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  • Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    To those celebrating today – Christ is Risen! – Happy Easter!

    And then there are the “weird” ones here who are still waiting another week, among which I count myself. There have been a lot of services already – yesterday, I think I was in church for nearly four hours. I’ve really struggled this Lent; from the beginning, I felt less ready for it than most years and this year… wow. For the greater part of Lent, I believed that the Orthodox were also going to be celebrating Pascha today, and it was only looking at the calendar more carefully a couple of weeks ago when I realized that no, there’s a one-week difference. I don’t know. I wasn’t expecting to spend so much time in church this weekend, but I was at vigil last night, and I certainly had the feeling of moving from the darkness into the light, and by the time the service was over, there was an air of hopefulness and joy there. For that I am grateful. (My brain did fight against this on the way home, though. *sigh*)

    I am grateful for the more spring-like weather, and the opportunity to be outside. I’m also grateful for my neighbor who invites me to come walking with her.

    I am grateful for friends who take the time to talk even in the rain.

    I am grateful for making it home in a storm the other day; I wasn’t expecting it, then all of a sudden, I was driving down this country highway with lightning flashes all around. I don’t think that they were very close, as there was only a tiny bit of thunder, but what a show! The next day, driving down those same roads, I could actually see how high the water is, and I’m grateful that there were no issues with low-lying stretches of road or the bridges.

    Mourning dove in wreath
    Time to take the Christmas wreath down!

    I am thankful to have had a little bit of time to be outside with my kids, and I’m thankful that they have places around that they can enjoy riding their bikes through, and that they’ve been fine with this “exploring”.

    I am thankful for the joy of singing.

    I am thankful for the things that are showing signs of life (and even blooming) even after a very cold winter and long periods of neglect.

    I am grateful for the opportunity to have been in contact with a number of people on this day, in the joy of Easter.

    I am grateful for yet another sign that I’m not alone through the hard stuff.

    Thank you so much for being here! Christ is Risen!

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    I really hate it when it seems like I blink and yet another week has passed. Somehow so much of this time ends up feeling like a blur, and it seems like all that is left is a growing list of things that should have been done long ago, but haven’t been done yet.

    In the meantime, though, I’ve been trying not to lose a sense of gratitude, and to also try to make the most of the days at hand. We’ve had a couple of days that have hit 70F, which has been amazing, and especially as the days are getting longer, it would be terrible if we didn’t do something to take advantage of the warmer weather. My younger son had a day off of school a couple of weeks back, and the two of us went out on our bikes and rode ten miles together, and it was amazing. He also started taking pictures with my camera that afternoon, so I’ll be sharing a few of those in this post.

    Broken pier Wind Point Lake Michigan

    A couple of weeks after the real birthday, my youngest, in kindergarten, had her first real birthday party. It was a bowling alley affair, and, per the terms of the contract, was less than two hours long, but for a group of 5 and 6 year olds, it was fine. I was completely stressed out over this for at least a week for a number of reasons, but it turned out really, really good. Even the weather held out, kind of… It started raining about the time that the party started, and it was still raining as people left. Had we started a couple of hours later, everybody would have been going home in sleet, because we had a blizzard come through the next day. The kids were thrilled to get the day off of school, and despite the crazy wind, we never lost power. The next day, our dear neighbor made a path for our car using a snowblower.

    I’m grateful that even though I managed to break a spoke on the one bike (a different one than before), this happened in a place where I could ride to a place where I could leave the bike for a couple of days, and which was very close to the bike shop. On the night that this happened, I was also able to get a ride back home with one of the ladies from church. I’d never talked to her before, and she’s incredibly sweet, and lives just a couple of streets over from where I live.

    I’m grateful for the amazing time I had at St. Haralambos in Niles a couple of weeks back. Not only were some very dear “real life” friends there, I finally got to meet Fr. Andrew Damick in person. We have been online acquaintances (friends) for over 20 years, and it seemed like high time to meet him in person. He actually recognized me by sight as well, which is crazy because it’s been a looong time since I posted any photos of myself that he might come across. 🙂 That was a lot of fun, though.

    Breezy days and kites!

    I am grateful, as well, for the opportunity to visit an old friend and just enjoy sitting on the front step, having a conversation in the sunshine.

    In many ways, I feel pulled very, very, very thin. There have been a lot of good things, to be sure, but there have been a number of very, very frustrating things as well. I don’t know; at this point, I’m not sure that I’ll ever have things “figured out”, but there’s a path to go forward on, and that’s the way through this all. Forgive me again for the blog silence – I truly am grateful for you.


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  • Songs of the Season – Christmas Lullaby – Arvo Pärt

    Songs of the Season – Christmas Lullaby – Arvo Pärt

    I first became acquainted with Pärt because when I first became Orthodox, his Kanon Pokajanen was still pretty new and it definitely was a topic amongst the online Orthodox five years later. I think the composition was the first Orthodox music recording I ever purchased; it took me much longer to understand some of what is being sung and that it’s actually a setting for a church service! (I know, sometimes I’m slow!) 

    At the same time, I feel like I miss at least half of what Pärt is trying to convey in his music because it tends to be ethereal, and the silence is just as important as the sound; a lot of it reminds me of the sensation of hearing old choral music in huge, old churches. Life is just too hectic now to have that attention and that headspace. 

    In any case – “Christmas Lullaby”


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  • Songs of the Season 2023 – At Last, I’m Ready for Christmas – Stan Rogers

    Songs of the Season 2023 – At Last, I’m Ready for Christmas – Stan Rogers

    Stan Rogers is probably not a name that is instantly recognizable in the US; his greatest fame was in Canada, where he’s considered to be one of the greats of Canadian folk. Unfortunately, at age 33, he was one of the fatalities of the 1984 Air Canada flight 797 airplane fire.

    And a really good cover which makes the words a bit more intelligible.


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  • Sunday Gratitude – 10.XII.2023

    Sunday Gratitude – 10.XII.2023

    I’m not going to lie; this has been an incredibly hard week in a season of very hard weeks. I can’t even describe to you how soul-crushing it’s all been. And yet, there are still things to be grateful for, even when I don’t necessarily want to be grateful for anything.

    I’m grateful that people are praying for me and the kids.

    I’m grateful we got to do a fun activity this weekend.

    I’m grateful I made it to all the various appointments and such. There’s stuff this week; we’ll see how all that goes.

    I’m glad the plantar fasciitis has retreated a good bit.

    I’m grateful to see the wonder in the face of my 3-year-old every time she looks at the Christmas tree. And that means a lot .

    As always, I am thankful for you.


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  • Saturday on Substack – 9.XII.2023

    Saturday on Substack – 9.XII.2023

    December is here! https://open.substack.com/pub/breathofhallelujah/p/saturday-on-substack-9xii2023


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  • Songs of the Season 2023 – Gabriel’s Message – Sting

    Songs of the Season 2023 – Gabriel’s Message – Sting

    I heard this in a store on Monday, and I had to “catch” what it was. (That’s what Soundhound – also available for iPhone – is for!)

    I was kind of surprised it was Sting. I’m not a big ’80s music person, and I think a lot of Sting is stuff that I feel I can take or leave, but Rick Beato has actually pointed out that a lot of Sting’s music is much more complex than almost anything else in pop music.


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  • Songs of the Season 2023 – I Saw Three Ships – Sarah & Michael Bowman

    Songs of the Season 2023 – I Saw Three Ships – Sarah & Michael Bowman

    Fabulous!

    (Forgive me; I meant to post this yesterday, but I forgot!)


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  • Songs of the Season 2023 – Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree – Brenda Lee

    Songs of the Season 2023 – Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree – Brenda Lee

    Brenda Lee was 13 years old when she recorded “Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree” in 1958; from what I’ve heard and read (including Wikipedia), it didn’t do much that year, and only got to #14 in 1960, after she had more chart successes.

    Christmas songs do weird things on the charts to begin with, but these days, with streaming and downloads and such, the December Billboard charts see quite a resurgence of old songs coming back. For each of the last four years, this song has hit #2 on the Billboard Hot 100 in December; this year, it finally hit #1, breaking all sorts of records, including longest amount of time from release to #1 (65 years), longest time between #1 hits for an artist (63 years), and making Brenda Lee the oldest artist ever to hit #1. It’s amazing that she lived to see this happen!

    If you check out some of these scenes, it’s stunning how small Brenda Lee is; apparently, she only ever was 4’9″ tall, and now, she’s probably somewhat under that.


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  • Bizcocho de tres leches (Three Milk Cake)

    Bizcocho de tres leches (Three Milk Cake)

    Many, many moons ago, working at a US military commissary in Germany, a coworker brought in a three milk cake. It was heavenly! Her recipe was a little bit of a secret, but I managed to eventually get her to give it to me, though I wasn’t the first who had broken her down on this.

    I haven’t had too many chances to make it, but I found it interesting that my Cook’s Country cookbook has a version as well. One of my kids got assigned to bringing a “bizcocho de tres leches” to school for Spanish class, so I did a bit to meld the two recipes into something very, very good.

    There are three parts to the cake – the milk mixture, the cake itself, and the frosting.

    Milk mixture:

    1 (14oz) can sweetened condensed milk
    1 (12oz) can evaporated milk
    1 can cream of coconut (NOT coconut milk)
    1/2 cup heavy cream
    1 teaspoon vanilla extract
    1/8 tsp ground cloves

    Cake:

    2 c all-purpose flour
    2 tsp baking powder
    1 tsp salt
    1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
    1 c whole milk
    8 tbsp (1 stick) butter, cut in chunks and softened
    2 tsp vanilla extract
    4 large eggs, room temperature
    2 c sugar

    Frosting:

    1 c heavy cream
    2 tbsp corn syrup
    1 tsp vanilla extract
    Toppings of one's choosing (chocolate chips, dried cherries, nuts, cinnamon - your choice)
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    In my original recipe, the ingredients of the milk mixture are just mixed together; the Cook's Country instructions want to heat the condensed milk long enough in the microwave to get the "dulce de leche" effect, I suppose it's a matter of taste. It also makes me wonder, then, if canned dulce de leche could be swapped out for the condensed milk. In any case, the ingredients of the milk mix should be mixed together and should stand at room temperature.

    Preheat oven to 325F. Cook's Country uses a 13x9in baking pan, but have one that is slightly bigger (14x10in or so), which I prefer. Whisk together the flour, baking powder, salt, and cinnamon together. Heat the milk, butter, and vanilla together in a small saucepan over low heat until the butter is melted.

    In a large bowl, whip the eggs with an electric mixer, gradually adding the sugar and continuing to whip the mixture until it is very thick & voluminous. This is important to get the cake to rise properly. Reduce mixer speed, add the butter mixture, and then add the flour mixture in slowly.

    Scrape the batter into the prepared pan, trying to make sure that the batter is even. Bake the cake until a toothpick inserted in the center comes out with a few crumbs attached, 30 to 35 minutes (mine took at least 10 minutes longer), rotating the pan halfway through baking.

    Cook's Country has one leaving the cake in the pan; my friend's instructions were as follows: As soon as possible, loosen the cake from the pan and flip it onto the surface from which it will be served, preferably onto parchment paper. I have a cake transporter box, and this is what I used. The cake may break into a couple of pieces here, do your best to put them back together. Poke at least 50 holes into the cake, and while the cake is still hot, pour the milk mixture evenly over the hot cake. At the point where the cake is saturated (and the milk mixture will start pooling out the edges), stop. At this point, I tucked the corners of the parchment paper under the carrier, and refrigerated the cake overnight.

    In the morning, I whipped together the heavy cream, the corn syrup, and vanilla to make the frosting. I brought the cake out of the refrigerator, tore off the extra edges of parchment paper with the extra milk mixture, and frosted the cake. After that had been done, I sprinkled the cake with some chocolate chips, though you can use all sorts of different toppings (or none at all).

    My friend's recipe for the cake included using a boxed mix and instant vanilla pudding - it was very good, but the cake puffed up a lot and then kind of deflates a bit. Furthermore, not everyone likes using the cake mixes, so I give the alternate way here. In any case, the baking was a success, and the kids really liked it.

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  • Songs of the Season – Light One Candle – Gathering Time

    Songs of the Season – Light One Candle – Gathering Time

    Last year, I posted the Peter, Paul, and Mary version of this song; this year I post a really good cover of it.

    Happy Hanukkah!

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    Icon of the “Maccabee Children” with their mother and the priest Eleazar

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  • Songs of the Season 2023 – St. Niklaus war ein Seeman – Freddy Quinn

    Songs of the Season 2023 – St. Niklaus war ein Seeman – Freddy Quinn

    A blessed feast of St. Nicholas, one and all! I don’t know; maybe it’s being in Wisconsin, but it’s only been in the last couple of years that I’ve heard anybody celebrating St. Nicholas Day in the US as a cultural custom rather than only a religious one. St. Nicholas Day is definitely celebrated in Bavaria, and this is an interesting song for the feast, thanks to the people at the excellent St. Nicholas Center:

    Additionally, their page for this song can be found here: https://www.stnicholascenter.org/how-to-celebrate/resources/music/songs/german/st-niklas-war-ein-seemann


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