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  • Sunday Gratitude – 18.X.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 18.X.2026

    Hi everyone! Glad to be back here. I’m still struggling with a lot, and there’s a lot that’s really overwhelming. However, I’m going to give it a shot as far as gratitude here.

    Most importantly, probably, is that my son had a surgery on his ear a couple of weeks back, and everything went really, really well. Yes, he had the same surgery back in February on the other ear, and it went really well, but there’s still a good bit of nervousness attached to all these things.

    St Louis arch and church

    Secondly, I recently took part in the Serbian Orthodox Choral Association’s annual choir festival. Because it was only a week after the surgery, I wasn’t going to go, but then there were people who had signed up who either couldn’t go or couldn’t sing, and I was asked if there might be some way that I could go. I managed to get things arranged, and I went. It was an amazing trip, and I hope to write about it separately. Most of us who went ended up driving, including the people I rode with, but everything went off without a hitch, there were no accidents or incidents with the driving, and the event was a lot of fun. I am very grateful for that, and for getting to see the city and experience the city a little.

    If any of you are interested, our choir’s performance can be found here (our group starts at 45:15):

    The weather has gotten cooler, and I’m grateful for that (St. Louis at over 90F was quite a shock to the system). This just seems to be one of those patches that is especially rough, so I’d appreciate your prayers for me and my kids.

    Orthodox Church St Louis

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  • Songs of the Season 2023 – I Heard the Bells – Cloverton

    Songs of the Season 2023 – I Heard the Bells – Cloverton

    “I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day” isn’t a Christmas song that I particularly liked as a kid, but, hearing it now, I think it takes being an adult to appreciate it. 


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  • Wordless Wednesday #52 – Random Christmas Cheer

    Wordless Wednesday #52 – Random Christmas Cheer

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  • Songs of the Season 2023 – Let All Mortal Flesh Keep Silence – Stone’s Throw Band

    Songs of the Season 2023 – Let All Mortal Flesh Keep Silence – Stone’s Throw Band


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  • Songs of the Season 2023 – I Wonder as I Wander – Lindsey Stirling

    Songs of the Season 2023 – I Wonder as I Wander – Lindsey Stirling

    Maybe it’s just me, but it seems like in the 1980s, “I Wander as I Wander” was a song a lot of people performed, but nobody ever made really popular, and in the ensuing years, it’s fallen out of favor. It’s a strange song, and it’s one that’s really easy to make sound terrible. As I was poking around to find out more about the song, I learned that the composer, John Jacob Niles, was a hammered dulcimer player. Hearing the tune being played on the hammered dulcimer explains some of the strangeness of the chords, but it’s still strange, there’s no chorus, and it’s almost more of a Good Friday song than Christmas song. 

    I always remember this song being featured in the Newbery Award-winning book “Jacob Have I Loved” by Katherine Paterson; considering what I mentioned about the 1980s, I looked back to see when the book came out and it turns out it won the Newbery Medal in 1980. 

    In any case, Lindsey Stirling’s version, which I like more with every listen. She’s modernized it, but at the same time really captures some of the strangeness of the piece, both in the instrumental and vocal sides. 

    A couple more traditional renditions – first off, a vocal version by Jennifer Skaw

    and a hammered dulcimer/guitar duo (Steve & Ruth Smith):


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  • Songs of the Season 2023- Once in Royal David’s City – Sufjan Stevens

    Songs of the Season 2023- Once in Royal David’s City – Sufjan Stevens


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  • Sunday Gratitude – 17.XII.2023

    Sunday Gratitude – 17.XII.2023

    (Forgive me for being late on this – I got frustrated with finding images and decided to leave it for a bit rather than let the frustration get too out of hand. 

    I missed the Feast Day of Santa Lucia (St. Lucy). It’s a big deal in Sweden, especially, but Lucia is strongly associated with the light, and in the knowledge and hope that the light is coming. And… Even though I missed commemorating the day, I’m grateful that as much as so much has been incredibly difficult, this may be the turning point to head into the light. 

    (My Swedish grandmother had this thing that looked suspiciously like a St. Lucia crown, though it probably was too heavy. My sister and I would sneak it out of the side table and play with it by putting it on our heads. It wasn’t going to break, but we weren’t supposed to be playing with it. I still kind of wonder if it weren’t an antique St. Lucia crown.) 

    I’m grateful that people are praying for me and the kids.

    I’m grateful that as dreary as the weather has been, there hasn’t been a lot of snow, and the temperatures haven’t been terribly cold.

    I’m grateful that, God willing, there are friends whom we haven’t seen in months coming to visit. 

    I’m grateful for friends, and friendships old and new.

    I’m grateful for the patience so many people have had with me.

    I’m grateful for church and the people and the priests. 

    As always, I am thankful for you.


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  • Songs of the Season 2023 – Varpunen jouluaamuna – Jarkko Ahola

    Songs of the Season 2023 – Varpunen jouluaamuna – Jarkko Ahola

    I saw some people joking about how dark Finnish Christmas songs tend to be. I can’t actually speak to that, but this is definitely one of Finland’s favorite Christmas songs. It’s called “Varpunen jouluaamuna” which translates to “The Sparrow on Christmas Morning” and originally dates back to 1859. 


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  • Saturday on Substack – 16.XII.2023

    Saturday on Substack – 16.XII.2023

    I don’t have a lot to say other than if you’d like to see this week’s odds and ends, check out the post here: https://open.substack.com/pub/breathofhallelujah/p/saturday-on-substack-16xii2023


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  • Songs of the Season – O Holy Night – The Barra-MacNeils

    Songs of the Season – O Holy Night – The Barra-MacNeils

    “O Holy Night” is one of my favorite Christmas songs. It’s challenging to sing because of the range, and because there are so many notes that are just held, there’s a huge temptation to make the song very dramatic with those notes. 

    This is a version that’s very simple, but keeps a certain simplicity to it, which I like.


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  • “A Hidden Life” movie impressions

    “A Hidden Life” movie impressions

    Maybe it was the stories of Daniel in the lion’s den, or the stories of Christians holding on to their faith under the yoke of Communism that I kept hearing in school in the 1980s, but for the majority of my life now, I’ve been intrigued about why people resist tyranny. Obviously, it would be much easier for them to keep their heads down and not attract undue attention and do their best to get through it. 

    Hidden Life title
    Title photo

    The tyranny of Adolf Hitler and the Nazis is one that is easily misunderstood. We can comfortably look back and say, “Well, of course he was a monster,” but it wasn’t necessarily so easy coming into it. Besides the legal pressure to conform, the societal pressure was incredible as well, after all, if someone didn’t want Germany to succeed, they must certainly want his friends and neighbors to end up as slaves to another power. Blood traitors and all that.

    Yet there were those few who risked everything to stand up. I’ve gone deeply into the history of the White Rose. Franz Jägerstätter was also one of these, though he did not attempt to encourage any widespread resistance to the Nazi regime, through his faith, he got to a point where he felt like swearing allegiance to Hitler was a sin, and he simply would not do it, come what may. 

    This movie, which came out in 2019, is very atmospheric. The majority is set in the mountain village in Austria where Franz Jägerstätter, his wife, and three little daughters lived. When his friends and neighbors find out that Franz refuses to “help the cause”, they put enormous pressure on the whole family to change their ways. After all, if their husbands, sons, and brothers are fighting for Germany, why should this man refuse? Yet the Jägerstätters continue on, bearing it all to the best of their ability. 

    Movie still

    What was somewhat surprising was seeing how, even in the 1940s, in this remote place, how much of the farmwork was done by hand. It seems like due to the location in the mountains, there wasn’t even a lot of farm work done with animals, that everything happened – the planting, the sowing, the reaping – through backbreaking labor, and that when Franz is away, his wife Fani has to take that up. But what other choice does she have? The men are away and if these things don’t get done, they starve. 

    Even so, Fani Jägerstätter supports her husband until the end. In fact, some of the people felt like Franz became more religious because of her, and to a large degree, it was her fault that he did this. It seems like it is only when Franz is in prison, awaiting execution for his “treasonous” activities, that there starts to grow a begrudging respect for the Jägerstätters, because by the summer of 1943, there were actually plenty of people who knew Germany couldn’t win this war, and they knew their men were being sacrificed in the name of an evil tyrant. 

    Movie still

    I liked the movie quite a bit; apart from the heavy subject matter, there’s nothing objectionable – no swearing, no sex, etc. My 7-year-old caught me watching and watched with me for at least a half an hour near the end. I stopped watching before the execution because I wasn’t sure how they would handle that, and I didn’t want a traumatized child on my hands, but when I watched the last five minutes by myself, there was nothing there that would have been terrible for her to see. 

    It’s interesting, too, how they handled the language. The entire cast is German-speaking, but they speak English for the film. There’s a fair amount of “atmospheric” chatter that happens in German – even some that does sound somewhat more in dialect than standard German, and for the most part, I think that worked. 

    I feel like I do want to watch this movie again. Despite what happens, the location and cinematography are breathtaking, but at the same time, the director did a good job of demonstrating that the life up there wasn’t an easy one. Franz Jägerstätter stood up against the powers that be for the sake of his home there, the irony, of course, being that because he resisted, he was taken from that home and thrown into a prison under terrible circumstances, never to come out again alive. Here is where the common thread with a large number of those who stood up against tyranny can be found; as much as he loved his life, he loved God more, and walked in the certainty that there are worse fates that can befall a person than physical death. Franz Jägerstätter’s life bears witness to that, and to God’s truth, which he stood for. The Catholic Church beatified Jägerstätter as a martyr in 2007, and his feast day is May 21, on the anniversary of Jägerstätter’s baptism. 


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