. At first, it almost seemed as if it might be dead, but it had its eyes open, and it was obviously still breathing.

    After a few minutes, the little bird got to its feet, and stood there another couple of minutes, like the bird in the picture here. It stood incredibly still, dazed from the hit, eyes not completely “with it” and beak partially open.

    I looked a little bit into what would need to be done if the bird needed more help, but it then hopped to a more hidden spot about a foot away, stayed there a couple additional minutes, then, I assume, flew off. Once the bird was standing, it didn’t look like anything was wrong with its wing, but I’m sure the bird was very sore for a couple of days after this.

    It is amazing to me that these little creatures that can fly on the wind with ease, can travel hundreds of miles in groups, and are pretty adept at avoiding predators can be fooled by a set of windows that are obviously not the sky.

    At the same time, at the moment I feel like I am a lot like the little bird, having “hit a window”, and working on the part of getting back up and keeping going. It’s what they are programmed in their genetics to do. For us, it’s easy to talk about giving up when we do “hit the windows” (or a wall) but even if we do need a little bit of time to regroup, it’s important to get up and keep going as much as possible.

    Yesterday, I was sitting in the living room again, and once again, I heard the familiar “thunk”. Lord have mercy. Luckily, the bird did not hit with as much force, and it didn’t even look like the bird went through the stage of laying on its side, so I felt like I could go outside and get a couple of pictures without disturbing it too badly. (Thank goodness for a decent zoom!) In the picture above, the bird’s eyes aren’t open completely, but its beak is kind of open… Still stunned, but recovering. Just a couple of minutes later, the bird was gone, because that’s what these little birds know to do.

    I could add in Nelly Furtado’s “I’m Like A Bird” here, which is kind of the easy thing, but instead, I’ll share Jim Croce’s “The Hard Way Every Time”.