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  • Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 5.IV.2026

    To those celebrating today – Christ is Risen! – Happy Easter!

    And then there are the “weird” ones here who are still waiting another week, among which I count myself. There have been a lot of services already – yesterday, I think I was in church for nearly four hours. I’ve really struggled this Lent; from the beginning, I felt less ready for it than most years and this year… wow. For the greater part of Lent, I believed that the Orthodox were also going to be celebrating Pascha today, and it was only looking at the calendar more carefully a couple of weeks ago when I realized that no, there’s a one-week difference. I don’t know. I wasn’t expecting to spend so much time in church this weekend, but I was at vigil last night, and I certainly had the feeling of moving from the darkness into the light, and by the time the service was over, there was an air of hopefulness and joy there. For that I am grateful. (My brain did fight against this on the way home, though. *sigh*)

    I am grateful for the more spring-like weather, and the opportunity to be outside. I’m also grateful for my neighbor who invites me to come walking with her.

    I am grateful for friends who take the time to talk even in the rain.

    I am grateful for making it home in a storm the other day; I wasn’t expecting it, then all of a sudden, I was driving down this country highway with lightning flashes all around. I don’t think that they were very close, as there was only a tiny bit of thunder, but what a show! The next day, driving down those same roads, I could actually see how high the water is, and I’m grateful that there were no issues with low-lying stretches of road or the bridges.

    Mourning dove in wreath
    Time to take the Christmas wreath down!

    I am thankful to have had a little bit of time to be outside with my kids, and I’m thankful that they have places around that they can enjoy riding their bikes through, and that they’ve been fine with this “exploring”.

    I am thankful for the joy of singing.

    I am thankful for the things that are showing signs of life (and even blooming) even after a very cold winter and long periods of neglect.

    I am grateful for the opportunity to have been in contact with a number of people on this day, in the joy of Easter.

    I am grateful for yet another sign that I’m not alone through the hard stuff.

    Thank you so much for being here! Christ is Risen!

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  • Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    Sunday Gratitude – 29.III.2026

    I really hate it when it seems like I blink and yet another week has passed. Somehow so much of this time ends up feeling like a blur, and it seems like all that is left is a growing list of things that should have been done long ago, but haven’t been done yet.

    In the meantime, though, I’ve been trying not to lose a sense of gratitude, and to also try to make the most of the days at hand. We’ve had a couple of days that have hit 70F, which has been amazing, and especially as the days are getting longer, it would be terrible if we didn’t do something to take advantage of the warmer weather. My younger son had a day off of school a couple of weeks back, and the two of us went out on our bikes and rode ten miles together, and it was amazing. He also started taking pictures with my camera that afternoon, so I’ll be sharing a few of those in this post.

    Broken pier Wind Point Lake Michigan

    A couple of weeks after the real birthday, my youngest, in kindergarten, had her first real birthday party. It was a bowling alley affair, and, per the terms of the contract, was less than two hours long, but for a group of 5 and 6 year olds, it was fine. I was completely stressed out over this for at least a week for a number of reasons, but it turned out really, really good. Even the weather held out, kind of… It started raining about the time that the party started, and it was still raining as people left. Had we started a couple of hours later, everybody would have been going home in sleet, because we had a blizzard come through the next day. The kids were thrilled to get the day off of school, and despite the crazy wind, we never lost power. The next day, our dear neighbor made a path for our car using a snowblower.

    I’m grateful that even though I managed to break a spoke on the one bike (a different one than before), this happened in a place where I could ride to a place where I could leave the bike for a couple of days, and which was very close to the bike shop. On the night that this happened, I was also able to get a ride back home with one of the ladies from church. I’d never talked to her before, and she’s incredibly sweet, and lives just a couple of streets over from where I live.

    I’m grateful for the amazing time I had at St. Haralambos in Niles a couple of weeks back. Not only were some very dear “real life” friends there, I finally got to meet Fr. Andrew Damick in person. We have been online acquaintances (friends) for over 20 years, and it seemed like high time to meet him in person. He actually recognized me by sight as well, which is crazy because it’s been a looong time since I posted any photos of myself that he might come across. 🙂 That was a lot of fun, though.

    Breezy days and kites!

    I am grateful, as well, for the opportunity to visit an old friend and just enjoy sitting on the front step, having a conversation in the sunshine.

    In many ways, I feel pulled very, very, very thin. There have been a lot of good things, to be sure, but there have been a number of very, very frustrating things as well. I don’t know; at this point, I’m not sure that I’ll ever have things “figured out”, but there’s a path to go forward on, and that’s the way through this all. Forgive me again for the blog silence – I truly am grateful for you.


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  • Saturday on Substack

    Saturday on Substack

    I’ve started a Substack. Blame it on people over there who I want to read. However, since signing up for an account gives one access to a blog, I started one over there. I intend to keep this as my main blog, and primarily I’ve been using the blog there to repost what I write here, but maybe I’ll do Saturday recap/odds and ends posts over there.

    So… Saturday on Substack – today’s edition: https://breathofhallelujah.substack.com/p/saturday-on-substack-15iv2023

    To all of you celebrating Pascha this weekend – we’re almost there! Don’t lose heart!

    To everyone else – have a wonderful weekend!


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  • Wordless Wednesday #26 – Unexpectedly…

    Wordless Wednesday #26 – Unexpectedly…








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  • Sunday Gratitude (9.IV.2023)

    Sunday Gratitude (9.IV.2023)

    First of all, for all celebrating Easter today – Christ is Risen!

    Secondly, Scheels is an amazing sporting goods store, and I’m just sorry not to live anywhere near one right now. They are based in Fargo, North Dakota and currently have 31 stores in 14 states. This was their homepage this morning.

    I could never see a large-ish company based in New York City or California doing this. I feel like I owe Scheels a debt of gratitude – in 2020 and 2021, we managed to “hit” four or five Scheels along the way, and every single one of them was incredibly gracious and welcoming to us all, even the littlest. That can’t be said for every business, and to be so consistent was unbelievably meaningful to me, as a mom to five who were 10 and under in 2020.

    Kind of on the same note, John Kass’ (Western) Easter message: https://johnkassnews.com/never-close-the-churches-out-of-fear-again/

    Lord, have mercy, this was a crazy tough week. It’s been the kind of week where it would just be easy to throw up my hands and say, “I don’t feel like being grateful for anything.” Yet that is willfulness, and it’s not how I’m going to get through this.

    I am grateful that this Lent is nearly over – it’s been spiritually and mentally brutal.

    I am grateful that the door to the van has been fixed, and it didn’t cost me anything.

    I’m grateful to the people at my kids’ school – that they approach things always keeping God in their hearts.

    I’m grateful for little kid hugs.

    I’m grateful that even with the issues with the house this week, they are being remedied quickly and I’m not having to stress about costs.

    I am grateful for the good weather, and being able to dry clothes outside.

    Although we’ll be celebrating Easter next week, it’s never a bad time to be grateful that God loves us and that Jesus died on the cross for us.

    I am grateful for those I am getting to know online, and those who give me something good to read and think about with their writing.

    As always, I am grateful for each one of you reading, and for your prayers.


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  • Life comes at us sometimes with lots of unexpected things

    Life comes at us sometimes with lots of unexpected things

    This week has been full of situations that have taken very large chunks of my time – kids, school, car, and yesterday evening, my kids went down in the basement, and ran back up, informing me that the basement was flooded.

    Lord, have mercy.

    The good news is that there’s a local place that can start working on it tomorrow; the bad news that it’s going to take a number of days to fix correctly, and so I’ll probably not be posting for the next few days.

    Hopefully, things are well with all of you!

    Keep us in your prayers!


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  • Sunday Gratitude (2.IV.2023)

    Sunday Gratitude (2.IV.2023)

    I am grateful this week for my cousin who calls me just to chat even when I neglect to call her.

    I am grateful for kind doctors – especially for the kids.

    I am grateful that a crazy situation this week involving one of my kids doesn’t look like it will have any negative consequences.

    I am grateful that this Lent is nearly over – it’s been spiritually and mentally brutal.

    I am grateful for experiences where people who I might be afraid of at least seem to be understanding and nice.

    I am grateful for friends.

    I am grateful that as much as there were supposed to be big storms over here, most of it blew over without any issues.

    I’m grateful that spring is nearly here.

    I’m grateful I got to go walking this weekend.

    I’m grateful for a little time alone, and I am grateful that the kids are back home.

    I am grateful for lessons learned (wisdom?) through adversity.

    As always, I am grateful for each one of you reading, and for your prayers.


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  • Wordless Wednesday #25 – Pilgrimage

    Wordless Wednesday #25 – Pilgrimage


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    Katja Probst et al grave

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    Nikolai Hamazaspian grave

    Alexander Schmorell grave

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  • It’s Tuesday – a perfect day for Sunday Gratitude! (26.III.2023)

    It’s Tuesday – a perfect day for Sunday Gratitude! (26.III.2023)

    I had hoped, at least, to get a “Sunday Gratitude” post up on the 19th, but things have been so crazy busy that it wasn’t really possible.

    I am incredibly grateful to have been able to get away for a few days, to have friends who don’t mind if I say – “I’m thinking of coming over, do you mind having me?” and it being no problem. Friends like family.

    I am grateful to God for seeming to help get all the pieces of the trip together – there are so many things that could have derailed it, and yet everything seemed to fall into place.

    I am grateful that even though the car had an issue this week, it still runs, and I was able to take it to the dealer, since the issue is still under warranty.

    So grateful for good neighbors…

    I’m grateful for the spring coming, even as the world is once again covered in white. I’m grateful that even with what – seven inches or so last weekend – I’ve not had to shovel a bit because it’s melting like crazy, and the sound of the water rushing off the roof and the eaves reminds me of the scene in “The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe” when the children know for certain that the Witch’s spell has broken because at this point, spring can’t be stopped.

    I am also very grateful that I was able to rescue pretty much everything from an SD card that malfunctioned while I was away. I’m not great with the Ubuntu Linux system on my computer yet, but I was very thankful that the card that would no longer read could be rescued.

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    As always, I am grateful for each one of you reading, and for your prayers.


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  • A Meteorologist’s Prayer

    A Meteorologist’s Prayer

    In college, I had a friend who was studying to be a professional meteorologist. He was a fanatic about the subject, and it was fun to get him to start talking about meteorology because he’d light up and speak with an incredible amount of enthusiasm – and joy. (And come on, you haven’t lived until you’ve watched the movie Twister solely for the comedy of going through all the technical errors!)

    Weather disasters are always interesting because in these small cases, the weather, which is often hardly even noticed, becomes a monster with an almost unbelievable amount of power. Many a locale has had its history changed irreversibly due to one of these monster events, and many, many people have died because of them.

    My friend, for example, was always fascinated by the power of some of these storms. I don’t think he was the type to do any storm-chasing himself, but even now when storms can be measured and mapped and predicted, almost necessarily, a lot of the might of the storm is measured in the destruction that is left behind. Meteorology aims to help people by allowing people to make better decisions based on what is happening with the weather,

    Advances in meteorology have certainly helped save many, many lives, particularly when it comes to catastrophic events such as tornadoes and hurricanes. Although there’s a lot that still a lot that the meteorologists don’t always get right, being able to issue warnings that give people more time to seek safety when these events happen is incredible.

    For meteorologists, storms are exciting and they are a reason why the science and profession exist. Yet they – the good ones, at least – do remember that behind all the science and technology, there are people living ordinary lives in little towns who are going to come face to face with something truly terrible.

    The embedded tweet is of meteorolgist Matt Laubhan reporting on a tornado’s path in Mississippi last night (March 24, 2023).

    As he realizes that the town of Amory, Mississippi is about to get a direct hit by a monster tornado, he breaks script and prays aloud, “Dear Jesus, please help them. Amen”

    Six little words. Yet our culture has come to the point where it is so taboo to something like this that it’s even made the international press: Dramatic moment Mississippi meteorologist calls on God as he watches major tornado head straight for the town of Amory (UK Daily Mail). It’s something, that under normal circumstances might endanger his career. The comments are interesting, both at the Daily Mail and at Twitter. Of course, there are the people mocking calling on an “imaginary being”, but I’ve seen quite a few people who claim not to be Christian or religious say that they were moved by this simple prayer. Six little words, plainly and humbly spoken, yet in the face of not being able to do anything else, a call to God to help when there’s nothing else that he can do.

    Amory did sustain damage. A local resident, Jay Holman, shot drone footage, some of which can be seen here: https://www.facebook.com/jay.holman.718/posts/pfbid02xvt2bC47Kxor42jV6eJKQ3g2r8K2HjvhoVUqpQKQdBuxyCB555Wv3fyPmp1qcusLl

    (A drone video from the same man can be viewed here: https://www.wtva.com/news/local/storm-damage-found-in-winona-and-amory-no-deaths-reported/article_bfaeb4b6-cac6-11ed-a574-dbf4df4bc67d.html)

    However, for the most part, Amory is still standing, and the area death toll looks like it is at three.

    Contrast this to Rolling Fork, Mississippi, about 200 miles away, where the drone footage shows another town that suffered a direct tornado hit in the same system. The town has basically been wiped off the map:

    Storms are fickle things, and there will never be “proof” that Amory’s survival had anything to do with one meteorologist’s prayer. But I am convinced, as surely as the sun shines above, that God hears our prayers and they are most dear to Him when they are the most sincere. This meteorologist, understanding well what a direct hit of a huge tornado means, called out to God in love for these people, despite the fact that many people will publicly ridicule him, and he risked the ire of the place where he worked. I believe his prayer was heard.


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  • Everything Fell Into Place

    Everything Fell Into Place

    I am exhausted, but for the first time in a very long time, in a good way.

    I did something crazy – I went for five days to visit friends, by myself, without the kids.

    I needed it. I needed to be embraced in that circle of love. I needed to be reminded that as much as things are not all right, that they will get better, and that not only is God there for me, but also the people who have become “chosen family”.

    At first, it didn’t seem as it was going to happen, as a Sunday return seemed impossible. When I changed it with the wild idea of coming back Monday, I had the best returns that were available. Not only that, but it worked out with a dear neighbor to get rides both in getting there and getting back, because she just happened to be scheduled for things that would make that possible.

    The Monday return made it possible to go to a church I hadn’t been to in years and years. It was amazing, and I got to go to Confession and partake of Communion. It seems to have also inspired a friend.

    Many times, God works in mysterious ways, but there are also times when it seems as though He makes things quite clear to the people who are willing to see them.

    Right now, there’s a lot to process, as all sorts of stuff is running through my head from the trip, and I’m crashing from the five days of adrenaline that made it possible to run around on very little sleep – then again, the sleep that I was getting wasn’t being interrupted by children, so it seemed so much more restful.

    (It’s taken a couple of days to get this posted, due to technical difficulties, kids, and just getting back into routine.)

    My mind is still racing, but I am grateful that everything seemed to just fall into place. God is good!

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  • Wordless Wednesday #24 – Small things

    Wordless Wednesday #24 – Small things




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