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  • Sunday Gratitude – 18.X.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 18.X.2026

    Hi everyone! Glad to be back here. I’m still struggling with a lot, and there’s a lot that’s really overwhelming. However, I’m going to give it a shot as far as gratitude here.

    Most importantly, probably, is that my son had a surgery on his ear a couple of weeks back, and everything went really, really well. Yes, he had the same surgery back in February on the other ear, and it went really well, but there’s still a good bit of nervousness attached to all these things.

    St Louis arch and church

    Secondly, I recently took part in the Serbian Orthodox Choral Association’s annual choir festival. Because it was only a week after the surgery, I wasn’t going to go, but then there were people who had signed up who either couldn’t go or couldn’t sing, and I was asked if there might be some way that I could go. I managed to get things arranged, and I went. It was an amazing trip, and I hope to write about it separately. Most of us who went ended up driving, including the people I rode with, but everything went off without a hitch, there were no accidents or incidents with the driving, and the event was a lot of fun. I am very grateful for that, and for getting to see the city and experience the city a little.

    If any of you are interested, our choir’s performance can be found here (our group starts at 45:15):

    The weather has gotten cooler, and I’m grateful for that (St. Louis at over 90F was quite a shock to the system). This just seems to be one of those patches that is especially rough, so I’d appreciate your prayers for me and my kids.

    Orthodox Church St Louis

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  • Wordle #416

    Wordle #416
    Wordle #416 game board

    Wordle explanations are posted a day late to ensure that no one accidentally sees the solution before playing.

    Line 1: One of my typical start words. “A” and “T” are in the word, but in the wrong places. Not much to go on.

    Line 2: “A” and “T” are now in the right places, but none of the other letters are correct. There are really a ton of words that this could be.

    Line 3: No progress here except for eliminating more letters. Very frustrating.

    Line 4: And again. I’m clueless and worried that I’m not going to get this one. I consider playing a word that would simply use up more of the unused letters, rather than keep playing the “A” and “T”.

    Line 5: I decided against just playing words for letters & go with “patty” because at this point, I can’t think of much more that it could be. Luckily, it’s the word! Phew!

    Did you get this Wordle? Tell me about it in the comments!

    Happy Gaming!

  • Reading Laura as an Adult

    Reading Laura as an Adult

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    Little House on the Prairie was a television phenomenon that was ongoing at the time I was born. Of course, it *could* be complete coincidence, but during my first year in college, there were three Lauras on my floor alone. This isn’t to say that the book series wasn’t already well-known – pretty much from the time that they were published, the “Little House” books were incredibly popular. However, the television series probably did the most to enshrine Laura Ingalls Wilder’s stories from mere books to legend.

    As a kid, I read a number of the “Little House” books. If I remember correctly, I read Little House in the Big Woods, Little House on the Prairie, Little Town on the Prairie, and (though technically not part of the series), West from Home. I liked them well enough, though I also remember starting By the Shores of Silver Lake and These Happy Golden Years because I never really “got into” them. Laura has a very matter-of-fact way of recounting the stories of her life, and as a kid, it hardly seemed strange that her family would be travelling around the US, settling here and there. As young as the narrator is at the beginning of the series, not only is there no self-pity, there’s almost the attitude, even in the earliest stories, that of course life was difficult, but that it was a given that family pulled together to get through it all.

    Everyday life in Laura’s time

    As a homeschooling mom, I wanted my kids to have some familiarity with the Little House books as a matter of course, to understand a little bit about living in (American) history, and to get a glimpse of life as it was not all that long ago. Especially now with the advent of the internet (and gaming systems), I think it’s especially hard for kids to even imagine what life was like without these or have any perspective of when or how these changes happened. (Once, when the power went out due to a storm a few years ago, one of my children – then around 8 – asked me if the lack of electricity reminded me of growing up in the 1980s!)

    Laura Ingalls was born in 1867, near Pepin, Wisconsin, in a pre-industrial age. By the time she died in 1957, at age 90, industrialization had radically changed the way most people in the United States lived. Even in the 1930s, when the books began to be published, many of the things and processes that she describes had long since disappeared. For example, her family travelled thousands of miles in a covered wagon, but the advent of the railroads made the covered wagon obsolete. Even in my lifetime, my dad usually referred to the refrigerator as the “icebox”, but the Ingalls didn’t even have that; food was smoked and canned or otherwise preserved in season to allow the family to eat year-round, but already in the 1920s, electric refrigerators were common in US households. Wilder herself acknowledged the huge change in the way of life at the beginning of the series, mentioning how a lot of what she was writing about was how “grandma did things”.

    As an adult, with a perspective of decades now, it’s insane to imagine that much change in such a short amount of time. Yes, I still remember a time before the internet was a thing, when people called each other on phones without caller-ID that were plugged into the phone jacks in the wall, when using checks (especially in small towns) was at least as common as credit cards, etc. However, as I read somewhere awhile back – if someone from 1950 visited a home in 2020, things would look a lot different, but even so, a large percentage of them would look familiar. If someone from 1880 visited a home in 1950, imagine the shock at the difference, say, at how a kitchen was set up. Or think of it this way – in 1880, the Amish may have seemed a little “old fashioned”, but in 2020 they seem like they belong to a different time completely!

    The amount of the frontier the Ingalls saw and experienced

    Also, as an adult, it seems almost crazy in the amount of moving the Ingalls did, considering how difficult moving was. Both of Laura’s parents came from families (the Ingalls and the Quiners) that seemed determined to keep moving with the edge of civilization. In Wisconsin, there was family nearby, but then Laura’s family moved to Kansas, back to Wisconsin, Minnesota, Iowa, back to Minnesota, and then to South Dakota. With the exception of the move to South Dakota, these moves were made in a covered wagon at a rate of 20-30 miles a day, with all one’s possessions in a wagon. The animals pulling the wagon needed to be fed and tended to, and there was constant risk of wild animals and bandits. Interestingly, Laura spends a lot of time and goes into great detail talking about her father’s gun and the care he took to keep it in good condition. The longest discussion of this happens in Little House in the Big Woods, which, in the book account, begins when Laura is four, because even then she understood how the gun was so incredibly important not just for hunting, but for protection from a number of possible scenarios.

    The Ingalls family – minimalism and “tiny house” pioneers

    It’s also startling to understand how few possessions the Ingalls owned. When Laura talks about packing up the house in a morning to move at the beginning of Little House on the Prairie, it seems almost an impossible feat. However, after visiting one of Laura’s homes in South Dakota, then it made a lot more sense. When she talks about a “little house”, she’s not kidding. In the book “By the Shores of Silver Lake“, Laura talks about being able to move into the Surveyors’ House, and from the way she describes it, it sounds like a mansion. When visiting De Smet, South Dakota, I was absolutely shocked to see the Surveyors’ House. It has been moved from its original location, but it still stands in De Smet. It is tiny. It’s smaller than most of the small houses in town. My grandmother lived in a house in the country whose original section was built by her grandparents in the 1890s. It certainly wasn’t big (which led to it being expanded by quite a bit later) but it was probably at least twice as big as the Surveyors’ House.

    Ever wonder how Pa could build a house by himself in a matter of days? With a house this small, it’s actually possible!
    The interior of one of the South Dakota “Little Houses”. There is a loft not pictured here, which looks a lot like a sleeping loft in a modern tiny house, but the loft gives it a lot more space than their sod house, for example.
    The Surveyors’ House

    A hard life

    It seems that one of the things that really sticks out to people reading the Little House books as adults today is the amount that the Ingalls had very few comforts – life was hard and it was a lot of work. There was no delusion that if one worked hard one would become rich or famous. Part of the fabric of life was that there was work to be done, and it was each person’s responsibility to do what they had to do. If one was able to make it a little out of poverty, that was admirable, but it wasn’t guaranteed. The criticism comes especially to Laura’s father, whose wanderlust, in their eyes, seemed to contribute to their poverty. It is a stark contrast to today, where even a lot of poor people in the United States live relatively comfortable lives. Many seem to think that this way of life – “deprivation” in their eyes – is tantamount to child abuse.

    A corncob doll, made much in the way that Laura’s doll Susan was made.

    Through it all, there is a strong sense that character and honor are more important than whether one is rich or poor.

    Understanding one’s parents

    Related to this, Laura always writes positively about her parents, even when the situations were extraordinarily difficult. Part of this, I believe, comes from the way she was raised; she had the understanding of the duties and responsibilities her parents had. I have no doubt that her parents were amazing people, but I also wonder that since she was writing this at a point where her own independent & headstrong daughter was grown up that she may have been more gentle towards them in the retelling. I’m sure it does help that Laura seems to have had a good bit of wanderlust herself, and ended up moving again a number of times as an adult. Furthermore, even as a young bride, she and her husband experienced a lot of hardship and tragedy, including the death of a baby , illness, and a house burning to the ground.

    Learning to be eyes for the blind (including the reader)

    Another thing that strikes me in the writing of these books is how descriptive she is of the scenes. On one hand, people back then were much more cognizant of the signs of nature, and generally could name a lot more of the plants and animals around, but when her sister Mary lost her sight, Laura’s father told her that she needed to be Mary’s eyes. I have to think that the practice of describing things in fine detail to her sister helped her not only notice more around her, but also put those descriptions into cognizant thoughts and words, which would later assist her when writing the Little House books.

    One of Mary Ingalls’ books in Braille

    In the 1940s, Garth Williams was tasked with illustrating the entire Little House series. He did an incredible amount of research, meeting and speaking with Laura, using the books as source material for his illustrations, and travelling to many of the locales mentioned in the books. In 1953, he had this to say about finding the location of Laura’s family’s house along Plum Creek:

    I did not expect to find the house, but I felt certain that it would have left an indentation in the bank. A light rain did not help my search, and I was about to give up when ahead of me I saw exactly what I was looking for, a hollow in the east bank of Plum Creek. I felt very well rewarded, for the scene fitted Mrs Wilder’s description perfectly. I took my pictures, and returned to Walnut Grove..”

    (via werewolf.co.nz)

    The combination of her descriptions and his illustrations make the stories come to life for young and old alike. I’m not usually one who pays much attention to illustrations, but the Williams’ illustrations help make clear things that Laura spends time describing, such as the smoker that was built in “Little House in the Big Woods”. Having no experience myself with building such a contraption, although her description is correct, it’s with the illustration that it really makes sense. Without her description, though, the illustration probably would not have had nearly the amount of authenticity.

    These Happy Golden Years/The First Four Years

    One of the reasons I didn’t read These Happy Golden Years as a kid was because of the cover of the book, where Laura is standing with Almanzo, in a pose that is obviously of the two of them courting. As a kid, reading about the “grown up” Laura wasn’t necessarily interesting. As an adult, I picked up the book and was shocked that when she talked about “these happy golden years” she was talking about being between 16 and 18 years old! I was not mistaken that the book talks about her courtship with Almanzo, but this happened much earlier than I ever really considered. The “Golden Years” refer to a period of time in her life when her family was settled in one place, she had a good deal of independence, she had her own social circle, and she was not yet burdened by the crushing responsibility of being in charge of a homestead and a family.

    The First Four Years is a little different, as it wasn’t a finished manuscript when it was found after Laura’s death. It’s a basic account of the first four years of her marriage, and probably the start to a more fleshed-out book. In any case, whereas the rest of the series is pretty upbeat – even with The Long Winter, which really flirts with the ideas of depression, resignation, and even giving up – in general, they still have a streak of determination and hope that runs through. Had this book been finished, it very well could have been framed in the same manner, but as it stands, it begins with Laura and Almanzo’s wedding, and recounts the hardship, disaster, and catastrophe that followed them those first four years. It does serve as a kind of bookend to the beginning of the series; as a kid, Laura sees a lot of their life as an adventure, as an adult, here’s the realization that keeping going is a lot harder than it looks.

    The nine books of the Little House “canon”. These are full-color special editions, which I feel are well worth the price. The links to the individual books of this edition are linked throughout the post.

    I still believe that these books are fun and worthwhile for kids. The life of Laura Ingalls Wilder was unique in many ways, but the fact that she’s able to create familiarity with wide swaths of people in the way she writes is an amazing feat. Her writing also captures a very short, but very influential, period in American history. For those who haven’t read them, I would recommend picking them up, because they really aren’t just for kids. For those who have read them as children, there’s really a lot more to pick up on as an adult, whether you read them on your own or along with kids.

    Note on the pictures: Nearly all the pictures in this post were taken at the Ingalls Homestead outside of De Smet, South Dakota in 2020 and 2021. Whether one is a Laura Ingalls Wilder fanatic or just interested in this period of American history, it is well worth visiting.

    Amazon links to the books in the series (full color editions, unless otherwise noted):

  • Another quick update post

    Another quick update post

    My finger is doing a lot better; the swelling is down and it almost feels normal, though I have to take antibiotics for the next few days yet. I’m catching up with stuff with the blog and with things at home. I should have a “real” post up by this evening – I’m kind of excited, because my work on it now has stretched out more than a week (far, far to long, but such is life sometimes!).

    I’m also planning to back-fill Wordle solutions, if anyone is interested in that.

    Hopefully, things are well with all of you!

  • Those times real life takes over

    Those times real life takes over

    This week has been really busy. There have been a bunch of things that have needed to be attended to, and ridiculous things like losing my laptop for a day haven’t helped. Then there have been issues with the kids, and now my very swollen and sore finger (which I mentioned in the last Wordle post). It’s doing better – with antibiotics, the pain has lessened to a reasonable amount, but still with any bump or jarring harder than my finger pressing the keys, I get a nice shot of pain from the tip of my finger, through my wrist, and beyond.

    Your prayers are appreciated, as is your patience. 🙂 Thank you.

  • Wordle #411

    Wordle #411
    Wordle #411 board

    Wordle explanations are posted a day late to ensure that no one accidentally sees the solution before playing.

    Line 1: One of my typical start words. “E” is the only letter I’ve got here, but it is not in the right place.

    Line 2: Going for some new letters here. “H” and “E” are correct, but “R” is not.

    Line 3: This is tough. With the “H” in the second place, normally there would be an “A”, “T”, “S”, or “C” before it, but those letters are used. I can’t think of any “WH” or “GH” that would have a “U”, so is “RH” possible? At first all I can think of is “rhythm”, but that’s six letters… so… yes, “rhyme”!

    P.S. One of my fingers has a bacterial infection and is in severe pain, so longer posting is just not possible at the moment.

    Did you get this Wordle? Tell me about it in the comments!

    Happy Gaming!

  • Wordle #410

    Wordle #410
    Wordle #410 board

    Wordle explanations are posted a day late to ensure that no one accidentally sees the solution before playing.

    Line 1: One of my typical start words. “T” is in the word, but that letter is in a lot of words.No help here.

    Line 2: I probably should have chosen a word with a “T” in it, but “churn” served me well with a “U” in the correct place and an “H” in the incorrect place.

    Line 3: Being as there are “T” and “H” in the word, I decide to put them together. I also decide to see if this is an “OU” word, and I’m lucky on this. However, “mouth” is not the answer.

    Line 4: If it’s not “mouth” and it can’t be “couth”, it’s got to be “youth”, right?

    Did you get this Wordle? Tell me about it in the comments!

    Happy Gaming!

  • Lilla Rose update – August 2022

    Lilla Rose update – August 2022

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    Just a quick update as far as Lilla Rose stuff this August.

    The DIY (design it yourself) Flexis are dangle clips this month, so you get to choose clip style, center style, dangle style, size, and whether you want left-handed or right-handed clips.

    There is some new stuff and some stuff that has returned. I *believe* one of the returning items is the “Roman Cross” flexi – I gifted someone hairpins this past month, and even though it’s a design that isn’t officially a cross, it definitely has that vibe. I appreciate that Lilla Rose offers some items that are beautiful for those who want to show some symbol of Christian faith in what they wear.

    The promo this month is a free hair stick with a purchase of $40 or more. I’d never used hair sticks before this year, and I am amazed at how easy they are to use, and how well they work. I don’t think I’m ever going to go back to buns that are held up by elastics – for me, they don’t work nearly as well. I usually pair my hair sticks up, but it’s not even necessary.

    Braided bun held up by Lilla Rose hair sticks with charms
    Posting this photo again because the pictures I just took really aren’t any better. Have I mentioned how difficult it is to get backwards selfies to look halfway decent?
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  • Wordle #409

    Wordle #409
    Wordle #409 board

    Wordle explanations are posted a day late to ensure that no one accidentally sees the solution before playing.

    Line 1: One of my typical start words. No help here.

    Line 2: “Chump” is one of the alternative “base words”; even with the “C”, there’s not a lot to go on.

    Line 3: The alternative to “fling” – one of my “base words” here is “cling”. One more letter, the “L”, but in the wrong place. This is getting to be quite perplexing.

    Line 4: Obviously “crowd” can’t be the word because there’s no “L”, but I’m desperate to get some more letters in.

    Line 5: The writers of this game generally do not use simple plurals or adjective forms for Wordle. However, the only thing that I can think at this point is “coyly”. Would they do that? With few other options available, I try it and… it works!

    Did you get this Wordle? Tell me about it in the comments!

    Happy Gaming!

  • Music Memory – The Freshman – Verve Pipe

    Music Memory – The Freshman – Verve Pipe

    Life with five kids is always somewhat crazy; yesterday I did a post about Wordle and then actually forgot to do the puzzle. I once had a streak of 104, then I forgot a day, which set me back down to zero. I had gotten the streak back up to 37 or so, and now… I’m back at one. Oh well. So is life sometimes.

    I’m also working on a longer post and have been for the last 3 days or so. It didn’t help that I misplaced my laptop for a day or so. I can do gaming posts on my phone, but longer things just do not work well with that format. (And… this post itself has gotten much longer than first envisioned!)

    This morning, I heard the song “The Freshman” by the band the Verve Pipe on the radio. I was in college when it originally came out, and back then, I found it annoying to the point where I wanted to claw my ears out (or at least chuck the radio out the window) every. time. it. played. The even more maddening part is, it’s got a decent tune and some catchy lyrics, and so as much as I really disliked the song, I’d often find myself singing along.

    In short, the story of the song is as follows: A friend of the narrator of the song breaks up with his girlfriend, and she’s so broken up about it that she commits suicide. The narrator and his friend are so traumatized about what happened that, even years later, they’re finding it hard to come to terms with what happened.

    If this were all that was to the story, that would be fine. However, there are a couple of other points of the song that really make it terrible. First off, I always got the impression that there were a lot of drugs involved in the relationship with these three. Secondly, it seems like even though time has passed, the narrator refuses to put any decent perspective on the situation; there are plenty of times after someone commits suicide where the people who are left behind are left feeling terribly guilty, whether justified or not. In this song, though, it sounds like he’s blaming her – “she fell in love in the first place” – as though these relationships are completely one-way.

    Not only is the line “She was touching her face” completely stupid, but I think what bothered me the most about this song was still attitude, even years later, that “this wasn’t supposed to happen to us because we were young”. Apparently there are a lot of people who have or had this attitude, but it was the complete opposite of my experience, and adding the line “For the life of me/I could not believe we’d ever die for these sins/We were merely freshmen”. I understand that death often makes us think more about the “deeper issues”, but the line drips of pseudo-religion and complete ignorance of Christianity. It’s not so much that the line is a cheap shot, it’s more like the songwriter used the line as a way to hook the listener’s ear. It works in the context of ignorance (the narrator’s) but from a Christian context, “the wages of sin is death” – we all know we die because of sin, most definitely our own, but also because we live in a fallen world. Again, in the context of the song, it may be like a blind squirrel finding a nut; the reality is that none of us can help but perish because of the effects of sin, but it’s quite annoying to hear.

    The great irony of this song in my life was that not only was it popular during my freshman year of college, my freshman year was dominated by a very serious situation concerning one of my best friends. His family life was terrible, and he saw college as a new start, where he could put that all behind him. The reality was that he couldn’t, and he sunk into deep depression. Eventually, he told me he had reached the end, which was indescribably scary, especially for a 17-year-old who was also dealing with a ton of family issues. I had a lot of advice from well-meaning people who told me not to get too involved, trying to protect me from getting pulled along with him deeper into his emotional darkness.

    Even then, I appreciated their concern for me, but in my heart, I knew I couldn’t pull away from such a dear friend in such a dire hour of need. This was one of the first times I remember feeling as though I had specific directions from God; that my duty was to do the things I needed to do for my friend (calls, daily emails) to hold on to him and God, in turn, would be holding on to me. That is the faith that I tried to walk with during those terrible days. I understood keenly that my friend was going to make his own decisions, however, I didn’t feel like running away when he needed a friend the most was the right thing to do. Come what may, I wanted to be able to live with and have peace with my own decisions.

    Considering all this, hearing this song play constantly during this time drove me a little insane. It made me actively mad. It reminded me of the situation with my friend and it reminded me that I never thought of myself as invincible (quite the opposite, actually) and that I was aware that my decisions would have long-lasting repercussions.

    Life has been far from easy for me or my friend, but we’re both still here, and that certainly counts for something. I take kids in the car to their day camp and the song comes on the radio. I sing along a little; the abject hatred of this song has faded, but it still doesn’t fail to annoy me a bit. However, I can’t listen to this song without thinking of my friend, of remembering being so young and living constantly on that edge of such intense emotion. It is nostalgia twinged with melancholy. To think, we were merely freshmen.

  • Wordle #407

    Wordle #407
    Wordle #407 board

    Wordle explanations are posted a day late to ensure that no one accidentally sees the solution before playing.

    Line 1: One of my typical start words. “A” is the only letter I’ve got here, but it is also in the right place.

    Line 2: “Champ” is one of my “base words”; imagine my shock seeing 4 of the 5 letters in the correct place!

    Line 3: Here’s the quandary, though – do I keep playing words to get that one slot (clamp, cramp, etc.) or do I play something that might give me that letter faster (large, perhaps). As it seems that there are only two more words that would fit here, I opt for the former. Alas, it’s not “clamp”.

    Line 4: It is “cramp”!

    Did you get this Wordle? Tell me about it in the comments!

    Happy Gaming!